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no yeah this one is good bc it has that medical kink vibe. guards, sound this man at once

(doesn't matter which one. probably sloan)

Sloanshir + sounding 🤪

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there is no unlived life or alternative reality where everything went right…. there is only here and now what are you going to do with it

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@the-last-dillpickle did sloanshir so -

truly impossible to put garak on just one end of loudmouth/private person dichotomy, but whatever

#i was so real for this

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I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*

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#me af #need to find a psychiatrist again

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body paintings by Karen Turner

#nsfw

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thinking about the poll about canon vs non-canon ships that didn't define terms, and the current fandom focus on things "going canon," so i made up a scale.

this is NOT a question about whether canon matters to what you ship (or matters at all), just how to define the phrase "canon ship."

many ships start low on the scale and slow burn their way up, so vote for the point when you would have called them "canon." i agonized over the order (especially #4-6) for a day and a half, but i went with the order in which i think joe random with a nielsen ratings box and no tumblr account would notice/call something a romantic relationship.

#i think 9? maybe 7 in some cases but idk #if canon ship is short for canon relationship there should be a. relationship #in canon. #like jonmartin is a canon ship but it wouldn't have been before dwelling bc jon's feelings were not explicitly romantic until then. etc etc #canon pining or even mutual pining is different i think

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So called "free thinkers" when

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I don't know what paddington is doing on that list, but it made me think of the time someone drew a picture of the queen with paddington after she died, and we had scores of people losing their minds at the idea that paddington bear wasn't the same kind of communist as them

#yeah

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Garak was late to lunch that day because he was building a bomb to destroy his shop. He was eating Delavian chocolates while he made it. He saw an assassin and knew for whom the bell tolled, but he still ate his chocolates, and he still went to lunch, just a little late. Because he was making a bomb to blow himself up with.

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heres a picture that i really like check it out

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incredibly low stakes garashir headcanons 😌

they're both pretty good cooks and like to make food for each other. garak is better at baking though and it drives julian insane bc even his augment brain can't help him figure out macarons

garak has never really been in a serious adult relationship and can't believe how much of it is just having different versions of the same conversation over and over again forever

julian isn't actually untidy or disorganized, but garak is. he tries not to be but there are fabric remnants and pins everywhere 😔

julian develops a taste for cardassian food and drink and is proud of it. garak develops a taste for human food but continues to performatively complain about it

the sex is great but it's mostly less weird than you'd think

they never, ever run out of things to talk about. seriously. they will never shut up

#garashir

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#ceaseless watcher turn your gaze AWAY from this wretched thing

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{Quotes:Nitya prakash/Richard siken ,crush}

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I have been waiting all year to post this.