#vent.⛏️txt

[fellhellion]

Im obsessed (incensed) with people that value the facade of all “respecting” all political opinions. like no, denying me the legal right to things protection from bigotry and the right to marry is not a neutral issue. i have less than no respect for you for pretending in any way shape or form i should be obligated to "respect" the view that im undeserving of basic human dignity.

#god. #the worst bit is there’s no point having arguments w those people #I’ve given up on ever changing their minds #vent.⛏️txt #the worst WORST bit is these people looking at you after saying this #EXPECTING you to agree! to absolve them of any prickle of guilt they feel telling u to ur face u should respect the opinion you’re #underserving of respect #and all you can feel is a vague sense of disappointment that they weren’t the person you thought they were #you can even feel hurt about it

[hauntedestablishments]

i don't know how i end up in the groups im in because i am nowhere near as interesting or compelling as the people around me ever. i think i just kinda hover until they get used to me

#is this a vent? #⛏️.txt #lìke (BLANK) and (BLANK) far more interesting and fun to be around than me im just kinda there #i mean. im very happy im there i love them but How. #i have never contributed anything

[fellhellion]

Truly obsessed w the way I can tell someone I’m out to that I always hold myself at a distance from people until I know their perspective on gay folks, and that I simply just won’t do the damage to myself of arguing w you about my right to personhood, only for that person to go yeah absolutely, that makes sense and I’m personally neutral about gay people ❤️. Like girl the opposition wants me dead wtf are you being neutral about.

#worst bit was I honestly felt a vague sense of disappointment hearing them say that #definitely one of the most dissonant moments of my entire life like ah #you truly just say anything don’t you #vent.⛏️txt

[fellhellion]

Girls who live in terminal fear of overstepping boundaries and presuming more affection than exists RISE✌️

#I love how I can nail so much of my insanity back to like SHDJFJF specific childhood memories lmao #like oooooo guess who’s too affected by their past to grow! #vent.⛏️txt

[fellhellion]

very frustrated by how like. I constantly feel as though I accidentally obfuscate what I’m trying to say even as I’m trying to use incredibly precise tools to say it clearly 😭

#this too is yuri sbdbdnfnfnf #but yeah just. you can read such beautifully written essays #such a depth of meaning such a plurality there #and you can already read the essays that articulate their argument with laser sharp precision #and I constantly feel like I’m floundering lmao #ahhh yeah. just one of those days ig #vent.⛏️txt

[hauntedestablishments]

if i can't go to college genuinely think sucide is the only other option cuz like what's the point. i can't do anything because of this goddamn disease <3

#⛏️.txt #vent i suppose

[hauntedestablishments]

i hate wjen my mom talks about my health she's always like maybe this is a good thing! Blah blah blah because the changes we have to make benefit her. They aren't even helping me and also shut the fuck up ur not dealing with what im dealing with 👍

#⛏️.txt #vent i suppose

[hauntedestablishments]

The deterioration of this relationship is entirely on me she wants to spend time with she consistently asks to but i just can't bring myself to do it and to be completely honest i don't even know if i want to 👍👍 what is wrong with me i love her why can't i do it

#vent post i suppose #⛏️.txt

[hauntedestablishments]

i am going to ram my head into a wall repeatedly i wish i was born a boy

#maybe its because jm closeted so i havent REALLY experienced being trans #but there is no joy in it for me #i dont wanna b a trans man #i wanna be a guy whos always been a guy #i just feel like no matter how i look ill always b a girl #bc like #im never gonna experience childhood as a boy #n i feel like ill just never truly understand the experience of being a man #idk maybe this will all go away or at the very least get better when i come out n start transitioning #im just too scared to bc like. i dont wanna be seen differently by the people around me #i wanna judt be Me but a guy #also #my brother is kinda transphobic n i dont wanna lose my relationship with him over it!👍🏻 #why am i venting #these emotions just randomly came upon me #⛏️.txt