#this is embarrassing reading these n i srs see how much ff has influenced me. it's actually. really really embarrassing

[noxtivagus]

Final. Fantasy.

#🌙.rambles #oh no. i accidentally ended up rambling so much on my priv twt bcs of drk. again 😭😭 #i think that's uhm enough for tonight though bcs i shld srs sleep soon (will definitely not but Still) #looking at old notes i have other ff quotes here n. vivi. sob. i rlly. rlly. want to replay ffix soon #this is embarrassing reading these n i srs see how much ff has influenced me. it's actually. really really embarrassing #my attention span help #ffxiv eden's promise. specifically promises to keep oh my god it's so. perfect. it's. heaven. to my ears. #i miss raiding T_T #NOOOOO SORRY MY ATTENTION SPAN JUST CHECKED MY SWITCH RQ #my aunt indeed has chrono cross the radical dreamers edition & girl oh my god that 225 hours on octopath #i. am just listening to music rn i cannot write i'll just do more later yeah FR THIS TIME #fr though just. i miss raiding so much. i rmb me n apollo being so woah bcs like. our static back on twintania had ppl from over europe ofc #from uk to france to germany. n some had turkish blood too iirc. damn i still rmb the accents oh my god. #apollo n i were like around 14 when we were raiding. which is pretty impressive oh my god we cleared the whole of eden's promise #i rmb how they'd ask how school was 🥺 n our fc/static lead was so kind i rmb how he'd check up on us too #I STILL RMB LIKE. smth like 'you two have been sick a lot lately' & 'you good? :c' or smth. #n then awww the way they'd say gn bcs we used to raid till 12 am n apollo n i had school yeah #i'm. really happy w my improvement. from sprout drk me i was so anxious to tank n now look i've cleared uwu <3 #i miss the old twintania static. honestly i still wish that. i cld've unmuted even once yk? but. anxiety. #my social anxiety was really so bad back in 2021 but i guess i had to manage yk. ffxiv rlly helped a lot goddamn #i miss those days a lot. but i'll cry if i think more on that n of other stuff too so i'll just sleep soon #i. genuinely do know that i ramble too much but. actually nvm i'll ramble even more if i say that #i'll just. leave this at here. i'm really going to organize myself this week #sigh i wanted to do. more before i slept. like work on smth rq or. idk. but nah. anxiety. i'm tired. nah. gn #my playlists r a mess my notes r a mess heck even my room is a mess n i look like a mess n my mind is. even more of a mess #but being self-deprecating isn't.. really me but. oh no if i go on i'll ramble to myself abt my dilemmas again fuck this i need to shut up #rn at least i just need my mind to shut up. n oh in the end i guess tonight i won't rlly be able to do anything again but #nooo fuck it i'll just end it at that. so much to do.. so much to think about. but. nah sorry tonight i think i'm too tired. sorry #tbd