#which i cant blame him 😢😢

[achilleslyre]

i need to not go to sleep in the literal morning today bc that’s what i’ve done the past two days and i have things to doooo AND my brother nephew and sil are here now so we’re seeing him wednesday and i CANT be sleeping thru that. like i should be sleeping now but i’m not tireddddd. someone shoot me or smth idk

#my bros train got here around 10 so #there’s a chance i’ll see him tomorrow but my dad told me he thinks wednesday when i was talking to him yesterday about it #AUGHHHHH IM SO EXCITED TO SEE THEM 😭😭😭😭 #like actually vibrating i miss my brother so much #and i hope seeing him might have him be more willing to relair the bond… #repair #cause he didnt talk to me for 4 years but last year he emailed me but he said hes not ready to actually make a relationship w me again bc #the thought of me brings up too many traumatic memories of our *** from childhood #which i cant blame him 😢😢 #but i still miss him so bad… #he was like my best friend #RAAAA i hope i get to spend a while with them all…. #im gonna take sooo many pics of my nephew….