developed bad anxiety about rideshares at 28 out of nowhere (read: friend almost died in a car accident & then the next day i had to take an uber pretty late and the license plate didnt match the car and the guy gave me a lot of shit for being concerned about that and i almost threw up when he took a different route to my house than what was suggested in the app) and there's a specific venue i usually transit-to and lyft-from but the last time i did this after seeing thursday i had a lil panic attack waiting for the lyft and now im trying to figure out if i should take my bike with me on the train and then ig bike home? but i dont think there's great bike parking at the venue proper and what if my bike gets stolen (thing thats unlikely to happen). anyway i need to be killed about this
is it insane to go to a different show that i can bike to closer by
developed bad anxiety about rideshares at 28 out of nowhere (read: friend almost died in a car accident & then the next day i had to take an uber pretty late and the license plate didnt match the car and the guy gave me a lot of shit for being concerned about that and i almost threw up when he took a different route to my house than what was suggested in the app) and there's a specific venue i usually transit-to and lyft-from but the last time i did this after seeing thursday i had a lil panic attack waiting for the lyft and now im trying to figure out if i should take my bike with me on the train and then ig bike home? but i dont think there's great bike parking at the venue proper and what if my bike gets stolen (thing thats unlikely to happen). anyway i need to be killed about this
developed bad anxiety about rideshares at 28 out of nowhere (read: friend almost died in a car accident & then the next day i had to take an uber pretty late and the license plate didnt match the car and the guy gave me a lot of shit for being concerned about that and i almost threw up when he took a different route to my house than what was suggested in the app) and there's a specific venue i usually transit-to and lyft-from but the last time i did this after seeing thursday i had a lil panic attack waiting for the lyft and now im trying to figure out if i should take my bike with me on the train and then ig bike home? but i dont think there's great bike parking at the venue proper and what if my bike gets stolen (thing thats unlikely to happen). anyway i need to be killed about this
cannot stop thinking about the last lyrics of abyss angel, the almost inaudible "do you know?/do you remember?", a direct response to the end of the previous verse, "i am a human body." the call to value and see our own humanity and autonomy distorted like whale songs in a vast and increasingly hostile ocean