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things will bloom again, we're gonna be okay :)

please don't use these without askin (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

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i just want to be a cat in late spring. because then i could just sit in the sun and blink slowly and maybe chase a bug. i think that’s what we all want

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Spent the day in the sandpit building different kinds of "waterfalls" out of plastic half pipes and ladder lookin' things. I love that I get to play so much as an adult lmao

#the kids were so excited #i kept seeing those objects in the sandpit toy cupboard #figured they must be for water play but i never saw anyone use them for that purpose #im glad i gave it a go #personal

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June Landscape

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Trametes versicolor || Southern Oregon

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i know love exists because i’m filled with it.

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lakeside

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CW childhood cancer

Today was really hard. 2yo girl whose 3yo brother with cancer (he was recently taken off chemo bc there's nothing more they can do) came back to preschool after a month away spending family time together. She understandably had a reeeally rough morning and was with me for most of it because I'm the only teacher who does both over 2s and under 2s, so I'm familiar to her. She'd just graduated to the over 2s before her brother stopped receiving treatment so her world has changed rapidly. Lots of snuggles, lots of words of affirmation. Spent every single break crying my eyes out. Cried at the sushi shop. Ugly cried when a coworker asked how she was doing in the staffroom. Cried when I got home. I just can't fathom what must be going on in her little head, how confused and scared and unsettled she must feel seeing mum and dad so upset and her brother sick. It's too heavy for such a little tiny person :(

#and it will probably only get worse once/if her brother deteriorates #hoping for a miracle for this family #sorry i just need to get this all out #its so painful watching her go through huge emotions #knowing whats behind them #personal #cw cancer

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2017 Paris

#how im tryna be

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small talk? it was quite big to me. i love you

#literally #me @ everyone

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the same spot, before and after i passed it

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༺𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑚𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑢𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒𝑠༻

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cosmos, cat & sheep 🌸🐈‍⬛🐑

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for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

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#💀