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jonathankatwhatever · 4 years

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I finally managed to listen to Cardigan in depth. Had to see the picture disk images. And now I cant think about the song. I didn’t have anything interesting to say anyway. The line through and the negative shaping, with the way the reflection in the water reflects over as the line tilts. Draws a perfect v and I see perfect vertical x as well. Is that a dirty joke I see?

About the song. I listened to it through my phone speaker in the car to see how that worked. Then through ear phones as I waked. Not sure how to say this but I loved the space in it. The way it doesnt flow but flows. The way it jumps around as it smoothly transitions. It’s a poem written with melody set to music. Why is it so hard to talk about these concepts? Poem, melody, music. It’s a poem: not a typical Taylor Swift poem/lyric with an apparent topic set out in a logically apparent order, with specific restraint and casually brilliant turns of phrases, an order removed from the blunt brilliance of your prose (because you understate poetry so the statements stand out). This is a poem with gaps between the thoughts, which returns to a central image that is an abstraction removed from the usual: instead of a reference to an actual object, you invoke the metaphor of you as the object. The substitutions, like sensual for sexual, contain great depth, transforming the negatives inherent in the politics of co-existence into loving acts.

A line like leaving like a father, with the dad reference in cardigan. To leaf out. To grow. To grow out of the branch. To be nourished with water and light. To having been but still with you, and more, with that single line sitting poetically on its own, connected to running like water only in the less obvious ways, like shards of images that convey a totality through hints that combine at deeper layers. I saw this happen somewhat in Lover, but it was in the song for Cats that I saw a wholly worked out lyric that specifically defined what the movie was supposed to be about. (Too bad the music wasnt nearly as strong as it needed to be. But Taylor seemed to be the only one in the right movie, so the misconception was general.) I’m trying to say that if you can do that, to recast a show so it would work on film where the song describes the character who is meant to pull it all together, to do that with clarity said to me you can do that with less clarity. It’s different than the intentional unclarities of reputation, understated, fragmented differently, as though the space has grown. Which it has because ... no, stop. This is not what I mean to say.

You can do a reverse Elton; you get music and write the words which fit, alterations, better fit. Bernie wrote, then Elton wrote. The poetry is better because I dont need to hear music to hear the music in the ideas as they flow. They have a natural melody that fits to the beat. Like the end: and you’d come back to me. In a lyric, that’s obviously part of a song, which means it might just be melodic repetition. In a poem, the subtle changes And I knew, removed, And added, to me subtracted, imply repetitions of coming back, so the meaning becomes each time you come back you put me on and say I’m your favorite. That changes the emphsis so now it can mean different word plays; you put me on, like you told me a story, and said I of all the others was your favorite, which is what you probably say to every girl.

That’s not it either. My reaction. My reaction is that there’s a story men are drawn to of the child set aside, like Telemachus left to grow up without his father, so the return in the story is really as much about uniting the stories of the father who went to war and the boy who grew up in his absence. In the absurd violence of myth, father and son unite to kill wife/mom’s usurpers, thus claiming her for their roles. It’s another triangle. And this story becomes men who find out they have a son or daughter. Those get weird because the male approach

After I first heard the song, midnight when that was, my thoughts turned to Anne and Sarah plotting to make a lasting peace to benefit and tie together the UK, sacrificing their friendship to convince the world John was truly on the outs, so he could travel around Europe as a visible reminder that if Anne needs him, he will destroy your armies again. The hidden mastery of dedicated women. The reference to your favorite carried right over from and through the movie. So I return again and again to the line. Like it’s Daisy’s dock. If you were my old cardigan, you’d be the one my dad wrote in. If you were my metaphoric cardigan, you’d be the person attached to the man I wear.

And you did find two girls and lost the one. I was up til 2AM drawing out triangular relations that mutually invert, so one of the three sits between (and thus these form squares). Two levels arent enough, and it took a few attempts to get through a third level. I also realized the corners all labeled as J’s in the angular alphabet. The part I can only think I have right is private, but it explains a ton because it creates a double connection that is also a block, meaning the 1’s at one end, 0’s at the other, versus 1’s at both ends. Different forms of pairing and bonding. It would feel beautiful if I werent so anxious and full of fear.

As I was looking at the drawings, I counted the connections at the 1 ends and realized they’re superficially 12 and 14 but these count differently, meaning up to and over 13 and over 15 when I count the irrationality. That suprised me: to see a 13 emerge in one orientation as a layering. That pictured the balance I’ve been experiencing is achieved. Cant put more into words.

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