#with my metal illness and brainworms and refusal to get up and do something useful

[slimeciclecock]

Girl where is my joy where is my whimsy why am I tired everyday why don't my interests satiate me 😭 I'm not even depressed why can't I get my enjoyment :////

#everyday i go to work and come back and apparate for 7 hours or take naps that tire me out #im not getting my dopamine fix i am so understimulated everyday i cant get myself to do anything #why do i have a one track mind ehy cant i have like hundreds of interests that i can pick from the shelf when i need a break #this is so annoying and boring it makes me wanna live in a hole or be the most ruthless merciless heinous person known to man #why are all my interests so obscure or so dry/lacking of good content that i have to be the one who makes content #but as it turns out im forever in a creative slump where i cant create without a 6 month break in betwen so i just kinda sit there w my #with my metal illness and brainworms and refusal to get up and do something useful #ive watched like 40 mins of the secret life of walter mitty but i think im going thru that bullshit ? #brain in a constant state of tired can i just take it out put it in a jar and refill w juice #.... maybe i am depressed i just keep forgetting #oh well 🤷