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me trying to convince myself that the whole spectrum of human emotions is a good and necessary thing to feel even if its not comfortable while im actively experiencing emotions that make me feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid

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I can fix him [drill sound] [screaming] [chainsaw revving]

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two bros, both alike in sexuality

in a hot tub, where we lay our scene

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this is a way better model... you'll still get transphobic & intersexist drs of course but i prefer this to male / female or even having separate questions for gender & sex.

[we can't see the full form, but i'd suggest having a "something else" option and dominant hormone question too.]

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Why Aren’t There Weebs in Star Trek Canon?

Where are the weebs? Not the ones in every main cast of every show and movie; I know there are neurodivergents galore in Star Fleet.

Where are the humans who take their interest in alien cultures way too far? Like, there are no humans culturally appropriating Klingon rituals? Where are the Vulcan weebs? There are Star Trek alien culture weebs NOW, in real life. Where are they in the canon?

I can’t stop thinking about this. Like, why doesn’t Worf have a story about how most of the kids avoided him, but there was this one who was way, way too excited about knowing a real life Klingon? Like, in an off-putting way. And now he’s some guy who keeps trying to go to Qo’noS to learn about Kahless from the source and keeps getting sent back by more and more hostile Klingon ships and taken back to Earth by more and more exasperated Star Fleet vessels.

Or where are the Vulcan day cares where they corral the humans who keep showing up and trying to act like them? Like, it’s cute, and they don’t want to discourage us from trying to be more logical, but we’re disruptive and it’s best to limit our sphere of influence, until we get bored and go home to our chaos planet.

Hell, where are the humans who ran off to join the Orions? You’re telling me no humans run off to be space pirates? To dress in cool outfits and kick ass and greet each other with a thrown knife? Like, I know Earth is a utopia and everything, but come on! A lot of humans still have to want Star Fleet excitement without Star Fleet rules. We don’t evolve that fast. Where are all the weirdos, the ones who don’t channel it into something healthy, like Star Fleet, or even outpost science?

And don’t tell me they get killed by whomever they run off to join. That would not stop us. That has not stopped us yet and I do not see it changing in only a few hundred years.

Like. Seriously. Where are the weebs?

#Star Trek #star trek headcanon #Star Trek weebs #I have questions #Manda rambles

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You don’t know how I needed this. 🥺🥺🥺 Thank you 💜💜💜

#Manda answers #beloved mutuals #my lovely Suz #showing up with sweetness #it is very much appreciated #😊🥹💖

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Scribbled a little Peggy Carter this afternoon, made with prismacolour pencils. Thanks for looking!

#Peggy Carter #amazing fanart #I love this!

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#long post #support libraries

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Alien: You shouldn’t eat that.

Human: What?

Alien: That thing. Don’t you know it’s extremely acidic? Enough to cause eventual deterioration of your flesh?

Human: ….it’s a fucking pineapple.

#humans are space orcs #humans are weird #humans are space australians #i love humans #let us not forget capsaicin #nicotine is a pesticide #alcohol is technically a poison #not that we care #i believe we haven't found alien life because alien life doesn't want us to find it #i'd hide from us too

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A Cowtown Puppet Show Saved My Life

TW: Grief, Suicidal Ideation, Death

I needed to take a minute and say something about pop culture in general and MST3K and Stardew Valley specifically.

Culture matters. Whatever you want to call it: entertainment, pop culture, escapism, storytelling, literature, music, doesn't matter. The art we create and share does matter. Like, save-a-life MATTERS. Let me tell you a story.

When I was seventeen, a few months into my freshmen year in college, two thousand miles away from my home and family, my father died unexpectedly of heart failure in the middle of the night. I left school, and went home, because my family needed me, my mother needed me. I do not regret it.

I didn't cope well with my father's death, as to be expected, but my mother almost didn't survive the grief. We held together, as best we could, and both of us made it through the pain to the other side. Grief is heavy, something you drag with you, always pulling you down toward oblivion. After awhile oblivion begins to look inviting. Mom felt the pull more than I did. She leaned on me, which added to her grief, as she felt like a burden, and I did the best I could to carry all of us, her and I and our dragging grief. This manifested in intractable insomnia. I couldn't sleep, couldn't get my mind to stop eating itself long enough to rest. Unless.

I would put on old VHS tapes of episodes of Mystery Science Theater 3000 and fall asleep to the sound of bad movies and good jokes. The sound of Mike Nelson, Bill Corbett, Kevin Murphy, Joel Robinson and Trace Beaulieu lulled me to sleep for years. Their voices were soothing, I'd seen the episodes so many times that I knew them by heart, and this was an escape, a place I could go that wasn't my own mind, where all the weight was gone. On the Satellite of Love, I could forget that I was barely an adult and yet having to deal with a myriad of adult things, like getting work to help pay the mortgage, or get my mother to a doctor before she did anything drastic.

When she got better, stronger, Mom carried me more times than I can count, so please do not think that I bear any resentment for the suddenness of my transition into adulthood. I understand what happened to her and have long since made my peace. My father was the love of her life; it was no wonder that his loss took the legs out from under her. She never remarried, never even dated again, despite my encouragement, would only say that it would be unfair to ask someone else to live up to my father's memory.

When she died, I buried her with him, as she asked.

When she died, MST3K didn't work the same way. The escape I found this time was in Stardew Valley, a lovely place where I could fall in love with the sweet redhead with a love for books and children. I built a life on Winedrunk Farm, with Penny, and our children Calliope and Julius. It was a lovely place, where I didn't have to think about probate attorneys and an apartment full of the things a person collects in their life and leaves to their loved ones to sort through when they die. The things that carry the barbs of a thousand memories ready to stab the unwary.

Sometimes we need someplace to be that is not ourselves, and our shared stories give us that. Someone else's world doesn't carry those barbs, cannot stab us in the same way. Without someone else's world there would be no escape from ourselves. I would not have survived the grief of losing either of my parents if I had not found these worlds. I NEEDED to escape my grief, and a silly satellite with a mad scientist and bad movies, or a rural town where I have made EVERYONE love me, is exactly what I needed.

I started this as an essay on the importance of even "pop" art, but I ended up just wanting to put my gratitude out into the world. To all the people who've made the things I love, but especially the creators and writers of MST3K and ConcerncedApe, the developer of Stardew Valley, whoever they are, for saving my life. It sounds dramatic, but it's true. I'm here because of a cowtown puppet show and a farming sim video game. Maybe that doesn't matter, really, in the big scheme, but it matters to me, so thank you.

Thank you to all the artists, who save lives, and never even know it.

#tw: grief #tw: suicidal ideation #tw: death #manda rambles #personal #pantswrites #mst3k #mystery science theater 3000 #stardew valley #pop culture

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hey could y'all do me a favour?

Reblog if you're okay with "weird" compliments on your stuff!

things like "biting this" and such

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i really love it when people here are “not normal” about the things they love. yes!! break down the scene that you’ve been obsessing over for weeks! create incredibly intricate theories based on a few throwaway lines! explain why you love this character so much—458 reasons and counting, and with visual aids! i love to see people putting their heart and soul into not being normal!!!

#need a queue

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#this isn’t me! #I don’t know what you’re talking about #there’s definitely a plan #I swear #😳😁 #need a queue

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#dude! #exactly! #need a queue

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Check my pinned post

#by all means #if your money isn’t making you happy #feel free to give it to me #I have ideas for days #it would make me very happy to spend your money #😁😁😁 #need a queue