#yet its so damn different to the chicken scrall we have today lmao

[godhasforsnakenme]

let it be known that I completed my journal today, like I wrote on the last available page for it

holy shit

#dania rambles about shit #its a green leather one that I bought for summer vacation 2013 #it lasted me ten fucking years #what the fuck a whole decade #we forgot to take it with us when we went on vacation in august before 8th grade started #like I wrote in it each time something important enough happened that I'd remembered its existence #we'd had to find it through all the piles of papers and notebooks and sketchbooks on our desk #or when we got the book shelves and couldn't keep it in the same spot for us to find omfg #like this journal was there when I met the most important people of my life #wrote in it when I graduated and went to college #wrote in it sometimes when I had to just write out my thoughts that were keeping me up at night #the process of my handwriting getting to what it is today like similarities can be seen to the chicken scrall I had ten years ago #yet its so damn different to the chicken scrall we have today lmao #the first entry was a sketch of the beach in cali #it was done when I got back from vacationing and realised I forgot it which defeated the purpose of why I got it in the first place #as in to write all the things I did on those days spent away from home #so it became tradition to just forget the journal and a joke to try and finish it at all #the last entry I made today because I finally stopped procrastinating and make the important phone calls #we reached an epiphany of sorts and could finally fill out those last two pages that had been sitting blank since last year #literally closing a chapter of my life #a whole book on it really #idk about getting a new one #like what if it takes another ten years to finish? #also the sketchbooks have served for the same purpose recently when writing letters I can't bring myself to send #plus sketches to go along with whatever brain rot we have going on #hmmmm decisions decisions