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One day, probably soon, I'm going to have to learn to say good bye. For now, I'm not even close to ready. #tatijanajean #thistooshallpass #grief #lettinggo https://www.instagram.com/p/B2OiidSngGX/?igshid=1352lto3ar4e9

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#goodmourning, today is officially 3 months since I got the call that mom had passed. These past months have been both the longest and shortest months of my life. It still doesn't feel real. I don't think it ever will. I miss her and think of her everyday. Y'all go hug your moms for me. Rest easy #tatijanajean I'm trying my best to make you proud. https://www.instagram.com/p/B2HOrDHnY0y/?igshid=c2ecqtylbb4o

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#tcks #poetry #latenightclub #originalpoetry https://www.instagram.com/p/B1-YeQeneI3/?igshid=9d77qysc15pl

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Preview for tomorrow's subject. #tcks #quickquote https://www.instagram.com/p/B1-QLYenR8E/?igshid=12tlg79uvjtdw

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Trying to remember this more. #tcks #quickquote https://www.instagram.com/p/B1-Mo3eHQJg/?igshid=nqhh7wzaniq8

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#quickquote #dalilama #happiness #tcks https://www.instagram.com/p/B18yzfOHPL1/?igshid=7ulvtg7qa54v

#quickquote #dalilama #happiness #tcks

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#tcks https://www.instagram.com/p/B18r1FgHvrP/?igshid=1lbvlibpuoxhu

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#thistooshallpass #tcks #tatijanajean https://www.instagram.com/p/B1zBwqfHuno/?igshid=z1l99rj55dsc

#thistooshallpass #tcks #tatijanajean

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Its not that hard to see, She was happiest, just looking at me. We daily again, But it's not the same. This time she's free From her hurt and pain. I want her back, Though I'll never ask. Just because of that simple fact. I wonder if she knew, If she could see, How much of her, Lives in me. So many goals and hopes and dreams. A life cut short, Its up to me it seems. #goodmourning #originalpoetry #tatijanajean https://www.instagram.com/p/B1jJU13nkIf/?igshid=1um9ru4fm5gi7

#goodmourning #originalpoetry #tatijanajean

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#quickquote https://www.instagram.com/p/B1h0PtjHL94/?igshid=lb9fvvvakme8

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It's been almost 3 months and I miss my mom more and more every day. The last conversation I had with her. I told her I loved her and missed her and was worried like crazy. That I wish she would move in with me or near me and let me take care of her. Because i didn't know what I would do if something happened to her. This might seem like a normal conversation. But whoever knows me well knows my mom and i didnt always have a good relationship and that I'm awful at expressing my true feelings. My weightloss journey was a complete mental health journey. I've been learning all the same stuff I've been trying to teach yall about loving yourself and in turn loving others. My mom had turned into my best friend and the thought of losing her made me beg her to come stay with me the last time we talked. Her own pride and insecurities (i am my mothers daughter after all) had led her to believe she would just be a burden on me. She couldn't understand that i wanted her so bad the same why mine wouldn't let me tell her. My mom died doing her laundry to come stay with me. Her friend and i had both been offering to buy her ticket and i guess she finally agreed. She went to do her laundry at a friends house and had a heart attack and died right there. I feel a little bit of peace because in the end we both had finally let go of our own problems and learned the importance of being vulnerable, letting go of pride & ego, and trusting. We had both taught each other and let each other experience unconditional love. My mom had a very rough, very sad life. And in some ways we've walked similar paths. The only thing is, she's gone now. And I'm still here. It makes sense though. You're supposed to get better with every generation. So im learning her lessons 20 years earliers so i dont have to walk the path she walked. I don't have to carry my demons anymore. I think she took those and her own to the grave with her. #thepowerofvulnerability #beinginthemoment https://www.instagram.com/p/B1anX6Vni4U/?igshid=1wu2dkbhqb4t4

#thepowerofvulnerability #beinginthemoment