me, internally: no im fucking not, because william shatner and leonard nimoy knew they were playing lovers but weren’t allowed to kiss, and left lots of subliminal messages in star trek: the original series, subsquently creating the first slash pairing for which was written fan fiction in the early 70s. shatner also said while filming “spock it’s you, it’s always been you. please say you love me too,” tho it got cut. gene roddenberry also knew what he was doing with kirk and spock and coined the word t’hy’la in a fucking footnote in TMP novelisation in 1979. t’hy’la means friend, brother, lover and is the word spock uses to think of jim so yeah, they were lovers. moreover always in TMP novelisation gene confirms spock and kirk were bonded by writing that spock couldn’t go through kolinahr bc he hears jim thinking about needing him from fucking earth i am so done