#this is a vent post in disguise theres a vent after the dots

[sundere1181]

i got a cut on my thumb and i genuinely dont know where it came from like it kinda just appeared

#this is a vent post in disguise theres a vent after the dots #........................................................................................................................................... #........................................................................................................................................ #anyway #just had a breakdown in the dark curled in a ball on my bathroom floor haha fun times #but like seriously i am falling apart at the seams and i do not know what to do #im over a month behind in school and my parents just said to me tonight that if i dont improve in the next four days not only are they- #-going to send me to fucking CHRISTIAN SCHOOL theyre going to cancel our trip to texas to see my brother and sister in april AND- #-our trip to egypt in june #which would be devastating bc ive been wanting to go to egypt since i was like FOUR. #and its just. math is most of the problem #and everyone i ask for help is like 'just ask your teachers/tutors' but its not that fucking SIMPLE because they teach me one math thing- #-and it takes the WHOLE FUCKING CLASS (one hour) to do FOUR FUCKING QUESTIONS #and then after im too exhausted to do anything else and we BARELY made any progress so i just get farther behind because im not DOING- #-anything on my own because the shit they just taught me doesnt apply anymore because its a new thing and i cant ask them for help again- #-because it just ended and i HATE doing those fucking one-on-one live classes bc its so DRAINING to mask and engage with the teacher AND- #-focus on the math