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blaze-ee · 1 year

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just relapsed after being 112 days clean. want to kill myself

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blaze-ee · 1 year

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ive been in recovery for 10 months now. am i fat or skinny? how much do u think i weigh?

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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TW // SA MENTION & GRAPHIC(?) SH MENTION

he touched me. he touched me. he touched me. he touched me. he touched me. he touched me.

he touched me.

now please let me scratch at my skin until it’s raw and bleeding and goes back to being

untouched.

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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#getting skiny #self destruction #tw depressing stuff #tw self destruction #i want to be skiny #skinspo #sadgirl #anotexix #self harrrm #only pr0 for myself #kinky girl #skinnnny #pro ans #i wanna be pretty #tw eating things #anotexia #im ugly

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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the urge to relapse with my ed

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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“are you okay” mf you’ve seen my blog you tell me

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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The Things You Aren’t Told Often Enough in the ED Community:

1. LOOSE SKIN. EVERYWHERE. Your body cannot keep up with you starving yourself so your skin gets flabby and loose.

2. Too much water can actually kill you. Stay hydrated but don’t over do it.

3. I had found that my acne was getting worse when I wasn’t eating.

4. Fats and carbs are actually good for you as long as they aren’t eaten in excess.

5. Being a few hundred calories over your goal for the day WILL NOT make you gain.

6. Anyone who is pushing you to starve or otherwise harm yourself is toxic and need to get the hell out of your life.

7. DO NOT START PURGING. Not only is it addictive but it is harmful to your hands, mouth, esophagus and other organs.

8. DO NOT TAKE LAXATIVES AS A WAY TO GER RID OF A BINGE. Not only does it severely dehydrate your body but your body can become dependent on them to even have bowel movements and it can damage your organs.

9. You may make an Ugw but what tends to happen is you will always go for lower. The number won’t ever satisfy you.

10. Passing out while doing very mundane things isn’t normal.

11. Most, if not all of your relationships are completely fucked because you invest all your time and energy on your destructive tendencies.

12. You are constantly exhausted and can’t spend time with family/friends/significant others.

13. Seeking help doesn’t make you weak nor does it make your struggle less real. It makes serious courage to ask someone for help.

14. Your hair falls out in clumps, your nails are brittle and a strange color, your skin bruises with the slightest touches, you are always sore, you become captivated by your isolation.

15. FUCK PRO ANA ACCOUNTS

Your experiences matter.

You matter.

You are beautiful and loved and I hope you find peace in yourself one day.

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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To any suicidal followers I may have: This is a sign to not kill yourself. You are loved and the world is special because you are in it. Keep holding on.

Reblog this when it’s on your dash. You will save someone’s life.

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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ed level: stressed about calories I haven’t even eaten yet

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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Idk what eating disordered bitch out there needs to hear this but

Allow yourself to eat when you are sick. (If you have a uterus) Allow yourself to eat when you are on your period. Allow yourself to eat when you are grieving.

Your body NEEDS calories to heal itself and recover and if you don't allow yourself to eat when you're unwell you will get a lot more unwell. I know part of this disorder is wanting to be sick, but thats not the kind of sick you want to be. Please please, if you do nothing else, eat when you're sick. Try not to count calories when you're sick. You can go back to restricting when you're well! Your body will not hold it against you and you will not get fat. You need food to heal from sickness, traumatic events, fatigue.

You have to stay alive to get skinny, so please allow yourself to eat when you're sick.

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blaze-ee · 2 years

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#getting skiny #pale skin #i want to be skiny #self destruction #skinspo #tw depressing stuff #tw self destruction #sadgirl #kinky girl #tw self half #anotexix #skinnnny #thinspration #skip dinner get thinner #bulimyc

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blaze-ee · 3 years

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:)

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blaze-ee · 3 years

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reasons people might be looking at you in public (that aren’t negative)

they like what you’re wearing.

you look like someone they know.

they recognize a piece of clothing or accessory you’re wearing.

they think you’re beautiful or attractive.

they’re zoned out / bored and people-watching.

they recognize you from somewhere.

they’re hesitating to ask you something or give you a compliment.

they’ve seen you in that same place before.

you caught their eye.

you look like how they imagined a fictional character to look.

you remind them of something.

they’re admiring one of your visual qualities (smile, stance, hairstyle).

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blaze-ee · 3 years

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It is never too late or too early to recover.

You are never too sick or not sick enough to recover.

You don’t have to earn the right to recover.

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