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#this post goes out to my toxic sister who threw me on the floor & we haven't spoke since
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Me once I get to know someone: *jokingly* yea lol I have abandonment issues 🤪 so I people please sorry if that's annoying
Ppl: awwww that's ok just b urself :)
Me: haha if ur sure I'm just playin anyway it's fine
Ppl: I'm sure, b urself 🥺
Also ppl the moment I express emotions other than adoration or acting goofy: *leave my life forever without a word and I never hear from them again*
Me: ...huh. this could have easily been avoided if I didn't express emotions, I should stop doing that
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Virago 03. Nobody’s Safe
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Summary: Y/N was sent to the ground after spending five years in the Skybox for stealing medical supplies and murder. How will she deal with her new environment and learn to survive on earth? Will she crack under the pressure of becoming a leader of the 100 or will she embrace it. 
Post Date: 05.08.20
Word count: 2.9k
Pairing: Bellamy Blake x Reader
Based off: 01x03 “Earth Kills”
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Some kid comes running up to us, “Trina and Pascal are missing,” Bellamy just sighs, gets up, and walks off. You follow along. He finds his way to Atom and a couple of other kids and tells them to go looking for them.
As Bellamy and Murphy have some brotherly bonding time throwing knives and stuff you see what there is to do around camp. You find mostly everyone setting up tents and building a wall to keep the grounders out. 
You go over to Octavia who is holding a tarp, “Hey, need help?” You ask her.
“Hey. Yeh just setting my tent up. If you could just help me drape it over that’d be great.” She responds as you grab the other side of the trap and walk to the other side of the frame. You two soon find out that the tarp is too small to cover the entire frame. 
“Ugh, this is the third one I’ve tried. I’m gonna go see if I can find a bigger one,” She says as she walks towards the dropship. You wait for her to come out, but a few minutes have passed so you go see what she’s up to.
You find Octavia talking to Atom before she storms out and you follow, “What happened?” You ask Octavia.
“Bellamy did,” She says sternly. We make our way to the tent where Bellamy and Murphy were. We walk into them talking about something, probably about hunting.
“What did you do to Atom?” Octavia questions her brother. He gestures for Murphy and you to leave but you just wait by the entrance. Octavia turns around and nods her head to tell you everything fine. You can hear Octavia’s muffled voice questioning her brother until she runs out of the tent after hearing  Jaspers pained moans.
You follow her into the Dropship and up to the next floor where you find Wells, Clarke, Finn, and Monty looking at Jasper, “Stop it! You’re killing him!” Octavia rushes over to Jasper.
“She’s trying to save his life.” Finn rebuttals.
“She can’t,” Bellamy says walking in, you look over at him and shake your head as Wells says something.
“We didn’t drag him through miles of woods just to let him die” You sigh.
“Kids a goner. If you can’t see that, you’re deluded. He’s making people crazy.” Bellamy replies.
“Sorry if Jasper’s an inconvenience to you, but this isn’t the Ark. Down here, every life matters,” Clarke sternly states.
“Take a look at him. He’s a lost cause.” 
“Just because you believe that, doesn’t mean that it isn’t worth trying to save him. We need every person to survive down here.” You state.
“Octavia, I’ve spent my whole life watching my mother heal people. If I say there’s hope, there’s hope.” Clarke says turning to Octavia whose looking at Jasper with a concerned look.
“This isn’t about hope, its about guts. You don’t have the guts to make the hard choices. I do. He’s been like this for three days. If he’s not better by tomorrow, I’ll kill him myself. Octavia, Y/N, let’s go.” Bellamy says about to leave.
“I’m staying here,” Octavia says not taking her eyes off Jasper. Bellamy looks at you expectantly before heading down the ladder.
“Power-hungry, self-serving jackass. He doesn’t care about anyone but himself. No offense” Monty says looking over to Octavia, who just shrugs it off. 
“I’ll talk to him, just give me some time,” You say before heading down the ladder.
You walk around camp looking for him, you find him in the tent he was in earlier with Murphy again, “So, when do we leave,” You ask walking into the tent.
“We? Who said anything about you coming.” Murphy questions.
“Well I for one,” You take the knife out of Murphy’s hand, “Am good with a knife, so what’s so different about a spear?” You say throwing the knife right at the base of Murphy’s foot.
“You missed,” Murphy says blankly, but you just give a smug look back.
“I said she can come, she is good with a knife,” Bellamy butts in.
Once everyone is gathered for the hunting party you all head out of the camp. You guys all walk for a little while, “You know you don’t need to be so hard on Octavia,” You say turning to Bellamy whose walking right beside you.
“She’s my little sister. I have to do what I need to protect her,” 
“From what I can see, she can protect herself. Just ease up, okay? Or at least try.” 
We then hear a boar oinking in the distance, Bellamy signals for the other guys to surround it. We make our way closer to the boar, “Shh-shh-shh-shh. She’s mine,” Bellamy says inching closer to the boar. All of a sudden a twig snaps behind us and Bellamy launches his ax into a tree behind us. The boar is scared off and the rest of the party runs after it. Bellamy goes to find where he threw his ax to, as you follow.
You find a young girl standing next to the tree Bellamy’s ax landed in, “Who the hell are you?” He questions her.
“Charlotte,” She says standing as stiff as the tree beside her.
“I almost killed you,” Bellamy says grabbing his ax.
“Why aren’t you at camp?” You question her walking up next to Bellamy.
“Well, what with that guy who was dying, I just- I couldn’t listen anymore.” She replies.
“There’s grounders out here. It’s too dangerous for a little girl,” Atom says from behind you and Bellamy.
“I’m not little,”
“Ok, then. But you can’t hunt without a weapon,” Bellamy smiles and hands her a knife. “Ever killed something before?” Bellamy asks and Charlotte shakes her head. 
“Who knows? Maybe you’re good at it.” Bellamy says, looking over at me and walks away with Atom.
“Come on,” You say and gesture her to follow.
You and the hunting party continue to walk through the forest but with no animal in sight. You then hear a loud bellowing horn and look to your right to see some yellow looking fog creeping towards you. You reach your hand out and when the fog reaches your hand, it starts to burn and you pull away screaming in pain. 
“Run!” You yell before pushing Charlotte away from the fog.
Everyone from the hunting group starts to run, “Come on! There are caves this way.” Bellamy says in front of you and Charlotte. 
You and Charlotte run along with Bellamy, she reaches for his hand and he pulls her along. He looks back at you to make sure you’re still there. Bellamy and Charlotte round a corner, he pushes her into the cave and then reaches for your hand and pulls you in. 
You stumble to the ground not expecting to be pulled with such force. You can hear Atom yelling Bellamy’s name but the fog becomes too overwhelming, so he makes his way into the cave. 
“You okay?” Bellamy says looking between you and Charlotte. Charlotte just nods and sits down on a small ledge. 
“Y/N?” Bellamy sits next to you. 
“Just another small scratch,” You say looking at your hand, which is red and has some blistering burns on it. 
“We should have Clarke look at that when we get back,” Bellamy takes your hand into his. You pull back and hiss as he rubs his fingers over the burns. You get up and check on Charlotte.
“Hey, it looks like we won’t be getting out of here soon. Why don’t you get some rest.” You say and take your jacket off so she can use it as a blanket. She nods her head and you lay your jacket over her lap as she gets as comfortable as she can be.
You lean up against the wall beside her and try to fall asleep. You feel something laid on top of you and open your eyes to find Bellamy hovering over you and smiles. You continue to try to fall asleep until you hear Charlotte let out a scream “No!”
“Charlotte, wake up,” Bellamy says and gets up.
“I’m sorry,” She says softly.
“There’s nothing to be sorry about,” You say taking her hand.
“Does it happen often?” Bellamy asks. Charlotte only sighs in response. “What are you scared of? You know what? It doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is what you do about it.” He says.
“But...I’m asleep.” 
“Fears are fears. Slay your demons when you’re awake, they won’t be there to get you when you sleep.” 
“Yeah, but… How?”
“You can’t afford to be weak. Down here, weakness is death, fear is death. Let me see that knife I gave you.” He says as Charlotte hands him the knife.
Bellamy takes the knife in hand, “Now when you feel afraid, you hold tight to that knife and you say, ‘Screw you, I’m not afraid’” And hands Charlotte the knife back. She repeats Bellamy’s words a few times. 
“Slay your demons, kids. Then you’ll be able to sleep.” Bellamy says and looks over to you and taking notice of your smile. He mouths to you “what” and you mouth back “nothing” and go back to sleep.
The next morning you find yourself laying close to Bellamy who clearly had been awake for a while. You shift and see Bellamy looking down at you, “Yes?” You ask scooting away from him. 
“Sorry, Just thought I shouldn’t wake you.” He says and gets up.
“Ok…..Well, we should get going. I’ll wake Charlotte up.” You say and hand him his jacket back. 
You walk over to Charlotte, “Hey, it’s time to go.” You say and slightly shake her.
She gets up and hands you your jacket. You walk out of the cave and find that there is no more fog, “Anybody out here? Jones?” Bellamy yells scanning the forest. We hear someone to our right and make our way over to them. 
“Lost you in the stew. Where’d you go?” Bellamy asks the three guys as we meet up.
“Made it to a cave down there, The hell was that?” Jones says.
“From the looks of my hand, maybe some kind of toxic fog?” You say and show them your hand.
“Where’s Atom?” Bellamy asks them. Jones just shakes his head no.
You and the rest of the guys split up to go looking for Atom. You told Charlotte to stay close to you but she disappears. You go looking for her until you hear a scream in the distance. You and Bellamy make your way over and find Charlotte staring at a red and boiled skinned Atom laying on the ground. “Son of a bitch. Atom.” Bellamy says and rushes to Atom.
You stay with Charlotte as Bellamy examines Atom. The rest of the group finds their way over to you guys and Charlotte gets closer to Atom and you follow. You can hear Atom struggling to breathe, Charlotte slips Bellamy her knife.
“Don’t be afraid,” Charlotte says quietly. Bellamy tells the others to make their way to camp, leaving him, you, and Atom. “You should as well Y/N.” You just shake your head and stand your ground. You kneel down to Atom next to Bellamy and listen as he begs Bellamy to kill him. You couldn’t help but notice the struggle Bellamy was having. 
You turn your head and see Clarke standing behind you guys. She makes her way to the other side of Atom, “I heard screams.” 
“Charlotte found him. I sent her back to camp.” Bellamy says. Clarke continues to examine Atom and shakes her head signifying that he won’t make it. Bellamy understands and nods.
“Okay. I’m gonna help you, all right?” Clarke says looking at Atom. She starts to hum a song. You notice Clarke’s hand make its way to the knife in Bellamy’s hand. You put your hand in front of hers, she looks up at you. Instead of letting her take the knife, you take it yourself. Clarke continues to hum and you slowly put the knife into the side of Atom’s neck and he dies. You put your hand on top of Bellamy’s and look at him. 
You wrap up Atom’s body with Clarke as Bellamy takes a moment, “Hey, I noticed the burns on your hand. I can take care of that back at camp,” Clarke says to you.
“Oh, thanks. That’d be great.” 
You, Finn, Wells, Clarke, and Bellamy all make your way back to camp. By the time you’re back, its night. You, Clarke and Finn, make your way to the Dropship, “It’s about time. They’re about to kill Jasper. Did you get the medicine?” Octavia says making her way out of the Dropship.
“Yeah, I...I got it. Come on. Let’s go talk.” Clarke says and tries to turn her away from Atom’s body. Octavia doesn’t follow and makes her way over to Bellamy and Atom’s body.
“Octavia, just stay there. Please, stay back.” Bellamy says holding her back. She continues to struggle against Bellamy’s grip before Bellamy just lets her through.
“There’s nothing I could do,” Bellamy tells Octavia.
“Don’t” She responds clearly upset.
“O...O..please,” Bellamy tries to get her attention but she just walks past him. 
Bellamy and Murphy break into a fight when Murphy calls Octavia Bellamy’s “psycho sister”, you try to break it up but it didn’t work. After Bellamy walks away, you go to find him.
“Hey, you alright?” You ask Bellamy, who you find sitting on the outskirts of the camp.
“Yeh,” He quietly responds while playing with a stick.
“You just need to give O some time. I’ll try to talk to her so she’ll know what really happened.” 
“No, it’s ok. She’ll calm down, I don’t want you to be getting in the middle of our sibling fight.” 
You two sit in silence for a while, until Bellamy takes your hand in his, “Thank you. For today,”
“For what?” 
“For taking care of Charlotte. Handling Atom. Even trying to handle Murphy,” He says, his voice getting quieter as he continued to list the things he thanks you for.
“It’s really no big deal. I mean you’re really the one who took care of Charlotte and Murphy needs to be taught a lesson somehow. I’m still figuring that one out though,” You chuckle lightly. 
You guys sit in silence for a little longer, “Well, I’m gonna see if I can get some medicine for my burn before Clarke goes to sleep. Don’t stay out here too long alright? See you in the morning.” You smile and squeeze his hand before walking towards the camp. 
You make your way into the Dropship and up the ladder. You get to the top as soon as Jasper wakes up, “Can I, uh, get a hit of that?” He says gesturing to the alcohol that Finn has in his hand. You, Finn, Monty, and Octavia rush over to Jasper to check on him.
“Let’s start with the soft stuff,” Finn says grabbing some water and giving it to Jasper. “Welcome back, buddy.”
“Was that a dream or did I get speared?” Jasper questions with his raspy voice.
“You’ll have a very impressive scar to prove it,” Clarke says as she makes her way over to Jasper from the ladder.
“My savior.”
“Thank you for not dying. I don’t think I could’ve taken that today,” Clarke says relieved.
“I’ll try not to die tomorrow, too. If that’s cool. Oh, hello.” Jasper responds and takes notice of Octavia off to his right.
You pull Clarke off to the side, “Hey, do you think I could possibly get something to help this?” You ask her and pull up your hand to reveal the burns.
She examines your hand for a little, “Yeh, lets clean it up first. I have some seaweed leftover and we can try and put some of that on top.” She says, grabs the seaweed, and makes her way down the ladder. 
You follow her outside and lead her into your tent. She cleans your wound and makes a poultice out of the seaweed. She presses it on, “Keep this on for 20 minutes. I can make a fresh one in the morning if you need it.” She explains.
“Thank you,” You smile as she packs up. Octavia walks into your tent, “Hey, I was wondering if I could talk to Y/N,” she says.
“I was just about to leave, shes all yours,” Clarke walks out of your tent. 
“What’s up O?” You ask and scoot over to make room for her to sit.
“I...I just can’t get out of my head of what happened to Atom. I want to believe it wasn’t my brother’s fault, but I can’t help but think it was.” She explains.
“I can assure you it wasn’t. That acid fog or whatever burns your skin on contact and it hurts a lot. “ You show her your hand. “If Bellamy could, he would’ve gone and saved Atom, I know it. The fog just got too thick to go into without dying yourself. I even would’ve tried if I could.  We need every person down here to survive sometimes we just can’t afford to be the hero,” You tell her.
Octavia sighs, “Thank you. I think. I’m still mad at Bell but this makes me feel a little bit better.”
“Bellamy told me not to get between you two. I promised I won’t but if you ever need me to talk to him or you need to talk to me, I’m always available.”
“No, he’s right. We shouldn’t bring you in but thank you. I’ll see you in the morning.” She gets up and leaves your tent.
A/N : Hey guys! I’m finally done with school and will be able to push out parts from now on. Thank you for waiting so patiently. I hope you guys enjoy this part. I actually enjoyed writing the last section between Y/N and the Blake siblings. I’m trying to make Octavia and Y/N really close (almost like sisters). I believe I’ll be posting parts every Friday (haven’t fully decided yet) so be on the lookout. Stay safe guys! 
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