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Crying so hard with this post.

Before entering univ, I always knew what I wanted to prioritize, I want to prioritize spending time with people I love more than anything.

At a young age, I already internalized that time cannot be brought back, I will never be able to buy time. There's no certainty of the future and the present is all I have. Being the youngest of 4, I know full well that my parents are getting old, so I always go home on weekends, always there for important events, always have the time for hugs and small conversations.

2 years into univ, I started fcking up my classes. ATP I didn't blamed myself for spending time with my family. I didn't regret those. I know that I'm bound to lose some because I'm just human, I can't do it all. I will admit that this point in my life is so hard, I feel like such a loser, a failure.

But I got back up.

I shifted, in a course that wasn't eating up all of my time. A course in which I can excel, and still spend time with my family. Now, I'm on the last leg of my undergrad, and lately I've been thinking "what if I worked harder in my previous course? I would've graduated already with my first choice of course, one that resonated with me more. I wouldve been earning money by this time." For the first time, I regretted my choices before. I regretted going home every weekends, I regretted spending more time with my family thinking that by this time, they are still with me. If only I worked harder before, I would've graduated earlier and still have time to spend with them.

But this post reminded me why I did all of that in the first place. Spending time with my loved ones is my priority. Sure, I know NOW that I'd still be with them by this time, but I didn't before. I should consider myself lucky that I'm still with them and also I will be finishing this degree vv soon! Isn't that amazing!

I may be later than all of my peers, but that doesnt matter, what matters is I know my priorities and that means losing some in life. But it's also a proof that I can always get that degree, I can always earn more money in the future, but the time I've spent with my family? I can never earn those or buy those. There will be always be degrees to get, corporal ladder to climb, money to earn, but I only have one family. There is no certainty of the future, the present is all I have. I can even die now in peace knowing I did my best as a daughter, as a sibling, as a friend.

I still have a lot I want to achieve, maybe that's where my regret is coming from. But this fb post made me realize that I stayed true to my principles, and even with all these things I want to achieve, I can die rn in peace. I am content of my present and I hope you are too.

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When are we going to have a good book tracking/social media app?!?!

Well I only tried 2 but I think it's 2 of the most used apps. Good reads is so outdated and ugly UI. storygraph is soooo slooowww, also I want to see the book covers right away!

I want a book tracking app like letterboxd. Letterboxd is so easy to navigate, so easy to see how other people thinks about the book, so easy to see what I've been watching etc. and that's why it blew up even for those who dont watch a lot of movies. Some even picked up the hobby of watching films just so it will look good on letterboxd lol HAHAHAHAH. I want that for books too 😭 I want a good visual representation of the books I read. It motivates me so much as an adhder aaaaaaa

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I have been working on this project for 8 years and it's FINALLY DONE!!!

Look. Look at my labor of 8 years. LOOK AT IT.

The pattern is Neat Ripple. I used Knit Picks Mighty Stitch in lots of various colors. If you'd like specific color names, let me know. I'm fairly certain the lighter orange is discontinued, named "Conch".

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di man lang naggoodnight amputa

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Everytime I see a picture of Walker Scobell (the actor who plays Percy Jackson in the new Percy Jackson series) I feel myself wanting to cry !!!

okay I've never read Percy Jackson but all I remember when I see him is that scene in the series where he repeatedly says "I'm okay, I'm okay" to Annabeth IN THE MOST GENTLE VOICE POSSIBLE while on the brink of... death(? or idk, being trapped forever). You don't know how much that scene made me feel. I've never seen a boy be that gentle especially when I was their age,,, and to see that gentleness portrayed in media?? I feel like something in me is healing from all the trauma I got from teenage boys growing up God!!!

We need to see more portrayal of young adolescent male be this gentle, and caring. We need to teach the new generation this kind of gentleness pls

#percy jackon and the olympians #walker scobell

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just learned what Raining in Manila is about right after learning that Ray will leave the band.

Sana sinaksak na lang ako ng lola amour 🙃

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one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

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we could have mobile games like cool math duck life and papas pizzeria and bloonz tower defense and old masterpieces like original angry birds and jet pack joyride and small online games like webkinz home before dark and polar bear plunge and flash games like holeio and snake and we could have barbie dress up and horse riding and we could have them all without thousands of shitty 2 minute ads and microtransactions and unskippable popups and imbedded app store links and we could have new games new incredible story based adventures, puzzles, well designed mini platformers, we have an entire universe of unexplored medium right here in the palm of your hand! we could have REAL games! real wonderful games not misleading not clickbait we could have everything in the whole wide world and we could have them them on the phone! WE COULD HAVE THEM ON THE PHONE !!!!!!!!!!! DOES IT NOT MAKE YOU SICK???? DOES IT NOT SHATTER YOUR HEART !!!!

#shatters my heart everytime i see an interesting game but turns out it was a damn clickbait #i know now but i still hope

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I still feel off and sort of annoyed that my boyfriend's ex messaged him on new years?? like what for?? after 5(?) years of not being together anymore? what was that?

Hay i feel like that's okay lang naman tbh, i just feel unfair?? here I am, having the resolve not to message my ex anymore kasi respeto na lang sa jow ako at sa jowa jiya kung meron pero yung ex ng jowa ko nakapagmessage agad?? I feel unfair, gusto ko gumanti. I know it's wrong and probably rooted srill to my insecurity. good gracious god. I cant sleep because of this

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It's so fucking wild to watch Wonka (2023) and Saltburn (2023) back-to-back. What the fck am I doing with my life hahahahahaha

Both really good but will definitely give you different feelings and views on life afterwards lmao. Also just realized how fckng good of an actor Timothée Chalamet is!! He's so good as Willy Wonka! There's that tad bit of insanity but also the youthfulness and the emotionality of young Willy Wonka. damn! I'm still singing A World of Your Own even in my sleep lmao.

Saltburn? well fck around and find out hahahha

#wonka #saltburn #edge reviews

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pile of books make me so so happy. it calms me down 😭

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ACK?!

240303 Artist-Made Collection by SEVENTEEN Season 2.

Spotlight - WONWOO ⌨

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di nagrereply client ko fccckkk gusto ko na magwork pls, im so hyped up

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March na and my new year goal to lessen my phone usage is not doing good. Time to act serious about this

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ako na nasa film school: "pan mo nga pataas"

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I have a new obsession with a youtuber.

This youtuber @jackiedroujko (omygosh??? a tumblr acct okay hahabhfnsbs) are making these "fixing your art" shorts and it's making me wanna go back to drawing and painting. Her calm manner of speaking, really in-depth and clear explanations as to why and how certain changes can fix someone's art is healing my self-hatred and impostor syndrome. Like, what the hell! It's making me want to learn and improve my art 🥹