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You are a shapeshifter who has secretly taken on many fake villain personas across the world. Your goal is to fight each hero you meet with a persona that embodies said hero’s worst traits, forcing them to change for the better in order to defeat you.

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Writing ‘Uniquely’—A Simple Guide.

I like to say that words are just the paint, and you, the writer, are the paintbrush. The end result relies solely on how you used that paint... what techniques you put into the brush strokes, on and on.

But if this metaphor is confusing, I'll put it this way.

Words themselves are not unique. They've been used thousands...if not millions of times. But your personal thoughts and experiences, haven't. So instead of spending your time looking up "unique synonyms" etc etc...I want you to spend your time learning about yourself, and how to comfortably relay your experiences and emotions into poetry. Reveal as little or as much as you wish. It will still be unique.

Even if you don't write poetry, I still believe that inevitably, a piece of you goes into what you create. So this all still applies.

I don't like when people misguide others by spewing a bunch of "use big aesthetic words to stand out" rhetoric...so if you ever see that, remember what I've told you. You can use all the fancy words you want, but at the end of the day, it's always the meaning that's going to stand out.

So, go turn your emotions into meaning. And remember, ‘emotion’ does not stop at love. Emotions are everything from anger, to a tickle in the throat.

Best of luck 🌹.

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December 23rd

I hate Christmas.

But not for the usual reasons. Not because of consumerism, not because I work in retail, not because everyone in my family relies on me to organise the presents every year. No, I managed to still keep my spirit alive through all those things and more.

I hate Christmas because I'm reminded of you. Of how you left us 3 years ago on this day.

I hate Christmas because it takes me back to the first time I didn't want to live anymore. And how I never told a soul. I just pushed it down, like I do all my emotions, and pretended I was over it. That it was just a moment of grief. I didn't want to hurt myself, I just didn't want to take care of myself. Didn’t see the point of doing basic tasks like eating and sleeping and getting out of bed.

But that feeling passed, and I found reasons to keep going. And I was fine. Until the next Christmas.

But the feeling didn't last as long this time and so I pushed it aside again and I was fine.

But every Christmas I go back there. I think that might just be how it goes for me now. This grief will just envelope me every year when I miss you. And so I focus all my energy on work, and getting presents for family, fulfilling my obligations and making it look like I'm fine. I'm a Virgo, this is second nature to me.

But while I do this I also distance myself from my friends. I don't reach out, I only do things if someone else invites me. And then I convince myself that they all hate me. I've ruined every close friendship as they all move on with their lives, and I am left behind and it's my own fault - I know that, I do - yet it still stings and makes it impossible for me to reach out and say hey. I'm not okay. I need a friend.

Because I've been a shit friend to them, so how can I expect them to drop everything to cater to me when I can barely get myself out of bed?

And then if I tell them how I really feel I can't pretend I'm fine anymore. There's no going back from that confession. No 'just kidding!'

I've spent my whole life waiting until I get over any bumps in the road to talk about them, so what do I do when the bump is never ending?

#grief #anonymous rambles

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Tell me your 13th song from Spotify wrapped

#mayday #dreamcatcher #i love Spotify wrapped okay?! #I had to post this one though because it's actually one of my all-time favourite songs

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spotify wrapped is out and everybody is always posting their top 5 songs….. let’s see some love for number 6 that didn’t make the cut. rb and add your number 6

#sweet juice #purple kiss #honestly such a banger and probably deserved a top 5 spot

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What was your #23 song for spotify wrapped in 2023?

#zombie #purple kiss

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When will I get back

The girl I used to know

Was it you, or me?

The one who let go first

Did I hold on too long

When the old me was long gone?

Like I held onto belief that Santa Claus was real

Was i like my parents?

Did I just stop trying to pretend

I was still you? Or had you already left me

Cold, and old, lost to grey adulthood

Trying, trying, trying to keep afloat

To survive with half my soul ripped from my grasp

No, you weren't ripped

You disintegrated

Slipped between my fingers

Slowly

So that I didn't notice until you were already gone

Will you come back?

The girl I used to know

If I let you go I'm sorry, I regret it every night

So please

Come back

#midnight ramblings #unedited #stream of consciousness #kind of

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don't leave me!

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August 17, 1924 Journals of Anais Nin 1923-1927 [volume 3]

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Transphobia is so antithetical to genuine feminism it blows my mind there's such a wide overlap like you either believe in autonomy and self determination or you don't

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Kinda in love with the idea that different places on other sides of the world can look so similar. Something something universal human experiences

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So my problem with most ‘get to know your character’ questioneers is that they’re full of questions that just aren’t that important (what color eyes do they have) too hard to answer right away (what is their greatest fear) or are just impossible to answer (what is their favorite movie.)  Like no one has one single favorite movie. And even if they do the answer changes.

If I’m doing this exercise, I want 7-10 questions to get the character feeling real in my head. So I thought I’d share the ones that get me (and my students) good results: 

What is the character’s go-to drink order? (this one gets into how do they like to be publicly perceived, because there is always some level of theatricality to ordering drinks at a bar/resturant)

What is their grooming routine? (how do they treat themselves in private)

What was their most expensive purchase/where does their disposable income go? (Gets you thinking about socio-economic class, values, and how they spend their leisure time)

Do they have any scars or tattoos? (good way to get into literal backstory) 

What was the last time they cried, and under what circumstances? (Good way to get some *emotional* backstory in.) 

Are they an oldest, middle, youngest or only child? (This one might be a me thing, because I LOVE writing/reading about family dynamics, but knowing what kinds of things were ‘normal’ for them growing up is important.)

Describe the shoes they’re wearing. (This is a big catch all, gets into money, taste, practicality, level of wear, level of repair, literally what kind of shoes they require to live their life.)

Describe the place where they sleep. (ie what does their safe space look like. How much (or how little) care / decoration / personal touch goes into it.)

What is their favorite holiday? (How do they relate to their culture/outside world. Also fun is least favorite holiday.) 

What objects do they always carry around with them? (What do they need for their normal, day-to-day routine? What does ‘normal’ even look like for them.) 

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