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#bestfriends

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#girl

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Why is it in times like this when my heart races and I feel anxious that I want to talk to you the most. We haven't talked in so long so why do I long for you. I don't even know if you care about me anymore, think about me anymore, or even know I exist anymore. We were nothing special but friends and I think of us as that still but do you. Why do I long to talk to you, touch you or just have you in my presence. But were we ever really normal friends with some of the things we did and how we cared for one another. Maybe that's just me thinking to much in to it and you did what you did out of friendship. I hope at least once a week I might hear from you even if it's just stupid small talk but I never do. Because you've probably moved on with life and I am at most a distant memory for you. Every so often I end up stuck in a memory of the kisses we stole from one another. Along with the kisses on the cheeks, nose, forehead, and anywhere else and I get sad. I wonder if you ever think of them or was it just some fun thing you did in the past. Why is it when thing get hard for me you're the one I want to run to, talk to and have you hold me. Maybe it was because you were there at points when I needed you the most and I was there for you. I don't even know why I'm writing this because what good will it do me for the reason I will most likely never reach out to you. Because you are happy with someone who is not me and why would I want to burden you with my issues. For I don't even know if you would still call us friends because I still do but do you.

#why #feelings #bad love #i believe it #i love him #he is ok #me and you #memories #smiley face #dinu #daniel

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"Dear me,

I'm sorry for hurting you so much

I have no idea why I'm doing like this

Because it's not your fault

For what the world has done to you

But I have no idea how to love

I have no idea how to treat myself good

No one ever teached me

I was living from the lies of the past

Please forgive me for being like this

I hope that I will make you proud one day

That you will not depend your happiness on others

But that you will only do it by yourself

I want you to look up at yourself

Be your own example of how it should be

You know better than anyone what you deserve

Wake up my dear and step out of this spiritual prison

Because you deserve to live

Your future depends on you, so try harder

Especially if you have failed on it before because you can do it and you're worthy it

With love

(Your future)Me."

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#happydog #winter #let it snow #love him #loveparis #in paris #je taime #beautiful #justbeyourself

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#seriously wtf #??? kinda #what? #beauties #big eyes #nice evening

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#pitbull #stafford #happydog #doggie #whitedog #gooutdoors #summer #with him

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#bored in quarantine #deep thinking #funny face #i dont know #what? #hmmmm #now and always

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#weedlovers #deep thinking #missing #pokerpro #take care of yourself #joint #leave me alone

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Dinulescu I love you

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I see nothing without you... Dinulescu

#illustration

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