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[diaryofagaymagician-blog]

Entry 1 - 3417/13/8

My therapist told me keeping a diary would help with my mental problems so here I go. My name is Elos and I am a gay magician on the planet Novem. I am currently a Dimensional Magic Major at the Institute of Xel. Through chance I came upon the ‘Internet’ of planet Earth and since no one from Novem really know about this place I decided to write my diary in a website called ‘Tumblr’. So for however long, I guess I’m going to write my daily experiences and feeling right here. Before I really get into it, magic does really exist. It’s separated into different specialties like technological, vocational, elemental, alchemy, and etc.

As exciting as it sounds, it really isn’t when you get into the specifics of it. Moving on, I am gay as the title of the diary states. I just thought I would include that in the title since it’s a secret so far and I’ve been wanting to shout it out loud for such a long time. I want to let everybody know, but my parents’ don’t believe homosexuality follows the Order. Society is changing with the younger generation, but it’s still a touchy topic.

Just so you know, the Order is what many people believe to be the natural path of magic and in turn the natural path of life. It’s a bit complicated but whatever. Once you diverge from the Order, you’re pretty much a Dark Magician. There have been plenty of good magicians in history that have been found to be gay, but some people are really just too stubborn. Don’t get me wrong, they’re not stupid. My parents are not stupid, they just grew up believing what they did and believed it their whole lives. I was like that until I found out I liked wands over orbs. I hope they do change their minds one day or that I will be the catalyst to change their minds, but for now, I’ll keep silent. I don’t have anyone besides them so I can’t risk it. I’m horrible at making friends. I am a junior at the University(the haven of friend making) and I still don’t have friends. Not to mention my grades are as much of a mess as I am.

The only thing keeping my self esteem going is when my Mom’s friend once told me I was “the cutest thing ever” when I was seven. The only thing keeping me going at this point is this guy I have a crush on in Intro to Space Magic Formulas, which I will get into later. All in all I am a fucking mess.

As much as I would love to keep the diary exciting and full of drama, my life is like a rollercoaster that peaked in elementary school. I know you Earthers love magic so I’ll try to keep a good balance between my life and the wonders of magic. So until I’m better here I go. Strap in, or not, because it’s going to be a tepid ride.

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