#yknow those posts like 'why do i feel so grumpy and tired and horrible (<- hasnt eaten in 18 hours}'

[arcaneyouth]

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#vent post #negative #food hell #yknow those posts like 'why do i feel so grumpy and tired and horrible (<- hasnt eaten in 18 hours}' #me rn. except i had no fucking choice. #i ate 4 pieces of chocolate for breakfast #and i was feeling nauseous during dinner so i didnt eat much then #ive felt like im going to cry and scream and explode for several hours now #i finally found something to eat and now i feel better and worse #better in the fact that im not hungry anymore and my emotions feel like theyre under control again #and worse in the fact that there was nothing i could do to prevent this. #the only reason i found something to eat is because mom brought snack foods home from her weekend vacation. #if she hadnt done that id have nothing. #maybe now that moms home dad will go grocery shopping. i cant do this again. i cant. #feel so fucking helpless when it comes to food. #i cant even illegally drive to the grocery store myself cause dad has to move his car in order to get my car out of the driveway #and i dont have my license yet so its. yknow. illegal. and dad would never allow that. #i cant order doordash during the day since im terrified of having to explain myself if i get caught with it #so i just. theres nothing i can do. i cant do anything to make this Not Happen. im completely fucked. #im just going to end up being grumpy and angry and hungry every day until mom and dad realize were out of food.