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Survey #439

“all the other kids with the pumped up kicks, you better run, better run, outrun my gun”

Have you written a letter to a soldier? No. Ever been in a perfect relationship? I thought so. But no, those don't exist. The last song you listened to? "Broadcasting From Beyond" by Motionless In White. Have you ever wished you could hurt somebody as much as they hurt you? I... have, but I don't wish that at all anymore. Has a dentist ever screwed up on anything when working on you? No. Would you rather be a successful writer or artist? Artist. Who are you in love with? Nobody. Does someone’s view on homosexuality affect how you feel about them in any way? It sure as fuck does. How about someone’s view on religion? Nah. Well, usually. It depends on the beliefs themselves and to what extremity. What is something you wear that others might consider unfashionable? Flipflops, like... year-round, lmao. What kind of pill did you last take? It's called Lamictal, the catalyst for my primary mood stabilizer. Do you like wearing glasses? No. I'd wear contacts if I had the patience and non-shaky hands. What first comes to mind when thinking of 10th grade? Jason. -_- That's the year we started dating. What’s the scariest thing that’s happened to you? A traumatic breakup. Has an ambulance ever came to your house? Yes, for my mother. The person you’re thinking about - what are you thinking about them? Well, because you mentioned him, I'm thinking about Jason and just how I fucked shit up 'n stuff. How many different cars have you driven? Uhhhh I want to say two? But maybe just one? Was the last person you hung out with single? I guess that would be my mom, in which case yes. Have you ever attended a private school? My last college was a private school, yes. Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? No, and for that I am incredibly grateful. Have you ever cooked for anyone other than yourself? Yeah. I've made scrambled eggs for my family before as breakfast, and I did the same for Sara, too. Would you rather live in the city, the suburbs, or the rural area? Ugh, take me back to the middle of nowhere, please. :/ Do you know someone who is really ambidextrous? Sara! Are you adopted? No. Who was the last person that cried in your presence? Probably one of my nieces or nephew. Can you write your name in a foreign language? Uh, I think? In the German alphabet, "y" isn't actually a letter, and my name is Brittany, so I'm not entirely sure if it would be spelled that same way or not, but I think so. Who is the person you often go to for venting? My mom. Was the last person you kissed male or female? Female. Do you say “I love you” even when you don’t mean it? No. That shit can scar people (aka me) so goddamn deep when they don't mean it anymore. What’s the one thing you regret more than anything? Things I wrote to Jason in letters after the breakup. I would literally give a limb (no, I'm not exaggerating) to take it back. There are times I actually do wonder if we would've gotten back together if I wasn't just... a bitter and ridiculously hurt fuck that took it all out on him. Do you like vanilla? Yes. Do you own a bean bag chair? No. I actually do want one for my extra room/"office," though, to read on. Have you kissed any friends on your Facebook? Yeah. Do you get snow where you live? Occasionally, but it's very rarely a lot. What’s your favorite flavor of Doritos? Cool Ranch. Do you ever worry about what the world will be like when you have kids? Good thing I ain't havin' 'em. Have you ever seen a hippo in person? Yes. Do you like the band A Skylit Drive? I've actually only heard their "Love The Way You Lie" cover, which I do like. Have you ever been to any professional sports games? Yeah, with my dad. What’s the most boring sport to watch? Golf. But I don't particularly enjoy any. Do you like lip rings on the opposite sex? MHMMMMMMMMMMMMM. If you suddenly went deaf, what would be your most missed sound? Music. Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? If I actually wanted a dog, a Rottweiler. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional, for sure. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? Zoo. Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? I know damn well I'd say yes to Jason in a heartbeat. Literally before even getting to know the current him. That's how emotionally attached I am to him, even with the trauma. I'd get back together with Sara if/when we both are more stable emotionally and with clear direction, which is mostly on my end now. I also don't think I'd be ready until one of us is able to move for the other. Is there a certain quote you live by? No. Do you have any tattoos? I have some, but not nearly enough. :( Are you friends with the last person you kissed? She's my bestie! :') Green or purple grapes? I don't really have much of a preference, so long as they're crisp. What is your ringtone? Just something that came with the phone. If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? Fuck no. What is something you wish you had more of? Adventure, for one. Have you ever trusted someone too much? JASON. HOLY FUCK. It was FACT to me that we would, could, never break up. It just... wasn't possible in my head. It was like breaking the laws of the world. When he told me he loved me and would never leave, I believed that shit as if it was God himself promising that. I've never and will never trust someone like that ever again, because it wasn't healthy in the slightest. Do you sleep with your window open? Noooo, that would freak me out. Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? Yeah; Tyler had snakebites. Did you go to high school with your current best friend? No; we live in different states. Whose was the last funeral you attended? Ummm I'm actually not sure. Do you avoid using public restrooms? Yes. Do you like eggnog? Nooooo. Who is the person you dislike the most? It's so fucking stupid... I know it is STILL the girl Jason dated after me. I don't even think they're together anymore, so why the fuck does it matter? I know NOTHING about this poor girl that just found someone she really liked and got dumped FOR THE SAME REASON AS ME. It shouldn't fucking matter, at all, but it still does in my head. Do you take part in paying the bills for your household? No, because I don't have an income. What is your favourite way to eat rice? As pork fried rice. What is the longest relationship you’ve ever been in? Over 3 1/2 years with Jason. Do you currently have any alarms set? No. How many cars can fit in your driveway? Barely even two. What was the first television show you were obsessed with? Pokemon. Do you eat chili when you get a hotdog, or do you like it plain? I don't like chili. Would you ever tell your mom about the things you’ve done sexually? Not EVERYTHING, no. I wouldn't tell her anything at all unless she asked. I don't like talking about that stuff. Have you ever been in a car wreck? Yes. Has anyone ever told you that they think you have ADHD? Yes, which was absolutely, utterly ridiculous. Has anyone ever called you a sociopath before? No. Has anyone ever taken your own clothes off you before? Yes. Is there someone you want to kiss right now? Probably always will. -_- Have you ever had a real tea party? Or been to one? Ha ha no, but my little sister used to love to have little ones with her Disney princesses plastic tea set. She would always ask Mom or me to have one with her. Have you been called a tease? Only playfully. Did you kiss the last person you really wanted to kiss? Yes. Would you ever go to a protest or be involved in a protest? So long as it was peaceful, yes. When playing rock, paper, scissors, which do you usually pick? Scissors. Have you ever tried to write a book? Yes, when I was younger. Have you ever been hit by a chunk of hail? No. Is it true that if you don’t love yourself, you can’t love another? Absofuckinglutely not. I'm proof of that. That idea is such bullshit. Do you share a bed with anyone? Just my cat. Who is one very unique celebrity/musician/whatever that you love? MARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Could you handle babysitting two small children at once, such as two children under three years old? OH FUCK NO. Would you say that people consider you a major flirt? Definitely not. Do any of your friends have children? Yes. Would you rather cry in public or make someone else cry in public? I would FAR rather cry myself. I would feel so, so bad for making someone else cry, not even just in public. Would you rather re-live today forever or not live? Not live. Would you rather be just rich or rich and famous? Just rich. Who was the last person of the opposite sex to be in your bedroom? My nephew, I believe. He and Aubree wanted to see the snake. What’s your favourite kind of Cap’N Crunch? The "All Berries" one. What is your favourite Pepsi product? Mountain Dew. Is the computer you’re using yours? Yes. Do you get upset when a dog jumps on you? Not at all. I got used to that, and besides, it's cute to see them so excited. Is there a video or computer game that you can get lost in for hours? World of Warcraft, sometimes. I usually play it daily, but there are some days where I just am not interested in it. What do you like on your pizza? Meats and/or jalapenos. Do you get breadsticks with your pizza? Mom usually gets 'em, yeah. Did you ever have a waterbed? Yeah. Not one anyone slept on regularly, but just like, a plastic one or whatever the material was to sleep in if someone was staying over. What toy from your childhood do you miss? I wish I didn't get rid of my big crocodile toy that I was obsessed with. :'( He was like the main character in the world I made up for him and his family. Have you ever been to a rock concert? Yeah. \m/ What is your religion? None. Do you like listening to love songs? Meh, I have to be in the mood, plus it depends on the song. A lot of them trigger me. What is one meal that you like to eat while sick? I'm nervous to eat when I'm sick, so I mostly just have saltine crackers and ginger ale. Have you ever fed bread to ducks or geese? Yeah, when I was a kid and didn't know it was bad for them and the water. I never would now. The name of the last board game that you played? I think it was "Sorry!" with the kids. Has anyone ever commented on your weight? I mean, doctors, but not in a judgmental, belittling way. Just in a way that expressed concern for my health. Have you ever thought about joining the military? NOOOOOOOOOO. Have you ever felt like you were going out of your mind? Yes. And I don't mean that as an exaggeration; I believe I've literally qualified as insane at a point after the breakup. I was so fucking delusional and desperate and just going in circles. Are you ever jealous of happy couples? Meh, sometimes. Lately, who has spent the most time on your mind? Take a guess. .-. It's been pretty bad lately. Do you ever feel like someone would be disappointed to see your body or are you comfortable with your body enough where you don’t think that? I have a HORRIBLE body image. My body fucking disgusts me. I don't even like my mother seeing me get changed or anything like that. I don't want ANYBODY seeing me naked. What is your favorite flavor of Monster? I don't like any that I've ever had a sip of. Have you ever ran from the police? No. That never goes well. Do you have any trophies? Yeah. Do you like screamo music? No. What does your wallet look like? It's a checkered Harley Quinn one. Is there something nobody knows about you (and what)? Yes. Why would I share that if I don't want anyone to know? Does your family have a secret? No. Do you do anything to help the environment? We recycle. Mom also cuts up those plastic things that come with soda bottles packed together, as well as some other plastic wrappings. We are both disgusted by people who litter, so we avoid that. I also try to conserve water where I can, like by turning the sink off when I brush my teeth. There are other little things, but I wish I did even more. Do you like to take pictures of yourself? FUCK NO. It is so rare I do that nowadays. When/where are you most likely to sing? The car. Would you ever wish to explore a cave? OH MY GOD, PLEEEEEAAAAASE <3 What is the most illegal thing you’ve done? Pirated an expensive editing software, oops. :x Have you ever seen somebody get shot? LKJ;ALSDJFA;JWELKRJLW;Q NOOOOOOOOO.

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Everyday Flawed Heroes

I was eight years old when Mom married George. He wasn’t like anyone I’d ever been around and definitely not the type of guy you’d ever expect to see my Mom with. He was brash, loud and the grease under his finger nails was so deep that it went straight to the bone. He was classic Detroit. His formal education stopped somewhere around eighth grade when he was expelled for punching his Science teacher yet his knowledge of cars was expert level. Sometimes, as we would be standing in some random garage with one of his friends as they stared at him in wonder while he easily solved the mystery of their sputtering Chevelle, I would picture his brain as an engine. Pistons firing in perfect unison, taking apart the problem at hand with industrial genius, I thought he was so cool.

He didn’t have any competition in the “Dad” arena so that probably helped him out. My biological father was never really in the picture and Mom only dated one other guy before George. Leon. What an uptight turd. Dude always looked like he was wearing wax lips, a disgusting compliment to his black feathered bangs and terrible three piece suits. He was boring but he sang in the choir at church so my grandma really pushed him hardcore. Eventually Ma told him to kick rocks when he yelled at me for touching his Christmas tree lights. “Those are very expensive! They are not toys little girl!!!” he hissed, revealing exactly how big of a high strung asshole he truly was.

I also acquired two new grandparents from their union which felt like a huge bonus in this whole deal. George’s parents were incredibly welcoming, treated me like one of their blood grandchildren immediately, never once making a difference between me and his brother’s kids. Delbert and Polly were from a small border town in Kentucky near the Ohio River Valley. It’s pretty gross now to think of it but they married in 1941 when he was 18 and she was 13. I know. Ewww… but shit man, these are freakin’ mountain people and this was a long time ago. At least they weren’t related, hopefully. I guess it was sometime after Delbert got back from World War II that he moved them to River Rouge, Michigan. He would eventually get a job at Great Lakes Steel and spend the next 45 years of his life in that place. It would also claim my step-father’s dreams and health as he would spend 35 years there also only to lose half his pension while he steadily enjoys kidney dialysis three times a week, which is pretty much the ballad of the blue collar worker.

Polly spent a lot of time at the bingo hall and she often bragged about the amount of attention she still received from the opposite sex. Even as an eight year old kid I thought this was a weird thing to do in front of your husband but Delbert never seemed to mind. He would just chuckle and dance with the dog, one of his favorite activities. Once those 45’s dropped into the player and Conway Twitty, Jerry Reed or George Jones’ voice climbed out of the speakers, their small white Terrier Pete knew his dance partner was ready for a spin. Delbert would scoop him up into his arms and they swirl around the small sitting room of their modest but well kempt home. “She was hotter than a two dollar pistol, she was the fastest thing around…” he’d sing to Pete like Grandma Polly and I weren’t even in the same zip code until he needed me to change the record. Also why the episode of “King of the Hill” when Hank and Ladybird enter the dog dancing competition has always held a special place in my heart.

For a time I would go to their house every day after school in fourth grade until mom got off work and Delbert and I would always watch Barney Miller and Soap reruns. I would help Polly with the T.V. guide crossword puzzle and Papaw Delbert, he liked me to call him Papaw, would take me to the corner store to get her lottery tickets every evening. Sometimes I would hear mom argue with George about them, that they weren’t good role models for me and I didn’t understand it. Especially because Papaw Delbert had won a Purple Heart while serving in World War II, he was a hero. I asked him several times what happened to him, what kind of injury he received but he would always change the subject.

He would talk about the war though. He actually had several great stories, the best of which took place on New Year’s Eve 1944. After spending several weeks slogging across France, fighting in small battles and freezing his ass off in icy foxholes, his unit ended up in Neunkirch. I believe the Battle of the Bulge was going on at the same time but he wasn’t directly involved in that. There were tons of other smaller skirmishes taking place all around. On December 31st, 1944 as a heavy snowstorm blanketed this town of France they were attempting to defend, German soldiers, some quite drunk, others just tipsy attacked while yelling at the top of their lungs “Happy New Year Yankee Bastards!!!” Of course he spared me the gritty “Saving Private Ryan” details but needless to say they held strong and pushed them back. In fact, two of the Germans lay dead in the abandoned air field on which the battle took place until February as a warning and a war medal of sorts. I LOVED this story. To me, Delbert was a real life badass and I couldn’t believe how lucky I was to get to be his lottery ticket, Barney Miller, dog dancing record changer side kick.

That summer Papaw Delbert was mowing the lawn when my step-dad and I pulled up on his motorcycle. It was extremely hot, even for Michigan so I assume that’s what prompted a man in his sixties to be shirtless in the front yard. George went inside and I took a spot on the porch waiting for my bestie to finish his chores so we could hang out. The sun glared down on his sagging frame, illuminating a myriad of scars along his chest, abdomen, back and shoulders. Some were small while others where much larger and jagged. The mower cut off with a choke and he walked over, grabbing the sweating glass of iced water on the steps, chugging it down quick.

“Wow Papaw, so I guess I see now why you got that Purple Heart. All of those cuts and marks. What happened?” I asked, fully ready to hear this horrid war story he never wanted to speak of.

He looked puzzled for just a brief second then broke out into a fit of boisterous laughter.

“Oh! No kiddo! These didn’t happen in the War. Your grandmother did this.”

What I would find out later that night as I pressed my mother for truth is that Delbert had cheated on Polly for pretty much their entire marriage. AND-that every single time she caught him, which was almost every time he did it, she would stab him. Now I know I did a soft count of maybe 20 wounds on that man, there were probably more, so who knows how many times she truly took a knife to his flesh. This was my first real lesson in how complicated people can be and how there is rarely flat out good and evil. Most of the time good people do shitty stuff and in the end, you weigh it out. Delbert may have been a crappy husband but he was a Patriot, a loyal American, a great step-grandfather and a pretty good dog dancer.

#World War II #memorialday2017 #grandparents #family #detroit

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