#turning to that cursed website Quora . i can’t do this i’m just TERRIFIED i’ll fuck up and only realize it a year down the line

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#fretting over my future once more. i’m afraid i might actually kms if i go back to a regular school but i’m worried i’ll completely #fuck up my chances of getting into a university if i don't #turning to that cursed website Quora . i can’t do this i’m just TERRIFIED i’ll fuck up and only realize it a year down the line #i don’t want to think about what hasn’t even happened yet but i can’t just blissfully ignore the possible consequences either #i hate that this happened to me. i already had a Plan. a straightforward idea of what i was going to do and then i get ARRESTED omggg #why is it me that has to have my life disrupted like this‚ right? i hope hope hope things will turn out okay in the end but i am just sad #about everything that’s ever happened to me #i want to do the private candidate thing so badly but it means not finishing the last 2 yrs of highschool #i’d still technically be learning tbe same things but its more about the certificate or whatever that comes with it #and the friends‚ too .... #of course you only do this to me when i am almost at the finish line and ive found people i click with! thank you 👍🏻 salamat sa lahat 🤗 #i need to do more research on the topic before freaking out . but i'm just. eugh so so sososososo sad #💭 #negative #cw vent #edit: it is becoming more and more likely that finishing my edu in a regular school would be the best option but AHHH #i really. i really cant emphasize how much i dont want that for myself. i hate it #i miss my home so terribly. but whatever i guess! #also i relapsed so thats kind of a bummer ... #cw self harm