#what if i wanna entrust my ideas to someone else rn

[chiyoso]

#— Whispers Against The Void •• #i'm so tired actually #exhausted. so exhausted. #no but why does the thought of engaging in tumblr again so dreadful rn #writing has become more of a poison for me these past few weeks #i dont mind the silence and the less and lessening activity of my blog. pretty sure i can garner lots of shit again if i post something #but what if i wanna be the requester rn. what if i have ideas i cannot execute but i know others can? #what if i wanna entrust my ideas to someone else rn #gods its- what happened? where did my spirits and eagerness go? how and when did tumblr and writing become so poisonous for me #my priorities are all over the place and im not even on the list myself #if wanderer was here rn looking at me- hes be shitting his pants at first with pity then have this hidden heartbreak with the sight of me #im actually scared of shitposting again like before #or posting anything at all #haah fuck #'happy' new year people 🥰