#xingchen wants one on one time w zoe ONLY

[abiik]

i just realized that if xingchen & zoe were a villain/hero ship, xingchen would be the type of villian that would absolutely be jealous that zoe had other bad guys to fight

#h talks. #oc: xingchen #oc: zoe huang #xingzoe #xingchen: ah look she finally arrived – #zoe: sorry im late i had to deal w something from some other bad guy #xingchen: u. what were. Who #xingchen wants one on one time w zoe ONLY #ejxonekxiwk #they're a lil selfish #they wouldnt be as blatant as a villian!zoe would be about it but they're def be a lil sTUFFY #villian meetings be like xingchen why r u giving half the table even WORSE of a cold shoulder they're all in bad condition #after dealing w zoe cant u lighten up? #& xingchen is like. why are you talking to me? #xingchen Would throw fits tho nekxjd #we can pepper in a lil tae gu. as a treat. a lil hyeoky bc that is the only way i can imagine xingchen going about this #xingchen: [sets up the perfect thing for zoe] #keme shows up instead #xingchen: 😠😠😠😠 #this is all over the place sorry #spur of the moment thought #i should go to sleep im getting bad vibes 😅😅 #villain au

[abiik]

[stares at zoe, who was born on earth] [stares at xingchen, who was born on youxiong, that has four stars and is named stardust] i have accidentally connected the dots.

#h talks. #oc: zoe huang #xingchen doesnt have a tag YET bc im figuring out their clan name atm and im not one hundred percent comfy w it so #we will suffer #but im currently like 👁👄👁 bc. i. um. well bc of the potential for metaphors okay #zoe is my sunshine girl yeah & when xingchen looks at zoe she's still impossibly bright but she's still this. grounding force #xingchen may be the star they may be the one with star in their name and they may be resplendent and literally so physically gorgeous #that other people on youxiong wax poetry about their looks #but xingchen feels as though they wouldnt mind revolving around zoe if it meant being w her all the time and seeing her smile #AND LONG STORY FUCKING SHORT XINGCHEN IS A BIG SAP OKAY THEY'RE OOEY GOOEY AND GROSS AND THEY #GET ALL POUTY AND SOFT WHEN THEY THINK ABOUT ZOE WHEN THEY'RE ALONE AND IF ANYONE SAW THEM - NO U DIDNT F U C K O F F !!! #& zoe. ugh zoe. zoe doesnt feel like she's good enough for xingchen. she's really like haha! keme ur so funny!! xingchen?? FEELINGS for ME?! #BAD ONES xingchen wants to KILL me those r the ONLY feelings xingchen has towards me keme haha stupid #[cue keme staring into the camera] #anyway long story short zoe is xingchen's whole world and xingchen is zoe's star and i. am not okay w this 4 am revelation #nuh uh nope #it's not that big a deal but like u know. the potential now is. devastating to think about #like obviously i named xingchen stardust bc one. i liked the name. two. four stars in the solar system & they r v important on youxiong #so why WOULDNT u name ur child after the stars u know? like it makes sense it's good luck #and like i already 🤝 zoe w the sun when she was ON EARTH specifically bc of her big personality but when she goes to youxiong #she is very notably. TERRAN. like. no amount of court etiquette training and stuff can get rid of that #she's still v much kanti's granddaughter and kya's daughter. a child of EARTH. who gets her hands dirty in the mud outside of the sect walls #bc it was raining & LOOK xingchen i found some worms that we can use to go fishing with isnt that great! haha. i've been DYING for some meat #like zoe even has to get used to going by her birth name again instead of 'zoe' #IM JUST!!! IM THINKING OKAYYYYY

[abiik]

one of my fav things about xingzoe as roommates is that like. xingchen's home has always been a ~sanctuary~ of peace and quiet and meditations but then when they're living with zoe, literally all of her friends & family just break into her fucking apartment like raccoons

#h talks. #oc: zoe huang #oc: xingchen #xingzoe #xingchen's home has always been v ISOLATED #nobody like. visited them #they lived in dorms w other disciples before they were old enough to live in their own home and then #the only people who visited them were their direct family #and zoe but only bc xingchen brought her there and shared it w her #but then keockek zoe's homes are always so like. communal in a way. filled with ALL of the people she loves #and it isnt that xingchen has never wanted that but it IS definitely foreign when they're woken in the middle of the night #to an unknown person rifling around in the kitchen while zoe is peacefully snoring (for the first time in WEEKS) #on her bed in the living room #like xingchen did NOT invite you. get OUT. they are. unfortunately a lil territorial and zoe is WAY too sleepy to DEAL w this encounter #have not decided who the first person to break into zoe's apartment should be is. #dick or donna probably and they're just like 👁👄👁 #donna is Big Sister Mode Activated while dick is like Are you the roommate or a one night stand #and xingchen is one night...[heart been broke so many times i-i dont know what to beliiiieve] i am the roommate. #me: 🗣🗣🗣

[abiik]

ugh no its happening. xingchen having nightmares that when they wake up, zoe's gone again, that they're back in the mountains of yishan, alone and she's still dead – has been dead this entire time; that this has been just a dream that they've gotten her back, that she isnt really real – and when they wake up they have to go check. they have to see. only. she's not in her bed. they find her on the couch instead, fallen asleep while working on some project, and the angle has to be uncomfortable for her neck and her shoulder but xingchen can't move because she's there and she's breathing and they can see that. and like. that's that's not enough bc they've had hallucinations like this before, where they saw her and they reached out, called out to speak to her, and when she turned, she would disappear. and so maybe they reach out – hesitant, cautious; they dont want her to leave again you know, they dont wanna lose her again. two times TWO, they've already gone through that. – and they like pet her hair. and she's. very real. she doesnt just poof into nothingness. into smoke. she's a lil warm w body heat and her hair is a lil frizzy, but she's REAL and it takes everything not to breakdown AGAIN. maybe xingchen takes her and tucks her into her bed proper after that, if only to truly feel her alive, or they rearrange her head on the couch so she doesnt get another crick in it and is complaining about needing a massage for days on end afterwards, tucking her in with one of gran-gran's blankets. and they def sit up until they fall asleep listening to her breathing

#h talks. #xingzoe #oc: xingchen #oc: zoe huang #alt. zoe being awake when xingchen comes in and waving xingchen over to sit next to her bc they look a lil rattled #& she knows about nightmares so. if they want to talk about it then they can but if they dont want to then sitting & just BEING is fine too #if they fall asleep she doesnt mind carrying them back to bed and tucking them back in. the couch isnt v comfy she knows from experience #and just like. xingchen sitting next to her staring at her and watching her. be alive. in the silence of their apartment #widdling or carefully beading or working on the talismans & charms she's gonna sell for rent money & to help locals in the area #xingchen wants to touch her. just to make sure. that like. she's really there u know and not a figment and it kind of comes as a shock #for both of them when xingchen lifts their hand and settles it on zoe's shoulder and it doesnt pass right through #and for zoe bc. XINGCHEN. IS. TOUCHING. ME. 👁👄👁. #maybe they talk about it. maybe they dont. maybe xingchen just curls into zoe's side and falls asleep content enough w her steady breathing #to have a peaceful rest of the night #but uhhhhh #here you go #BOTH OPTIONS!!! OF XINGZOE ANGST #AHHEOCJEKCIE THIS IS A LONG RAMBLY POST I APOLOGIZE JEKCJE I JUST. XINGCHEN. BEING V OBSESSED W THE IDEA OF XOE BEING /ALIVE/ #just. like simple things like the rise and fall of her chest and shoulders when she breathes and the flush in her cheeks #when she stuffs her face full of food and when she occupies a space in the room and FILLS it with herself so fully the way that she does #standing near each other in line and feeling the warmth radiating off of zoe that means she's ALIVE and WELL even if she IS trying to #peer over their shoulder at their v Top Secret Research about Earth Courtship thank u v much #i just. [SCREAMS] #i think i have a braincell today. i hope this makes sense