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not lorelai gilmore II naming her brunette kid lorelai lee gilmore as if naming her baby after herself wasn't enough and she actually did have to name her after marilyn monroe's lorelei lee in gentlemen prefer blondes

#cinnamon notes #txt #txt post #gilmore girls #lorelai gilmore #gentlemen prefer blondes

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lorelai was so supposed to be her name!!!

#lorelai gilmore #cinnamon notes

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y’all….i love being a lesbian

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@camcamino i'm noticing your new url JUST NOW and pls you're the person with the best url EVER!!!! 😭😭😭

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i'll definitely just turn it into poetry though cuz i hate my singing voice and i never record myself cuz i hate listening to it so i will very certainly forget how it goes unless i sing it every day lol

man, i've had so many breakdowns i was way too close to self harm but im just glad i didn't oh my oh my oh my

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i wrote a song instead. i've never written a song before.

man, i've had so many breakdowns i was way too close to self harm but im just glad i didn't oh my oh my oh my

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man, i've had so many breakdowns i was way too close to self harm but im just glad i didn't oh my oh my oh my

#it's time for me to stop and admit i deserve rest and if i dont like that i deserve rest then let's just say i need it and if i dont like #that i need it lets just consider it a task and lets just say that i must rest oh my oh my it was scary and it was painful and i hated it #and this was a clear sign i must stop to unwind a little #cinnamon diary

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I was walking in the rain all over my town. Downtown. To the spring festival. The tortured poets department playing through my headphones. SUDDENLY THE MARCHING BAND APPROACHES WHILE PLAYING TAKE ON ME BY AHA AND I DO NOT TAKE MY HEADPHONES OFF SO I KEEO WALKING IN THE RAIN LISTENING TO BOTH TTPD AND TAKE ON ME PLAYED BY A MARCHING BAND !!!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT MY PERSONALITY IS LIKE!!!!!!!!!!

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fun fact: the Taylor Doose of my town has the town coat of arms tattooed on his biceps :) he's Taylor Doose on acids

#cinnamon and the townsfolk

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Town's Spring Festival day today. It's a whole rainstorm out there. It always is on Spring Festival day, every damn year. Am I weird for finding comfort in it?

#i cant wait to see my fav stands which are the old books stand the old cds stand the old clothes stand the bohemian clothes stand and then #there's this stand that always sells handmade random things that are just so beautiful and i really can't wait to go out and walk in the #rain and empty my wallet :) #cinnamon notes

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#quotes/art/random/references #cinnamon's apt

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things i need in my apt:

#quotes/random #cinnamon's apt

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art i need in my apt:

#cinnamon's apt #movie's version

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my dream house has a record player liquor cabinet by the way

#just fantasizing about my dream house because im probably getting a new apt in a few months and it'll be the first apartment i am actually #and eventually allowed to decorate and im excited about that and i hope it'll make me feel more at home. more like i belong. so im starting #to make mental notes for what i'd love to be in it and since this acc is basically my online diary it's very much likely for me to use it to #keep track of it lol so i might as well come up with a new tag which would be #cinnamon's apt

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oh cinnamon, the autistic that you are! (i was exposed to sudden, high-pitched waves of noise at work and i stimmed like crazy, and covered my ears and broke what i was holding because i dropped it because my triggered hearing became my brain's only priority)

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[cinnamon's diary, april 27th]: mom, you've given me everything i need

Despite having lived alone and far away from my hometown for a year now, I've just had this exact moment with my mom today, which really weirded me out.

Gilmore girls has always been my show in a way that I cannot explain and capture accurately enough. Through all the years I've watched and rewatched it, I'd find in it many anecdotes from my life, as well as the people in it. Until now, never have I had a moment like that, and I was hoping it would've never come. But it did, eventually. And it was weird. And it was scary. And it was, as Lorelai said, "too soon".

Lorelai embodies many people who aren't just my mom. She is some of what my mom is, as well as what my first caregiver was, as well as how my ex looks like, as well as her mother's ADHD and life freedom, as well as the woman I am looking forward to being and am actually slowly becoming. However, today, Lorelai was 100% the representation of my mom.

My mom had come to visit me for a few days, and I dropped her at the airport earlier today. As I was driving her, she gave me the "it's too soon" speech, followed by the "you could never disappoint me, ever" speech, which both got me teary and particularly emotional before I gave my "you've given me everything I need" speech.

And yeah I've been on my own for already one year; yet, I can see why she felt like now was the time for the speech. And yeah I've been on my own for just one year; yet, I can see why she felt like now was the time for the speech.

I'm 20 but I'm settling down. And it's hard to settle down when you grew up in a Stars Hollow with the mindset of Hartford. And it's yet so natural to feel Rachel's need for escapism, as well as Lorelai's agony for that mindset. And it becomes both challenging and exciting to settle down so young and so far.

Today I've realized I've just walked into a new phase of my life, a phase of solitude to turn into independence, a phase of inexperience to turn into self-reliance, a phase of experiments to turn into roots, a phase of "nothing I'm doing right now has to be final", a phase of "everything I'm doing right now could be final". And I just love it. As someone who feels trapped by forever's, as someone who's terrified at the idea of becoming a tree that's forever rooted in the same place, yet, as someone who also feels trapped by uncertainties, as someone who's terrified at the idea of never feeling like I belong, I'm loving this not-too-temporary-not-too-final phase of mine.

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i would very much like to be taylors graphic designer