fifteen years ago i would have cut it off but now i'm a hostage to the knowledge that it's more. femininity. power. the power i misuse to abuse myself of the notion that i deserve it.
i told him i was working on figuring out what to do about it. figuring out what to do about what, he asked, but by the time he asked the question he already knew the answer. in the day i'll talk myself out of the hollow depths of his eyes. in the night i'll compensate for my shortcomings, shirtless and breathless and sweating as i slip deeper into them.
they call her the gypsy and she believes it. in the hot summer days she dances through quicksand. she throws a fistful to the air and watches it shimmer in the sun. she nods as if it means something. it doesn't mean anything.
the judgment is clearer, closer with every day that passes. is this always the way that things end?
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And none of it matters anymore, anyway.
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But I didn't know.
Deep in the forest a still river gives life to the creatures that be. And when our feet carried us off the beaten path on a moonless night, they carried us to its bank.
Our voices were muted by the fog. We couldn't see past the next step in the darkness. We didn't want to anyway.
It was still and we were silent. You noticed him sighing softly near the river. He rose to his feet, the crescent-shaped whites of his nails black with dirt, the pile of soil at his bare feet, time pooling around him in a dark shroud.
Did you hear him then?
Now, years later, I could tell you. But it wouldn't do us any good.
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“You know, when a person is very, very sad, they like sunsets.”
“And were you very, very sad on the day you watched forty-four sunsets?”
But the little prince did not reply.
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Your fingers lightly swept across the strings and strummed the chord that always caught me sideways, whispering slowly through the silence. Tidings of falling leaves and listless eves spilled through the soft summer air, freed from the absent gaze of the stars.
That's when I should have known.
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And we listened - with half a mind and half an ear - as he played on hope and fear. We fell from desert sand to starry sky as he sang for passers by. But he spoke to us.
Time fell around us. Eventually we walked away. The bricks kept their secrets from the streetlamps and we followed their sudden silence. Down the road and past the church and to the corner where the lights cut out. If we spoke, we spoke softly, voices brushing against the starless sky to keep us safe. Our feet carried us into the darkness as the darkness crept up to our feet.
And finally into the house that felt like a home with friends and music and laughter, where everything was warm and gold. And maybe when someone was drunkenly accused of being a resident smartass you smiled a crooked smile and I met your eyes and we softly strummed the first law's string, remembering ourselves at last.
Any musician can tell a good story, after all. You and I would know.
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Credit: Sabrage Mulligrubs
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11.2.23
We were loosed upon the world, a prime example of the first law. There was nowhere to go and nothing to be and all of it came so endlessly.
Maybe we thought we escaped the end of the things. Maybe we hoped we escaped the beginning of them. But the plans of the wise surmise that for every time there is a season.
The old man woke with eyes full of dust and scattered time from his outstretched hand. We found him singing on the side of the street.
He met our eyes. And waited.
"Do you want to hear a story?"
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11.1.23
i listen close
hold your words closer
write them in my mind
mull them over
i speak from my heart
and give good advice
it's simple and true
not a sacrifice
i tip close
and tip toe closer
start to think
about us getting older
i think you'd make
a really great dad
you're cool and you're patient
do you even get mad
but i forgot
to unlock my chest
and look at the past
along with the rest
and i got lost
in the cycle of time
it ticks and it tocks
and tells me, you're mine
it's not like february
it's not the 14th
it's not a cut-out card
or paper hearts or sweets
it's four monster legs
tangled in sheets
and two pounding organs
demanding release
swore i'm not like her
stop hitting yourself
i'm not a fighter
i'm just on the shelf
that people reach for
when time gets too old
with us in your hand
you'll never get cold
we'll light you up
from the inside
keep you burning
keep hope alive
we never stop trying
until it's too late
my fire's dying
wait is this fate
look down at my hands
fuck it, not crying
drown them out
accusations of trying
if it happens, it happens
so what will it be
let's go to the casino
and try it for free
a crash course later
and a game face on
back to vodka sodas
singing pokemon
whoever slips up
with the worst verse
takes another one
you go first
and so on and so forth
somebody knows
in the words of kurt
so it fucking goes
or something like that
you know what he said
welcome to the monkey house
and bergeron's dead
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