#we gave him an ultimatum and he wouldnt agree to no longer antagonizing/not making threats

[elle-chat]

I just realized I had started writing out that first incident with my dad threatening zorro back in may last year, I never posted it but its halfway written and still at the bottom of my drafts

guess it was a good habit to keep around him, always going into my notepad and writing out whenever he did shit

it was hard to win fights with him because I cry super easy and then he always tried to say i was trying to win the fight by crying and that "even tears wont solve this"

i was scared! you looked pissed and i was scared so i was crying because I cry when I feel a lot of an emotion!

he tried to say in the last few days how "never once had he ever raised his hand to us, never once gave us(my brother and i) and reason to fear him"

then why do we remember that differently? 4 times a year guaranteed always worrying if he is gonna live up to his threats and kick us out when he gets back, when we were young he would gather up our things in trash bags and lead us to the door

#for anyone just reading this rest assured we finally got out of that situation and left in july 2022 #to summarize #zorro is one of our cats/dad was teasing him after he had just been overstimulated due treats/vitamins #got told to leave zorro alone/ignored advice and got scratched when he would not quit messing with his tail/paws/trying to pet his belly #another incident happend in july where he was leaving my room and tried to pet zorros head and got hissed at #lost it and slammed his hand on either side of zorro and grrrrrahhhhed at him #we gave him an ultimatum and he wouldnt agree to no longer antagonizing/not making threats #called us traitors/claimed to disown us/told is we would need to find a new place to live #we did and had signed a lease by the next monday and moved in to the new place the following Friday #i think things only moved so quickly becquse we had been lowkey preparing for the eventuality anyway #i gad an exel spreadsheet prepared with over 80 places in our state that accepted cats/some out of our price range some not #another excel document with furniture to replace/we had long sinced moved anything we truly wanted to my closet for safekeeping #i had been building my credit for this purpose as well/and my brother had a good amount of his own savings that helped with the deposit