#well u shouldve thought about that BEFORE u made me a light as hell sleeper & made it impossible to fall asleep

[orcelito]

as someone with insomnia whose brain runs a mile a minute at all hours of the day every day always it's often hard for me to remember that i need sleep like everyone else does. like i see mentions of people sleeping and im like "lol couldnt be me" then i remember that i too must go unconscious every night, ideally for at least 8 hours a night, every single day, ad infinitum,

literally what is the point. i'd rather use my time for other things thanks

#speculation nation #and so i do. not that my body is very happy about this fact lol #well u shouldve thought about that BEFORE u made me a light as hell sleeper & made it impossible to fall asleep #would i LIKE to get more than 6 hours of sleep a night? sure! will that happen while ur like this? Probably Not! #and also the extreme hyperfixating. the all encompassing focus that makes all other things irrelevant #that's an autism thing probably. and as glorious as it feels it is frankly not very conducive to a good living situation #it'd be less bad if i didnt live alone and someone could strongarm me into doing my assignments and the dishes etc etc #or going to bed at a reasonable time. god i dont know how to do that right lmfao #agh fuck it's bedtime right Now for waking up for work. let alone if i still wanted to try going to class #that aint happening. im not gonna doom myself to like 4 hours of sleep. rip #fuck dude ive been working too much too. i probably worked over 30 hours last week. i dont even fuckign know anymore #i just wake up go to work go home repeat. my days off are filled with bad choices and too little self care #im dreading doing the dishes. it's been too long. ugh.