littlebennettbitch

[littlebennettbitch]

The grip Bonnie had on the mug loosened a bit when there was no pity on Camille's face. Only an understanding that Bonnie hurt to see. "Clearly we both need a wider circle of people around us," she quipped, her grin crooked and wry. Not that Bonnie would ever let go of her friends. They were all she had, though sometimes they seemed to forget that. Sometimes they seemed to forget her, it felt like, and just saw the magic she could do for them. The witch's gaze fell to the mug, unseeing and distant as the ever-present ache in her heart made itself known. "Exhausting doesn't even begin to cover it." She smiled again, but she knew it did not reach her eyes. "Unfortunately, you get used to it." She paused, and her smile slipped, though her eyes remained soft and fixed on Camille. "I hope you don't get used to it." Fight it, she did not say. Fight to be seen and heard and to live beyond them.

"you're still more human than the majority of people around me." cami mumbled, though it was the truth. when she thought about it, she realized that nearly all of the people she knew were supernatural - like vampires or werewolves. the only ones who were the most human were davina, freya and vincent. it felt comforting to know that bonnie understood her so well when it came to being alone. but simultaneously, the bartender felt sad about it as it probably meant that bonnie had too much experience with loneliness herself. but misery loved company and all of that. and maybe what people said about kindred spirits finding one another also rang true because here the witch was, right? "how long has it been hurting you? you seem to put on a brave face most of the time. must be exhausting."

#queenvixens #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: camille o'connell #ic post #para post #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

The warmth of Lexi's hand on Bonnie's was nearly her undoing. It was only through sheer force of will that the witch kept from breaking down in helpless tears. She was stronger than this. She had had to be, to keep going. One foot in front of the other, feelings locked away and out of sight if only so that she could be of use to the people she cared about. Bonnie's fingers flexed under Lexi's touch. She could not bring herself to turn it around and clutch at Lexi's hand like a child, but neither could she bring herself to pull away. "Thank you." Her voice was barely a whisper. "I appreciate it."

"that's all we can do." lexi smiled gently, being so bold as to reach out and lay her hand over bonnie's for a moment. she knew that they were in no way close, though she could see that her comment was affecting the witch. and that told her that her words rang true and that she'd assessed the situation correctly. bonnie's reaction caused her own heart to break since no one deserved to feel like they were living in solitude. "and if you ever need someone to listen or to just be there..."

#queenvixens #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: alexia branson #ic post #para post #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

Again, Bonnie snorted in disbelief. "A seat at the table," she mocked, finding that well of bitterness and hurt and rage she usually tucked away to keep the peace. There was no need for it here, not when the girl she grew up with and loved so dearly was nowhere in sight. There was only someone wearing her face and holding none of that light and warmth of the Elena that had been Bonnie's best friend. That compassion had been slowly withering away, but now Bonnie saw none of it at all. "Elena, honey -" Her tone was patronising, and she did not try to hide it. "My family built that damn table for this town. You can't give me shit." The witch leaned back, snark gone in a blink of an eye. Sometimes she wondered if her friends ever truly grasped just how much she held back. Now she had her answer about Elena at least. "That will be your first and final mistake." It was murmured, something like regret in her veins. It was not a threat. It was a promise.

"they could now, but you rejected that idea." elena herself had welcomed it, they were the ones who brought her back to life after all. she owed them for that, but they has also made her see the light regarding a lot of things. "like i said, i offered you a seat at the table, but you'd rather eat on the floor. that's your problem." she found herself merely shrugging her shoulders. it honestly didn't bother her that bonnie didn't want to team up, as long as she didn't stand in the brunette's way. when caroline and tyler were mentioned, the huntress opted to mirror bonnie's smirk. she wasn't afraid and actually welcomed the challenge. "i'd love to see you try because they're actually the first ones on my list."

#queenvixens #( forever and a half later i am SO SORRY ) #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: elena gilbert #ic post #para post #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

It felt like so long since Bonnie had been hugged so tightly. That Bonnie felt like she could slowly come undone in her best friend's arms and he wouldn't judge her, he wouldn't leave her to put herself back together in whatever haphazard manner she could before the next crisis came along. "Common denominator in all of it is me." How could it be a them problem when that was a truth that stared her right in the face? From her mother to her friends to the boyfriends that thought her either too much or not enough. How long would it be before Jake and Jess decided the same? She wanted to believe they wouldn't - they were far too entwined into her heart, her soul for her to ever let them go - but a small morbid part of her could not help but whisper they'll see it soon too.

It was the easiest thing in the word to pull her in, his arms around her to hold her close, squeezing just tight enough that he could support her weight if she needed him to. “Nothin’ wrong with you, Bonnie.” But he understood why she felt that way. People left him too and it was a hurt that only grew with every abandonment. Another kiss was pressed to the top of her head, “If they couldnxt see how amazing you are, that’s a them problem, sweetheart.”

#v; i'll tell you the truth but never goodbye #( in which bonnie's insecurities and abandonment issues rear their head ) #cnfrmdkll #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: jake 'hangman' seresin #ic post #para post #verse: always be this close forever #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

"i firmly believe we should be allowed to have fun with this. like, why not, right?"

meme: idk status: not accepting because idk her LMAO

The sigh she lets out ruffles the pages of her grimoire. Bonnie hums something like an agreement and then leans back and away from the words that are swimming across the page. "Considering the fact that I do not understand this at all -" She shrugs and closes the book. "We can make it up as we go along." It's not like they haven't already been through what the worst could be.

#verse: double double toil and trouble #nosestealer #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone #ic post #para post #answered #( oops i missed one yesterday lol )

[littlebennettbitch]

#( MY GIRL ) #witchy goddess #person: bonnie bennett #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

“Don’t be bitter. It provokes wrinkles.”

#( i love her so much ) #witchy goddess #person: bonnie bennett #sometimes i think i'd queue for just ordinary

[littlebennettbitch]

"have you seen 'sanctuary: a witch's tale?' - i'm kind of obsessed."

Nose wrinkling slightly, Bonnie casts a dubious glance at the other witch. "Lou, we are witches. Why watch something that will undoubtedly be inaccurate?" What she does not say is this - she's never heard about the show in her life because right now, the only things playing on her screen are Bluey and Tab Time and Ms Rachel and - you get the picture.

#v; single mom #nosestealer #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone #ic post #para post #answered #( can you tell my kids watch these shows lmao )

[littlebennettbitch]

[PRIDE]: after the receiver succeeds in a remarkable achievement, the sender cups their face and tilts their foreheads together to express how proud they are of them.

meme: reasons to cup a face status: accepting (from mutuals)

The absolute delight and pride on Lou Ellen's face makes Bonnie's grin catch, her heart skip a beat. It means so much to Bonnie to have someone she considers family here. If her Grams and Dad can't be here, then Bonnie is so glad that her friend - her sister - is. She clutches the degree she never thought she would live to receive in one hand and leans into Lou, wrapping her other arm around her in a hug. "I did it." Her words are a disbelieving whisper. "I did it." Grams, Dad, I did it.

#answered #verse: double double toil and trouble #nosestealer #reasons to cup a face meme #ic post #para post #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone

[littlebennettbitch]

❛ please don't leave me alone. i cannot do this without you. ❜

meme: more random angst sentences status: accepting (from mutuals)

Immediately, Bonnie reaches out to the younger witch and curls her hand around Lou's. She hopes the touch will be grounding to her, as grounding as Lou's presence always is to Bonnie. She squeezes gently. "Hey," she murmurs. "Hey, I'm not going anywhere, okay? I'm right here with you." She leans close and presses a kiss to the top of her friend's - her little sister's - head. "You're not going to have to do this alone. I promise."

#verse: double double toil and trouble #nosestealer #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone #ic post #para post #answered #more random angst sentences meme

[littlebennettbitch]

"okay but we could find a place outside of mystic falls. a club. doesn't even have to be a supernatural only one if you want to step away from that for a night. we go out, we drink a little. we dance a little. and hopefully, if all goes right, we find you someone - or someone's - to go home with. if that's what you want, of course."

It sounds so very tempting. To leave - even if just for a little bit - the supernatural chaos of her life behind and be nothing more than normal. To let loose and have fun, to let her hair down. Bonnie's not sure she remembers how. She's not sure what to do even if she manages to catch someone's eye. With her luck, they'd be a part of this world already. They'd either be laying a trap or they'd get hurt or -

Fuck it, this is exactly why Lou's right and she needs a break. "You know what? Let's do it."

#( hey what if this is how trudy gets conceived during bonnie's NIGHT OFF lmao ) #nosestealer #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone #ic post #para post #answered

[littlebennettbitch]

"i still maintain that he kicked himself in the balls."

meme: idk anymore status: not accepting because i don't remember it lmao

"Mhmm." Bonnie's hum of acknowledgement and agreement is skeptical and more than a little amused as she casts a glance at Lou Ellen. "And I'm sure not magically assisted in any way."

#answered #nosestealer #rp: bonnie bennett #rp: lou ellen blackstone #ic post #para post #verse: double double toil and trouble

[littlebennettbitch]

the thing i have been working towards that has taken so much of my focus has finally happened! and i am officially PUBLISHED! with my novella now out in the world, i'm going to try and slowly get to drafts - i'll be doing meme replies first - but it may take a while because i do still have other original stuff i'm working on.

#i didn't want to talk about it here and jinx myself over not actually going through with it #but i have a book out in the wild (online stores) that i wrote completely! ahhh?! #ooc #outofmagic

[littlebennettbitch]

i swear i will be doing replies soon.

#( yes i am watching my drafts grow ) #( no i haven't abandoned any of the blogs ) #( I SWEAR I WILL DO THEM SOON ) #ooc #outofmagic

[littlebennettbitch]

REASONS TO CUP A FACE. ( A PROMPT LIST. )

with the help of some very talented and amazing friends, i present to you an unexpected, very spontaneous meme list based on the beautiful art of cupping someone's face! there's a mix of romantic and platonic here, and even a few that defy the boundaries of normal relationship dynamics! i hope you enjoy! as always; DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST NOR CLAIM IT AS YOUR OWN!

[KISS]: sender cups the receivers face in their hands before drawing them closer for a kiss.

[CHECK]: after an unexpectedly violent situation, sender frantically rushes to check if the receiver is okay, cupping their face to look closer.

[CLEAN]: sender affectionately wipes a smudge of sauce from the corner of the receiver's mouth, cupping their face in the process.

[LIFT]: sender gently cups the receiver's face and lifts their chin so the receiver is looking up at them.

[COMFORT]: sender cups a distressed receiver's face in their hands and steadies them by resting their foreheads together.

[ATTENTION]: during an important conversation, the sender takes the receiver's face in their hands and firmly directs their focus on them.

[MAKE-UP]: while applying make-up on the receiver's face, the sender cups their face in order to keep them still.

[PRIDE]: after the receiver succeeds in a remarkable achievement, the sender cups their face and tilts their foreheads together to express how proud they are of them.

[WHISPER]: in order to have a private, hushed conversation with the receiver, the sender cups their face and draws them close to make sure they can be heard.

[HAIR]: in the process of pushing the receiver's hair back from their face, the sender lets their hand rest against the receiver's cheek a moment longer.

[GROUND]: during a moment of intense emotional stress, the sender gently takes the receiver's face in their hands to ground them until they're calmer again.

[WONDER]: unable to comprehend how incredible the receiver is, the sender decides to simply cup their face in their hands and marvel at them instead.

[LAST LOOK]: before going into a situation that may result in their death, the sender takes a moment to cup the unaware receiver's face in their hand, just to take a final look of admiration at them before they go.

[SACRIFICE]: the sender cups the receiver's face tenderly to distract them, right before shoving them out of the way (to safety) and facing an attack alone in order to buy the receiver enough time to escape.

[BELIEF]: in a moment where the receiver is lacking in self-confidence, the sender cups their face tenderly and professes their faith in the receiver's abilities.

[DISBELIEF]: after the receiver has done something completely unexpected (and reckless) the stunned sender cups their face in their hands while trying to get them to explain why the hell they did it.

[BETRAYAL]: trying to keep the receiver calm before the big reveal, the sender cups their face gently to keep them steady, and then reveals that they're the villain.

[WOUND]: after the receiver has been wounded, the sender tries to keep them calm and conscious by cupping their face in their hands and talking to them to keep them focused.

[INJURY]: after having been badly wounded themselves, the sender tries to reassure the frantic receiver by cupping their face and comforting them.

[RAMSAY]: after the receiver commits a culinary crime, the sender presses two slices of bread against either side of their face, cupping their face to hold the bread in place, and calls them an idiot sandwich.

#meme #mutuals only pls! #( me reblogging memes instead of doing drafts? absolutely! )

[littlebennettbitch]

🐝  *  ―  𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑹𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑶𝑴 𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  please don't leave me alone. i cannot do this without you.  ❜ ❛  just fucking leave me alone!  ❜ ❛  i'm done crying about this. i'm done crying about you.  ❜ ❛  why do you even pretend to care?  ❜ ❛  will i ever be good enough?  ❜ ❛  i hate you!  ❜ ❛  i don't ever want to see you again.  ❜ ❛  if you don't go now, i promise i'll make your life a living hell.  ❜ ❛  did you ever really love me? or was it all just a game to you?  ❜ ❛  you're not my friend ... not anymore.  ❜ ❛  i don't love you anymore.  ❜ ❛  how could you do this to me? i trusted you!  ❜ ❛  i gave you my heart, and you just walked away like it meant nothing.  ❜ ❛  it's all my fault, isn't it? i ruin everything i touch.  ❜ ❛  this is goodbye. i hope you find the happiness i couldn't give you.  ❜ ❛  can't you see i'm hurting? or do you just not care enough to notice?  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who i am anymore. it's like i've lost myself along the way.  ❜ ❛  i never thought i'd see you again. why did you come back into my life now?  ❜ ❛  i'm finally happy ... why do you have to try and ruin this?  ❜ ❛  i never meant to hurt you.  ❜ ❛  what happened to us? we used to be so good together.  ❜ ❛  promises are just words, meaningless and easily broken.  ❜ ❛  i pushed you away when all i wanted was for you to stay.  ❜ ❛  why couldn't you love me back? am i not enough?  ❜ ❛  i never meant for you to find out like this. i'm so sorry.  ❜ ❛  i wish we could go back and fix the moment everything went wrong.  ❜ ❛  i feel like we're drifting apart, and no matter how hard i try, i can't stop it.  ❜ ❛  i can't believe you'd say that to me.  ❜ ❛  i thought you knew me, but your words make me question everything.  ❜ ❛  i'm trapped between two impossible choices, and neither one feels right.  ❜ ❛  no matter what i choose, someone i care about is going to get hurt.  ❜ ❛  once trust is broken, can it ever be truly repaired?  ❜ ❛  you don't get it! no one does ...  ❜ ❛  no matter what i do, it's never enough.  ❜ ❛  you said you'd always be there for me. where were you when i needed you the most?  ❜ ❛  why should i have hope when everything around me is falling apart?  ❜ ❛  i can't move forward. i keep reliving this moment over and over again, and i'm stuck.  ❜ ❛  i thought i was doing the right thing ... but i realize now that i was wrong.  ❜ ❛  was it all just a lie?  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who i am anymore. i've lost myself in trying to please everyone else.  ❜

#meme #mutuals only pls!

[littlebennettbitch]

tumblr, why are you showing me posts i was tagged in years ago in my activity?

#ooc #outofmagic #( yes i came online no i have not done any drafts i will hopefully be getting to them next week ) #( though i did also say that to myself the last time i was online oops )