narcissus-in-vain

[narcissus-in-vain]

Lonely (a poem)

Yeah this is the angsty shit

I recently found out that as a child I was excluded a lot from things that I never knew about before.

It kind of gave me a whole new outlook on my childhood and made me realise just how lonely I was (and still sometimes am) as a kid

also how horrible children can be but that's for a different poem

This might just be because I feel extra emotional but it made me want to write some shitty poetry and I thought I may as well share :>

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Lonely:

It’s the middle of a jungle,

humid and sticky

(all things a jungle should be)

but as I sit,

I realise not a single sound can be heard.

It’s being stranded on a desert island

watching a ship sailing by:-

on it,

there is no one quite willing to save me.

It’s the shame

of the empty bottle sitting on my desk

My hand holds the only glass.

It’s the glazed-over look of my peers when I speak

The interruptions in my senten-

Nevermind. It’s fine. I forgot it anyway.

(It’s a lie)

The slow…

realisation

There may be ears to hear me

But not one is turned my way.

#does this count as emo idk #period poem #not as in old as in menstruation #menstruation #poems on tumblr #poetry #original poem #lonely #slay

[narcissus-in-vain]

i hate how true this is it makes me upset

joining the marauders fandom is so chaotic like it always starts off with jily or wolfstar

you learn about jily and then slowly you get immersed to wolfstar until suddenly you’re obsessed

and then it’s just like no i’ll stay here this is good and then you get into the fics

and then you get exposed to dorlene and barry lus and rosekiller and marylily/pandalily and all the ships and then slowly slowly you become a diehard jegulus shipper until somehow you’re here, obsessing over a ton of dead fictional men yet more lesbian than ever

it’s called maturity ig

[narcissus-in-vain]

:( themmm

Wolfstar band au

They are boyfriends that’s canon

#wolfstar

[narcissus-in-vain]

Wear you helmets kids and happy pride !! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈

#ausgyfihujldks #remus x sirius

[narcissus-in-vain]

James, running late to class: Sorry, professor, I'm late. My alarm clock didn't go off.

Everyone in the classroom staring at him:

Professor Flitwick: Nice of you to join us, Mr. Potter.

James, walking to his seat next to Sirius:

Sirius, staring holes at the back of James' head:

Professor Flitwick, turning around to resume his lesson, but just before he adds: I'd advise you you don't mistake your uniform with someone else's next time you're running late.

James, clueless: What? *then, whispering to Sirius* What?

Sirius, shooting daggers at him: Prongs. Who's Slytherin tie is this?

James, blinking, and slowly looking down at the green tie he's wearing, before looking up sheepishly: Haha, you're not going to belive this—

[narcissus-in-vain]

consider, for pride month: a bi ron weasely

fuck jkr i say make everyone queer

(i mean, its not as though harry would notice it.)

it might barely be noticed by ron himself, as more of a tingling in the back of his mind in his first two years of hogwarts, something he doesn't need to think about, and he has far more important things to do, anyway.

ron in his third year, wondering vaguely why he and Hermione bicker so much, yet she still fixes her hair when she sees him, and he feels this swooping in his stomach whenever she calls him (with a faint twinge of fondness) ronald.

ron in his third year, alone in their dorm with seamus finnigan, and the subject turns to kissing, and someway somehow seamus finnigan is his first kiss. its not good by any stretch of the imagination, and both agree to never discuss it again. still, for months after it happens, ron can't help but look at his lips when he speaks.

ron in the summer, obsessed with krum, and when his family tease him for being such a big fan, he can't help but feel that they're right.

ron in a fight with harry, somehow both hating his best friend and shitting bricks for him and merlin he's glad hermione's still stuck by him. ron seeing all of krum's fangirls and knowing if things had been slightly different, he would've been one of them in a heartbeat.

ron looking at krum and hermione dance at the yule ball, and wondering why both of them are somehow the brightest in the room.

ron in the summer of his fourth year, and shit things are looking bad for the war, what with you-know-who being back and all, but he can't help but feel happy that he and hermione get a little alone time - and something definitely shifts.

ron being obsessed with kingsley's earring. and face.

ron being jealous of hermione still writing to krum, and yet wondering wether he could write to him too, call him victor just as she does.

ron in his sixth year, having not kissed anyone since seamus, and he's grown up now! he gives it a go with lavender, despite her never wanting to actually talk with him, always glancing over at parvati, as if she would care.

(ron feeling lonely for the first time in his hogwarts career)

and when he and lavender finally break up, he finds he's much happier with his friends, anyway.

besides, he's pretty sure he's found who he wants.

that doesn't stop him from ogling various seventh years, and being angry for all the wrong reasons that ginny's dating dean thomas.

(despite his complaining, he's more relieved than angry at ginny and harry's relationship. he would hate it if he and ginny had the same type in men.)

seventh year ron, and he's a man now, and he's deep in the war effort, and he's scared and he's tired, but he's not running again. he knows he's gone for hermione, he knows hermione will probably never forgive him, but that won't stop him from at least trying.

bi ron weasely, and yes he's in a straight passing relationship, but that doesn't stop him from watching trashy muggle tv shows with hermione and playing smash or pass with the hot guys.

bi ron weasely, and he makes sure his kids know its normal to feel like this.

bi ron weasley. cmon.

#let me push the gay agenda #bi agrenda #harry potter #ron weasly imagine #ron weasely #hermione granger #ron x hermione #ron x seamus #ron x krum #ron x lavender #bisexual #harry potter imagine #it's for pride i swear #not just for me #ronald weasely my beloved #hermione #i just love this idea #ron is not straight guys cmon have u watched the goblet of fire #i love him