akioukun

[akioukun]

Hi everyone!

I have to address something that has gone on and is currently occurring. This is the last thing I want to do because I have spent eight years in different fandoms and avoided as much drama as possible. I want no part in it. I want to enjoy my time here.

Unfortunately, this is no longer drama. This is about an individual harming people, their mental health, their safe spaces, their enjoyment of fandom, their favorite ship, and their writing. This is about an individual who chooses bigotry over friendship and will align themselves with bad people for popularity.

And they don’t care who they harm by doing it.

This person made my life a living hell for over five months. It started in August, but things took a turn in October. I was finally free of them in late February because that is when a fandom event ended that tied me to them.

During this event, this person stressed me out to the point of tears. They made passive-aggressive remarks about various things, which made me feel insecure about my fic and writing. They unexpectedly changed their medium and didn’t talk to me about it before they did; I admit I was taken aback, hurt, and short with them. I apologized and took accountability the following day.

From then on, I tried to be as supportive, kind and understanding as possible.

I was “pushy” in December and January because this person had not produced a single finished piece of their art, which would total ten pieces. I knew it was too late in January to get a pinch hitter, and I don’t care that I asked a few times how it was going when I had nothing. I handed them a completed fic on August 28th. They had nothing until mid-January (and almost didn’t make it to this deadline) but didn’t start the bulk of their work until late January 22nd and finished (except polishing and watermarking) on the 26th.

Final submissions were on January 31st.

It took them four days to do what they hadn’t done in five months. I asked if they needed an extension, and we got one because they were not done by the final submission day. I had watched another writer’s artist drop out at the last minute, and mods said they couldn’t find anyone to pinch-hit for them.

This experience was a bad one. I can’t express how shitty it felt. I didn’t write for three months during it, and the fics I’ve written since then aren’t very good. I also have watched my readership disappear—getting the hits and kudos I did before October stopped.

I had a feeling this individual might have been involved if they were talking about me, but I thought I was being paranoid. I still may be, but since this has all happened, I have started to regain readers. I find that interesting.

Anyway! This whole thing ended, and it was bitter for me. I don’t have any more enjoyment in this fandom. I love my ship, but I currently have no desire to write them. I’ve been depressed and I’m scarred from fandom events. This person took away my joy when I only wanted to participate in a fandom event with my friends and have fun.

Because fandom is supposed to be fun, it’s not supposed to do this to people. It’s insane that it does this to people, and I never wanted to be involved in this bullshit.

This person has gone on to enjoy other fandom events, write and produce art, and seems to be doing fine.

Through small but interesting events, I started to learn about this individual’s ‘perspective’ on the entire thing with me. And, hoo boy, it was a fucking ride.

I am still shocked, amazed, flabbergasted and kinda pissed off about how this person lied about me. Everything they said was a complete lie. They shared my DMs via screenshots out of context, warped what we were talking about to play the victim and get sympathy, and flat-out lied numerous times. I have been accused of forcing them to do things during the event when I have screenshot proof that never happened.

For everything this individual accused me of, I provided screenshots to tell the fucking truth.

Two people have told me the same phrasing: they made me out to be a monster.

A monster.

If anyone knows me, my character, they know I’m not a goddamn monster. I try to keep my head down, stay in my lane, play in my sandbox corner, enjoy my ships, and have fun with my friends.

To be called a monster or to have someone say, ‘you’re nothing like they made you out to be,’ is the most surreal moment of my adult life.

This is fiction, fandom; it’s not real, and not everyone makes a living off it. It’s a hobby, and it’s supposed to be enjoyable. Once we step away from our computers and phones, no one knows us as so and so, writer or artist of Ship. Meanwhile, this person is making me out to be the worst human being alive, and it is absolute insanity to learn how deep it goes.

The twists and turns, the lies, the complete lack of reality, the delusion. It’s creepy and disturbing. And, through finding all of this out, I pieced together a pattern of behavior that this individual has:

When you do something they don’t like, they distance themselves, become cold and passive-aggressive, and hold themselves above you. You are no longer of use to them. They dangle their friendship and attention on a lure, hoping you’ll bite, only to throw you back under.

Please understand that this is a dangerous thing—this is not fandom drama—this is a dangerous individual, and the person with whom they choose to spend their time speaks volumes.

I will not share names or screenshots. Screenshots have been shared with the right people, and I will not make it a public spectacle. I also choose to protect the privacy of my friends and others involved in this, of which there are many.

I have been accused of forcing this individual to do things, hating them and their work, being extremely pushy and stressing them out, and that my server was unwelcoming and the people in it were unkind, and various other things. Small things that didn’t mean anything to me were taken extremely personally and made into more lies to make this person a victim.

Such as my preferred formatting for posting my fic links on tumblr. They did not respect it, even though I attempted to respect their formatting for posting their art numerous times earlier, but I was told not to stress about it and, you guessed it—accused of forcing them to change things behind my back. Again, screenshots have been given to the right people.

This individual can delete everything, but we have our proof, as we have been gathering it. We will not publicly share anything, but if this individual decides to, we have the evidence to back it all up.

There were so many creepy and fucked up things that happened. I can’t list them without getting too personal, but please understand this person does not belong in our fandom.

They chase popular people, especially artists, to ‘collect’ them and lie to and manipulate their friends for sympathy. Their friends need to step away and see the light because they are being used—it’s not a real friendship. It is transactional.

And you should be offended. They will cast you aside when you’re useless to them, too.

If I seem mad, it’s because I am. I have been dealing with this since August, when I realized that many of their comments were strange. I didn’t know those were red flags at the time. This individual pretends to be friendly and claims to be ‘the nice one’ when things go wrong so they can keep their reputation. Interactions with them might seem harmless, but looking at them with a different scope makes them something far different.

Don’t ignore red flags or gut instincts.

This is my story, and it is not told exactly how I wish I could tell it. But I know this individual has hurt numerous other people. I was going to make this post without the ability to reblog, but I am leaving it open for now.

If you want to add your story, as I suspect many of you know who I am speaking of, please do. I ask that you avoid telling anyone else’s stories for them unless you have permission. Protect each other.

This stupid shit unites us. I’m not afraid anymore because I’m sick of watching my friends get hurt again and again.

This individual has befriended a known bully and transphobic person. I won’t speak any further on this because it is not my story, but please bear in mind that they chose a TERF over trans friends. And we know what they say about association.

Blindsided victims of this individual are not at fault for this person’s actions.

See something, say something. Terfs and bullies can GET FUCKED.

Share your story.

#whenyouwishuponastar personal #fandom discourse #harringrove #fuck terfs and fuck anyone who befriends them #terfs off our fandom #nonsense and fucking insanity #fandom is for fun not for backstabbing and manipulation #protect each other's privacy!

[akioukun]

[akioukun]

Sanctuary

The Archfae of the harvest comes home from another whisk around the mortal realm, returning to the arms of the banished ex-prince, Billy - Regalfae of the wild night, the moon, and intoxicated merriment.

A gift for the ever sweet and wonderful @whenyouwishuponastar7 as part of the Harringrove Corner Valentines Day Exchange!

Its been a hot minute since I’ve picked up my pen and made some art, so this was incredibly fun and relaxing to do!

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Billy is a regalfae with moth and deep sea creature like features- he is associated with night-time trists and tomfoolery. In the early days he was also associated with teenagehood as it was a common occurance for that age to disappear into the night and get up to trouble.

Steve is an archfae with redsquirrel and seasonal shifts. As associated with the harvest, steve is also associated with change. With th e solstice and equinox, longest and shortest days he undergoes “shedding” of skin in reflection of harvest seasons. He may appear with features that are stag like, bear like, squirrel like or fox like depending on the moon and seasonal adjustments. As such, stories of a variety of strange creatures have been marked across the mortal world, none tying to eachother.

Happy Valentines day! 🥰

#harringrove #billy hargrove #steve harrington #stranger things #harringrovecorner #billy x steve #stranger things fanart #this has been my favourite thing to do in a hot while

[akioukun]

This absolutely made my day and month entirely. Its so cozy, so mushy and soft and I abaolutely adore every second of it, especially the lovely little cameo of one of my other fave ships 🥹🥹🥹

thank you so much again for such a wonderful cozy gift!!

*coughs gently to grab attention*

As part of the Harringrove Corner Valentine's Day Exchange, I wrote a little fiction for my buddy @akioukun. It went live yesterday but I was too busy feeling a lot of feels for the fic @dragonflylady77 wrote for me (and my tablet had no battery left...) so I didn't post about my fic, but now I can, so!

In all the worst ways (3444 words)

Pairing: Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington (with background Hellcheer)

Rating: General

Tags: Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting; Alternate Universe - No Upside Down; Meet-Cute; Fluff (with the tiniest dose of angst); Hard of hearing Steve Harrington; Alternate Universe - Neighbors; Billy Hargrove is a secret romantic

Summary: Billy's barely fallen asleep when the music startles him back awake. It's coming from right behind his headboard. From the apartment that's been vacant for the past two months.
Not vacant anymore, apparently.

Billy's new neighbors are moving in and the new guy is hot as fuck. It's just a pity that the pretty boy has got a girlfriend.

You can read it here, and I really hope you enjoy it!

[akioukun]

Sliiiiding in with an old piece I did for the lovely @bigdumbbambieyes because its still one of my faves i got to paint and want to bring it back. sending best wishes and love your way my dude ♥️♥️

Apologies for the continued radio silence or if I haven’t gotten back to you, its been chaos thenpast few months, aaannnddd I’m still not gonna be around for a few more. Then hopefully, I can get back to making some art, so much left unfinished…

#harringrove #billy hargrove #steve harrington #stranger things #art #billy x steve #stranger things fanart #im so tired #but so determined #make it to march and were good to go

[akioukun]

They're both doing great. They're fine!

[akioukun]

Simple solutions, Steve

[akioukun]

absolutely furious that 'i would do anything for love' by meatloaf only came out in 1993 because teenage steve would go absolutely apeshit for that song. can you imagine billy walking across steve waiting in his car to pick up dustin or something from the arcade, windows down and absolutely belting out that song, eyes closed with an imaginary mic in hand? billy would be awestruck

meatloaf would be steve's jam. it's hard to beat bat out of hell. steve would be the king of karaoke. he'd bring the pizazz. the cheese. every first date would be wowed by his over the top performance that's both ridiculous and charming. but even outside of karaoke, without a mic and a stage and a crt tv for the lyrics (which he never needs), he'd tug on billy's heart (very much alive and thriving in his 90s grunge phase) and get him out of those classic 80s skin-tight jeans with his rendition of it's all coming back to me now.

[akioukun]

fargo season five ended ALMOST precisely how it should have, in every order. roy wasn't given the chance to be center stage. neither was gator dot was. her life, her happiness, her home, her family, her fierceness, her choice, her kindness, her giving nature, her forgiveness. she minnesta nice'd a sin eater and freed him. and we left the series with a grin, just like ole munch I love you, fargo. thanks for giving me ten years of solid television. also, everyone, please watch s1-4. season one is the best television I've watched to date and it aired in 2014 p.s. but I will be forever mad about Witt >:[[[ why. just why. I know it's fargo and this is what it does but w h y anyway so good. joe was out of this league fantastic and I cannot WAIT to see what roles he chooses after he's freed from done playing steve

[akioukun]

guys, it is free Palestine until Palestine is free. It isn’t only ceasefire now, it is also end apartheid, occupation state now. It is free Palestine, completely, until Palestine is truly free.

[akioukun]

Lord Billy for @adelacreations !!! thank you so much for leading the @harringrovezine and putting in the hard work to make it happen AND putting the zine together page by page. you're damn amazing and i hope you like this small tribute for all the work you've done and to your just-as-amazing AU, Lord Billy~ thank you so so much Add!!

#oh maaaaan #this is beautiful #THE NEONS ARGH #billy hargrove #harringrove #agreed big shout out to add for all the hard work #much love

[akioukun]

Oh Bambi this is wonderful 😭😭😭 I can never get over how soft everyone writes these two. The whole cooling of temperatures and fleeting moments everyone captures so well. Truly this AU is no longer just mine but everyone who’s had a hand in it has fleshed it out into something more than I ever could have made alone. This is gorgeous thank you so much for taking time out of your day to write such a beautiful piece 🍃🖤

a little something for @akioukun ☀️🤍🍂

the summer always wakes up before the autumn, warming those cool winter mornings out of spite — a reminder that it can burn, it’s dangerous if you get too close

and yet

Billy sleeps and stirs to feel a familiar breeze through the hoar frosted trees, still on his skin where it places it’s temporary and fleeting touch, cooling him in the way only Steve can

kissing Billy’s furrowed brow as he rouses, wrapping around him as Billy yawns and opens his eyes, sun rays spilling from them as his fire grows from its embers

Steve’s there, sometimes, in the spring — transitional, temporary, but always there wherever Billy looks, sometimes he can’t tell the difference between winter and spring

the cool, sunny days with barren meadow grounds is where they make their love

and his love returns to him once the first leaf falls

#seasonsau #harringrove #billy hargrove #steve harrington #season au #its so hot here right now #meanwhile all my friends are getting snow or wrapped in jackets and beanies trying to stave off the cold

[akioukun]

Is it just me or are the new tumblr users convinced there's a penalty of some kind for using this site like it's meant to be used?

[akioukun]

you are? I am delighted cant wait to see his lordship jammed in an ikea chair

@akioukun

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[akioukun]

🥹 awh, thank you whoever sent this ily!

Just wanted to say watching the chaos of @adelacreations wonderful re8 harringrove unfold in the cafe has been absolutely hilarious. Love to see Lord Billy in cafes too small for him. Imagine him sitting in a regular cafe chair or standing next to the counter if you will

@akioukun

Order up! Here's your Gogosi with apricot jam filling. Enjoy!

Wanna send a treat to someone and continue to spread the love? Order Here

#hg cafe delivery #harringrove

[akioukun]

billy hargrove, stranger things // micheal emerson, the lost boys

[akioukun]

Steve Harrington, lead vocalist for international heavyweight Metalcore band: Screams from the Other Side. He’s big, he’s burly… he’s actually a total softie. And he’s got a boatload of trauma that comes out in vicious, guttural lyrics.

Or, the modern day AU where pretty much everything from the show occurs, except Billy lives, the Mindflayer incident occurs on the Californian Coast and these two meet performing at a massive festival as leads of respective bands.

Up next; Billy, of the up and coming metalcore band Flayed!

#self reblog #because i been thinking about making more all day #life pls settle down so I can keep working on this au #stranger things #harringrove #metalcoreau