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"amab or afab" im alab experiment that went wrong

#ch: chuuya nakahara

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people in Virtual Reality share their biggest regrets (Source : Disrupt )

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Do you ever think about how the event that led people to start calling Dazai and Chuuya Soukoku was an act of grief?

Their partnership started at 15, but the mafia immortalized it after the Dragon's Head Conflict by dubbing them Soukoku.

The most fearsome duo in all of Yokohama.

Soukoku, a name meant to remind everyone, enemies and allies alike of the destructive force of they're capable of. Of the mafia's victory during the Dragon's Head Conflict.

Of the same night, the very moment, Chuuya learned he lost his friends again.

Chuuya wasn't there to bring the mafia victory or destroy buildings, he was there to save his friends. That's all he wanted, to get the people he cared about home, safe.

Instead he had more people ripped from him. He activated corruption in a state of grief and it's so different from the corruption we see in the main manga.

Chuuya's rage feels cold and calculated when he's fighting Lovecraft and then afterwards, he starts laughing manically. Dead Apple Chuuya's corruption feels so raw and pained.

Especially when we see Dazai nullify it.

He never stopped screaming, when the marks are gone and corruption's nullified, he's still screaming. You can't tell me that's not a tear in the second panel, it's shaped and shaded differently to the debris.

Chuuya told Dazai not to stop him and we assume he meant not to stop him using corruption, but what if he meant "Don't stop me, at all." What if he was so overcome with grief that, in that moment, he was okay with corruption burning through him completely. What if he didn't mean that but it's what Dazai heard? And that's why he's so gentle with Chuuya afterwards, because for a second, Chuuya sounded too much like himself.

Do you think there was a time where Chuuya couldn't stand the name Soukoku, not because it associated him with Dazai but because it immortalized the night he failed to save his friends again?

Do you think Dazai watched Chuuya just that little more closely afterwards, afraid to hear something like "Don't stop me." again?

Does hearing the name Soukoku sometimes bring back awful memories for them when other people say it with awe?

#ch: chuuya nakahara #meta: chuuya nakahara #it's also not a coincidence that the first time chuuya ever had to use corruption was in sb just days after losing the flags #and then just months later he loses more of his friends in dead apple. both taking place in the same year is important #it once again drills home the importance of chuuya's characterisation in terms of grief and loss and /sorrow/ #every time chuuya has lost his friends that he has never had the proper chance to mourn them despite openly wanting to #when he loses the flags he immediately has to fight verlaine. when he loses his friends in dead apple he has to fight shibusawa. #and it's the fact that grief hits him immediately but he can never truly mourn properly nor process his grief #he screams in dead apple at the loss of his friends and his first reaction to lippman was to scream #the only reason he didn't scream when seeing the rest of the flags is bc he didn't want to upset albatross in his final moments. #nd we know losses weigh HEAVY on chuuya. that the grief IS overwhelming for him (he only left the flags' funeral when mori told him to) #so as for whether chuuya was willing to completely lose himself to corruption in da; i tihnk it's not entirely out there to consider it #we know that chuuya does canonically struggle with suicidal ideations of his own #even using corruption comes with the understanding there might come a time where he'll never come back from it #but in sb; he hallucinates dazai asking what is the point in clinging to life before telling him they're one and the same #so we know that part of him sees dazai's suicidal behaviour and relates in his own way; while a big part is bc he questions his own humanit #chuuya feels human (and by extension: alive) when he is able to protect those he cares about #so by losing two groups of friends in the same year; not including probably countless others in the pm who were hurt or killed in the dhc; #killing himself might not have been the explicit desire he wanted; but escaping from the pain of loss might have been a consideration #and i would agree that dazai probably recognised that; given how dazai knows how much chuuya cares for those he considers friends #lastly; while i don't think chuuya would have hated being associated with dazai nor skk necessarily; #i do think it's the romanticization of skk rising from the dragon head conflict itself that chuuya would find distasteful #because again chuuya wasn't doing it for the fame. he wasn't doing it for praise. he was doing it so he could save his friends

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“Does Chuuya believe that Dazai is human?”

someone on twitter proposed this question, specifically referencing this scene*:

this scene is so interesting because Dazai is pretending he doesn’t care about what Shibusawa is doing. he’s pretending he does care about reaching executive. he’s pretending he doesn’t have a plan.

everything he does in this scene is intentional, to set Chuuya on track for his plan to take down Shibusawa… which includes riling him up.

yes, Chuuya believes Dazai is human— that’s precisely why it’s such a sensitive subject for Chuuya. he projects onto Dazai what he’s scared of becoming because Dazai is a mirror for Chuuya. when Chuuya looks at Dazai, he sees parts of himself that he tries to ignore staring back at him. (the same is true for Dazai— Chuuya is his mirror)

so Dazai sees this topic as an easy way to get Chuuya mad— to storm off & leave him alone for a few days so that Dazai can go get himself captured (so that Chuuya will have to come save him, putting him in the perfect position to use Corruption & end the conflict once and for all).

but when Chuuya realizes Dazai’s plan (like he always does), he sees through Dazai’s front. honestly part of the reason he’s always so annoyed when he gets to Dazai is probably in part because Dazai keeps pretending to be heartless when he’s really not. Chuuya doesn’t understand why Dazai lets people think he’s “bad” when, in reality, he’s doing something good.

so actually, Chuuya is one of the few people who sees and knows that Dazai isn’t heartless.

he does care.

he is human.

Chuuya’s own projection just gets in the way of him remembering that most of the time (which is totally understandable considering his backstory & the fact that he’s only a kid).

*just for reference, the official translation’s version of those panels reads:

“Well, that was mean of you. I’m human too, you know?”

“Like anyone believes that. Just be glad I didn’t kill you.”

#it's also important to recognise this is happening just MONTHS after stormbringer #just months after chuuya is tortured and made to question his humanity part 3647283 and had to use corruption the first time #and when chuuya hallucinates— his projection of dazai even says ''deep down inside; you and i are the same'' #they project onto each other as a result of how well they know each other — chuuya is one of the few people who knows dazai's intentions #chuuya also canonically sees and considers everyone else human before he ever thinks to consider himself human #dazai trying to act inhuman pisses chuuya off not bc chuuya doesn't think he's human — it's the fact he's trying to act as if he isn't #so combining chuuya realising dazai's motivations with him acting apathetic on purpose; it just (again) adds to the frustration #also: dazai was purposely trying to get him mad here by bringing up the discussion on humanity and acting apathetic #which is why using this ? scene to try and use it as a marker for proof of chuuya thinking dazai /isn't/ human fundamentally doesn't work #if anything— it's just proof on how much they project onto each other and know each other too well #anyways so as to say: i am rotating them in my head like they're in a microwave #ch: nakahara chuuya #ch: dazai osamu #anime: bungou stray dogs #meta: bungou stray dogs

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my favourite thing about chuuya nakahara is that he's just kind of. chill. about everything. he's like, my tragic backstory has no hold on me, i went to therapy and i'm all good now. i'm a bad guy cuz it pays good and my found family happens to be here. what do you mean that's not a good reason, you a cop or something?

someone will betray him and he'll go ok well that's pretty upsetting. they probably had a good reason though. i'll forgive them if they let me get a good punch in. if they're really just a hater they're giving me bad vibes and i don't wanna deal with 'em at all tbh.

things have been done to him that would warrant a lifelong crusade of revenge for anyone else, but for chuuya nakahara it's just, that was super not cool but i'll let it slide if you get therapy with me.

chuuya is down for any crime and thinks moral boundaries are for losers and stuff but he's the nicest guy in the port mafia when it comes to not mistreating his subordinates and probably helps old ladies cross the street. he shows up for a solid 10-20 minutes of screentime per season and makes all the fans fall in love with him while doing the bare minimum, and despite technically being a villain i don't think he's worked against the agency a single time (although to be fair this is often not on purpose). he also does the bare minimum every time he's asked to help in-universe and clearly isn't even trying, and he sweeps anyway because he is ridiculously overpowered and could probably kill literally everyone if he actually wanted to, and i just. no one is doing it like him. you go you unbothered king.

#PLEASE bff is so glamourously chill at all times and it drives me nuts #he will forgive any and everything with mild grumbling and im screaming and wailing in my cage #like wdym u will forgive ur ex friends for STABBING U WITH RAT POISON and then now u also refuse to tell them u joined the mafia to protect #what do you MEAN your brother kills all of your best friends only for u to empathise with him and acknowledge him as ur brother #u were experimented & tortured by the govt at 5 .. and u DON'T immediately storm the govt hq and kill every single one of them? #if ANYONE went thru the shit that chuuya went thru .. they would either shut down or be the MAIN villain .. and yet bff just vibes #goes into the mafia; clocks in; it's his 9 to 5; chuuya is the most grounded character in the entire series and i'm biting my keyboard #when i'm in an ''it is what it is'' competition and my opp is chuuya .. i'm losing 😔 #ch: nakahara chuuya #meta: bungou stray dogs

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Girl you need to get out of bed faster than this

#tp #arden.

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#u would think i would just be able 2 do assignments by now #alas #arden.

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imagine going to prison to deal with a guy away from your friends and killing the guy only for you to have not actually killed him and actually put him in the center of all your friends

#I'M SICK TO MY STOMACH !!!!!!!!!!! #ch: dazai osamu #bsd spoilers #anime: bungou stray dogs #spoilers /

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this is so periodtrackerappcore of them

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Can a pro piracy girl and a pro physical media boy really fall in love

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interesting fact i have titanium in my spine

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I was overstimulated and now I’m evil

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the more you know!!

#hell YEAH #save

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#arden.

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LAFARY×サンリオ「ファンタジーストーリーシリーズ」

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