#when i start writing my original characters for heart render visual novel its gonna start getting so hard to keep track apologies in advanc

[floorpancakes]

recently ive become a mawarin meki childhood friends truther and i cant wait to write a whole bunch of it

they were clearly already friends before tanuki came into the picture but i like the idea that it goes back further and mawarin was the first to reach out and that while these two were the popular ones of the friend group in highschool they were also weird kids once (they're still both pretty weird. nothing about this friendship group is normal)

like mawarin is pretty good at holding in the things that make her different from other people (to the extent she seems like a normal friendly girl that could get along with anybody) but I keep thinking abt the idea of meki being kind of a loner for ages and being shunned by his classmates and stuff. after a point he probably wouldnt care but mawarin seems like the type to reach out even if she knows it could get complicated cause of her bad luck curse/non curse situation. like shes so much of a sunshine character its kind of hard to dim that kind of light. anyway I feel like even if she got deterred by the people around her she WOULD go up and make friends with the weird kid, and WOULD go do that again a second time no matter what (even if the latter is the type of guy who hisses at people).

plus its a good intersection of the traits of like

- meki is noted specifically as having a rough time growing up from being sick, spiritual nonsense and also the whole Situation (which I am choosing to interpret as trans stuff but like in general)

- watanuki being the latecomer to the friend group, and also notably a lot more of a loner rather than the popular type so he was probably adopted into a preexisting friendship at some point

I just like the idea that mawarin has an affinity for bringing weird kids out of their respective shells and that all three of them kinda see themselves in each other as individuals and a group bcs it adds an added layer of sentimentality to what's already been established. and its very found family vibes. I rly like the framework of what's already there in canon but my brain wants to make it even more compelling so it comes uff with stuff like this out of nowhere lol

anyway imagine if mekis mind was already set after the rain incident but himawari comes up to him one day like 'so like theres this kid in our year with no friends and i think he needs somebody cause he keeps eating alone at lunch can we keep him' 😭 like he's some sort of cat in need (he is) (thats exactly what he is)

and doumeki immediately is like yeah go for it (hes already had a life altering experience and at this point without himawari even knowing he's basically ride or die for the guy at first sight)

i like the idea that this like a lot of other things in the story is cyclical idk how to end this thought anyway this probably doesn't make sense im sick and thinking about holic is a good distraction

#apologies for having 95849495959 nicknames for every character from every series ever #i am aware it can become borderline unrecognisable but thats just who i am #when i start writing my original characters for heart render visual novel its gonna start getting so hard to keep track apologies in advanc #anyway #xxxholic #listen i came up with the idea a while ago and got REALLLLLY into the concept #oddly specific holic thoughts #thinking abt meki going from being picked on to being mega popular #then immediately realising its kind of a pain and being like lmao fuck that #then immediately becoming head over heels in love with the weirdest loneliest hissing at people est circus clown he meets #truly a disorganised ramble just bear with me on this #hope this makes sense to somebody #theyd probably make friends in middle school or sometime slightly beforehand #sometime when doumekis already kinda settled into his idgaf era but not enough that he feels fully ok about being alone #middle school class rep mawarin being surprised all her friends want her to stay away from the weird kid that eats alone in the corner #i feel like meki would get a reputation for saying weird shit and living at the temple and being 'haunted' and creepy and quiet #along with all the other stuff #him having a different but similar reputation to watanuki as a kid just kinda checks out to me