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initiating a conversation and plans is very difficult for me. i have a strong fear of abandonment

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im 25 now. the realization of people i know will become people i knew has hit me. the fact that every friend ive once had is ahead of me emotionally anx in terms of experiences, relationships, and career. i still feel like im in high school in terms of mindset. im running out of time and i still dont feel ready for anything

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im so angry all the fucking time like im about to snap but i work with kids now so i have to be on my best behavior. the only reason my boss hired me back to work was because i dont post anymore suicidal shit on ig(most of the time anyway). he wasnt my boss back then so we followed each other on ig. a few years ago he made a comment during a staff meeting that our behaviors and emotions deeply affect kids, that we need to keep any negative vibes outside of work. which is valid. but i felt so betrayed and embarrassed

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feeling like i have no more friends. everyone's already got their own bestie and im alone

i went to a PUP concert alone wednesday night and couldnt stay longer than 30 minutes because i couldnt stop crying. everyone had someone with them. i always feel singled out whenever i hang out with a group, and when it's just one other person i feel that they dont pay attention to me and want to leave

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treated u like a god but u never believed in me

#no ones on here anymore so im back to post more sad shit #el cringe

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you: chill and healthy lifestyle

me: tormented by visions

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me trying to flirt: so what albums make you cry

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happiness comes in waves, it’ll find you again.

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my traumatized ass: do I have a crush or am I just idolizing this person for being vaguely nice to me

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Important.

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im a piece of shit

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Norwegian summer in Bykle by Anna Zelei

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get u a man like this

#r

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time to get my heart broken

#r

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