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your heroes await you, madam!

#cinderellas castle #starkid #starkid fanart #crumb #sir hops a lot

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I expect the worst, tumblr.

#need more reblogs #this poor thing is all fluff

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I expect the worst, tumblr.

#poll #tumblr polls #lets make a cat

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4. stop banning any minority for no reason

ideas for tumblr staff

dont remove the boop button

stop banning trans women for no reason

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#have met prev! #he's cool!

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reblog only if you’ve received less than 1000 boops! we can all get each other to “max”

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I love gasping dramatically when someone boops me and being like "FINE i'll boop you back >:(((("

#boop

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I'm a real person, Actually.

WAIT PEOPLE ON TUMBLR ARE REAL FUCKING PEOPLE

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More examples from someone would saw it live:

When Richie ran from Max into the audience, he begged audience members to help him.

Grace handed out fliers to audience members

Kyle and Jason got in people's faces (mine included) and asked what we were looking at during Literal Monster.

Max kept popping up in random places in the audience. It was terrifying.

Ruth did part of her monologue next to me.

Hatchetfield + messing with the audience

#starkid #hatchetfield #tgwdlm #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #team starkid

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where there is a puppet, there's a puppeteer.

Ready thy steel. Foul creatures rise from bogs and bridges. Methinks puppets doth approach! Stay vigilant. Yet more tidings are at hand…

#matpat didnt train you guys hard enough #starkid #team starkid #musical

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I’m sorry. You don’t deserve that. That is fair to feel that way and I understand your perspective and everything! I don’t think people call him pathetic as an insult to him or his reactions to the situations he gets under, but it’s more of an endearing thing if that helps. Definitely he needs to be taken more seriously, but I don’t think anything is negative. I am super sorry about that, though :( /gen

People infantilize Paul a really weird amount and I think it's because he's autistic coded. I notice similar things in how people treat Abed from Community. IDK it's just really strange to me like have your fun but he'a a grown adult man & he's not "pathetic" he's just socially awkward. Like as an autistic person who acts similarly to him it kinda sucks to see so many people reducing his autistic traits to him being a loser or whatever

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That is fair! I overanaylzed his character and motivations and whatnot, and I know how deep of a character he is, hence why i’m okay being silly about him because I don’t minimize him to his traits. I think it’s okay as long as people understand he’s not *just* an awkward person, you know? But you’re completely valid! I think everyone has their own perspective on it.

People infantilize Paul a really weird amount and I think it's because he's autistic coded. I notice similar things in how people treat Abed from Community. IDK it's just really strange to me like have your fun but he'a a grown adult man & he's not "pathetic" he's just socially awkward. Like as an autistic person who acts similarly to him it kinda sucks to see so many people reducing his autistic traits to him being a loser or whatever

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I am well aware of the fact he is autistic, I am autistic too. But in the end, he is a silly little guy who is my loser and it’s not because he is autistic or anything, it’s just how i see him. it’s affectionate. Silly little pathetic meow meow who is so average he loops around and becomes weird again

People infantilize Paul a really weird amount and I think it's because he's autistic coded. I notice similar things in how people treat Abed from Community. IDK it's just really strange to me like have your fun but he'a a grown adult man & he's not "pathetic" he's just socially awkward. Like as an autistic person who acts similarly to him it kinda sucks to see so many people reducing his autistic traits to him being a loser or whatever

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#hatchetfield #tgwdlm #paul matthews #paul matthews tgwdlm

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So I've been re-watching dr who for the first time ever rn, with a friend who's never seen it before, so I'm seeing all these episodes for the first time since I was 13 and picking up on a LOT that I never noticed before, and holy shit the tenth doctor is SO WEIRD to Martha Jones, and nothing exemplifies that more than the sontaran stratagem/the poison sky.... like..... he is SO weird the whole way down.

When they first see each other again their introduction directly mirrors Jack and The Doctor's in Utopia

"Doctor" "martha Jones" laugh and hug

"doctor" "captain Jack" laugh and hug

And then! they have a normal interaction!!! WIN he asks how her family is and how she is, and they're smiling and genuinely seem like friends very happy to see each other!

And then.... donna drops the fiance bomb.

He turns with a look of.... almost anger? disbelief? and asks WHAT MAN?? Then martha explains who he is and the doctor....

he looks? upset? and then like, resigned? AND THEN martha admits that her fiance is kind of similar to the doctor, and then donna asks "Is he skinny?" and his reactions

is to make a face like "yeahh" AND START NODDING????? like he's taken Martha's admission to mean she's with a man that's just like him, and honestly seems a bit smug over it, and then when Martha says no-

he looks so taken off guard and betrayed ??????????? BRO we are less than 5 minutes in..............

He then proceeds to be tetchy with her, and to be fair this is mostly because of her involvement with unit, and his discomfort with how militaristic she's gotten - which I think comes both from anger at himself for how he's changed her, and also discomfort that she's no longer "his" Martha, she's changed, and he doesn't know her as well anymore.

he tells her off, he's snide and judgmental, he won't even look at her until she tells him to, and he's honestly bitchy - Until she explains herself, and tells him off for being so judgmental, i also think his line "oh so it's my fault" is very telling because..... it literally is? like yes, you put her in situations where she had to become harder and more used to violence......... and he KNOWS it. He's doing what he did all through series 3, which is feel guilty or bad and then take it out on Martha (that's for another post though) until she stands up for herself (get his ass!!) and then when she's finished she looks at him

determined, but eyes darting back and forth waiting for his reaction, on some small level hoping for his approval

and only THEN does he start to smile, and he tells her "that sounds more like Martha Jones." she's back to feeling like she's still his (to him, Martha is acting incredibly normal and platonic). The doctor has always had a weird possessiveness with Martha, going all the way back to their first episode where he hand picked her, and in this second of her looking for his approval, he feels that again, and he IMMEDIATELY started flirting again - please go watch the scene it boggles my mind how fast he switches.

I also want to be clear, Martha isn't flirting back, she's acting extremely normally. She's clearly taken the time away from him to get over, not only romantic feelings, but any anger as well. She seems to have come to terms with how she feels with everything that happened, and she loves and cares about him, but she's not naive to his faults - I also don't think she even picks up on him being weird to her in this scene. She's no longer in tune with his every mood swing, she's not here to fix him, or cater to his needs, and so she no longer notices these small moments from him.

AND THEN.... the clone.

He never flirts with the clone. The ONLY time, is the very first time they interact, before he's realized something is wrong.

he calls her over to come with him, and his face is honestly way too close to hers. bro is a menace. but then, maybe 2 minutes later, he immediately clocks that this is not Martha.

he realizes there has to be a spy and only has to consider for half a second before he turns and asks about her family, he's already realized she's acting a little off, and the second she answers he's 100% certain.

and he gets MAD. he tells her Donna went home because she's not like her, she's not "a soldier" clearly a shot at the sontarans, but also another subtle test, the real Martha wouldn't let that slide, and he wouldn't say that to the real Martha. He continues saying Avanti, instead of Allonse-y, which is interesting, because he already knows. He's not doing this to confirm his suspicions, he's doing this as retaliation. To confirm to himself he knows Martha better than this fake, he's toying with her. BUT. He doesn't go to save Martha.

The next episode, the doctor's daughter, he refuses to accept the label of soldier, but Jenny rightfully points out that he strategizes like one And this is one such moment. He knows Martha is a clone, he's mad and upset, he could go save her right away, but he doesn't. He doesn't because it serves him best to allow her to keep shutting down the nuclear launch.

It reminds me a lot of when Cassandra possessed Rose in New Earth, he played a long for a little bit, but that was just to figure out what was happening. He IMMEDIATELY tried to fix it, I just wonder if it was any other companion if he would have done this. If it was Donna would he have left her for so long? even if it was strategic? it's this weird conflict the doctor has now that he's very very protective and a bit possessive, but he also treats her like an equal on the battlefield, and it's a weird... trust? he has in her to take care of herself.

I kind of don't want to call it trust because that sounds too positive, but I don't know another way to phrase it, but it's a forced independence and self sufficiency.

but then, he finally goes to save her

He goes and cradles her face gently, and NOTABLY says "good, still alive" MEANING HE DIDN'T KNOW??? and still left her for that long...

but he holds her gently, and fully ignores the clone. He has his back to her, and then proceeds to taunt her. He tells her he clocked her right away because of the pupil size, thin hair, and he says she smells. but we know this isn't true.

Sure maybe those physical traits are true, but that's not how he figured it out, we saw how he did it, he clocked on because he knows Martha so well, but he can't admit that. He can't admit that he knows her just as much as she knows him, just like he couldn't tell Rose he loved her.

He is so deeply angry at this clone, he makes fun of her, he yells at her, he looks at her likes she's nothing

This is his face when he kills her. He doesn't talk to her, or even TRY to save her. And we know she is alive, she has memories, and her own thoughts and feelings, and the doctor kills her while gloating because of his immense anger for hurting Martha. An anger that is also guilt.

he does not speak to her like a person (which directly leads into his treatment of Jenny in the next ep).

Parallel that to how Martha treats her, they talk about their family and she even calls the clone Martha. She really is a doctor in a way ten tried and often failed at.

And then at the end, Donna asks Martha to come with them, and she says no, and that she's happy at home, but she's better for having traveled and come back.

And the doctor looks at her

With an obvious sadness, but also acceptance. He clearly wants her here, with him, but I think he's finally come to accept that that'll never happen, and he needs to let her go.

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pop up ads on pirating websites are so fucking funny. "do you want sex?" if I wanted to have sex do you really think I'd be watching doctor who. answer quickly