#this is also PROBABLY partially because i FOOLISHLY had a glass of wine yesterday smh how dare i

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#ohhhh #this is also PROBABLY partially because i FOOLISHLY had a glass of wine yesterday smh how dare i #i cannot drink at all. AT ALL. on this medication. #and i still have 2 weeks of it before i stop taking the pills #and another 2 after that before it's out of my system #like SHOULD i ever go back to killing a full bottle of wine in one sitting? no. obviously. 2014-2019 me had a problem lmao #I've had a lot of therapy since then #but I'd like to have 1 damn glass with dinner or friends without wanting to die #I'm down to a half a glass of wine a month and it's still too much while on this medication. and honestly lately ive even skipped that #but i reaaaaaaaally wanted a small glass yesterday while we were eating takeout and then cleaning #i didn't even finish it #and I'm already paying for it #the most fun part of this is that this medication I've been on for like 9-10 months didn't even help #just loaded me up with side effects and pain and no depression relief #so i love that for me #tbd I'm just so freaking tired and this broken filling/tooth is freaking me out and i hate hate HAAAAATE the dentist #tbd