#woke up at 5am from a nightmare of my datemate dying and then was stuck awake for an extra hour and a half after the fact from emotions

[vitiateoriginator]

Today has not been good :'3

#slept like shit #woke up at 5am from a nightmare of my datemate dying and then was stuck awake for an extra hour and a half after the fact from emotions #hit my head against my datemate's when I went to seek comfort (hurt myself in the process. luckily I took all the damage datemate was fine) #saw my dad's shitty fucking sister at the pizzarea right next door to where I live (we are no contact for very obvious reasons) #ran out of the pizzeria even tho my datemate and I had planned to eat there then proceeded to have a panic attack after going outside #my datemate and I then went to walk thru the neighborhood as quickly and as far from where we actually live as possible in case #she tried to follow us #while doing so my sis sent a condescending message telling me my datemate is an ass because he supposedly had an attitude with my mom before #we left. my sis just misinterpreted his tone. but my datemate saw the text and it pissed him off because my sis always does this shit #overracts or reads into what he says even when he doesn't mean any harm #so then he started talking about being done with it and wanting to leave. reminder I was still having a panic attack and in full flight mode #so hearing him talking about leaving made me spiral and I walked away from him and went really far in another direction while crying #and then we started fighting over telegram after I didn't answer his ph9ne call (it was an accident tho #I was trying to check my phone to se if he'd messaged me but as I pressed my power button he started calling n it turned my screen off #instead of on like I wanted) #we did make up tho its all good we went hoke together and cuddled it out #but while doing so I misplaced my glasses. I have absolutely no idea where in my apartment they are. I've checked everywhere #last place I saw them was on the bed. but we checked behind everything and under the bed. they are MIA #so yeah thats my day so far #sucks #Im exhausted #I might call out of work tomorrow but idk. I doubt I actually will #but after today I feel like I need a day off from my day off lol #sam's rants about life