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#when alt j 3ww said . f5 f6 f6 f5 f5
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i can feel every single nerve and organ and bone inside my body. an exercise in emptiness: what will the next thought in your head be?
#i feel like im going insane . went in the psych department w my friend again i decided to stop hating it for no reason except that its not
#maths . why the fuck dont you study ? because the module name starts with a PS ? i need to love it without
#feeling shame for myself . i feel like im gonna get into trouble with my university for prying open locked automatic doors at 1 AM but its
#alright (that building is haunted anyway). its not about him but it is but it really isnt its about everything it means its about the way i
#cant cry for myself the way i used to its the sadness and happiness and that im turning 20 soon and im going a little insane but im shocked
#that i still have friends i love im shocked that i am loved im shocked that i dont feel disgusted thinking about him yet
#(and ill look for a man to turn me into a hare just like you did when you did what you did)
#when alt j 3ww said . f5 f6 f6 f5 f5
#i constantly feel like my chest is about to explode and i have no idea why its a physical pain its great and also horrible
#id like to rip out my ribcage and put a bird and some flowers inside it id like to rip out my sternum and pierce the thoughts with it
#4 43 AM i have an exam about brains i stared at a vintage photo of a brain pinned and labelled i learned the names and positions of sulci
#im learning about magic (action potentials) and gates inside your brain and every day i learn how hard your body tries to keep you alive
#(his lips turn sharp when he smiles) (choking on flowers and music and fear) (feel every feeling inside my throat feel metal at the back
#of my head) (i miss your hard edges i miss your bone marrow)
#hypothesis : perhaps if i put my lips on someone elses lips and i dont let go of them for a few hours ill be okay
#needle (sharp like the spice in what i made you) shooting 5 mg of haldol straight into the hypothalamus . gave myself a concussion and
#since that night my head has been blooming . the violin today felt like liquid gold . moderato - spiritoso - the bow turned my heart inside
#out . id like to scream and i have no idea why but one day i will turn my vertebrae into a bouquet of flowers for you all.
#yesterday my boy with the beautiful hair looked at me and held me tight enough that i heard his heartbeat (or maybe it was mine)
#for a second or two and i wish i could lean on him for this except his heart has been crushed by the mathematician discerning eyes
#for a while and a half .
#dyed your hair red i dyed your hair brown youre on my bed and your hand touches my hand and every day i am amazed by the way your mind
#turns my guts and my heart inside out
#for a second or two and i wish i could lean on his bony shoulders for this except his lungs have filled with water
#for a while and a half . dyed your hair red i dyed your hair brown youre on my bed i stare at the grace of her hands you are evidence
#that angels and pomegranate seeds and create the economist of our dreams . game theory and good actions by any other name .
#she makes the sound the sea makes knee deep in the north sea
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