#this might be the year i finally snap and talk to a dissocation specialist and see wtf is wrong with my brain

[mispronouncing-michaelangelo]

vent

if i get this apprenticeship im fr fr gonna have to go back into therapy aye i need to get this dissociation in check im really spiraling i shant lie

#i am loosing my grip on reality fr fr uwu #the other day i was so fucking convinced there were people in my house who wanted to kill me t-t im really not thriving t-t #ive lost about 2 weeks of memory #and the whole year was already hazy t-t #this might be the year i finally snap and talk to a dissocation specialist and see wtf is wrong with my brain #if i find 1 (one!!!) more fucking doc written in my phone that i dont remember in a writting style that isnt mine; im fucking snapping #same applies to waking up in a random ass part of town with no memory of getting my ass there #this shit aint normal!!! im p much certain!!! #i can live with the foggyness and the confusion but id rather actually do something about the memory loss #its upsetting and annoying and i want to not be like this please and fucking thanks t-t #dis meh #personal #cw: vent #5/3/2023