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peacockrulz · 11 hours

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youre so right about narration!! i could go on all day really, its the biggest thing for me that takes a fic from good to great, especially with characters like j- characters with a persona of sorts, characters that lie to themselves or are in denial, or characters with a lot they need to sort through, and j is sort of all three in some capacity. i cannot wait for hostile takeover to update! if you ever decide to try writing a fic id love to give it a read! ive noticed you have a lot of interesting ideas about characters and their dynamics through your fanart, something i think could translate to writing well. you also clearly have an understanding of what makes a fic good- though i know from experience its often easier said than done. still, id love to see you try! this is actually my first time rp-ing canon characters, ever. right now im playing j (thanks hostile takeover) in a discord server, though i might try n soon because i reaaallly struggle with characterizing him. ive been roleplaying my whole life really! i started with roblox warrior cats though... im shuddering with you id kill for more dollxn art from you though. no pressure but you get them it seems. its been a while since i listened to final girl but its definitely their song suggestive lyrics or not i hope they die and go to robo-hell together <3 - juzi anon

*sigh* putting this under a readmore because HOO BOY did I maybe went full analyzer on this one. thanks for your time Juzi Anon <3

I've read alotta fics in my time on the internet and honestly? I don't think I've ever read a fic that hooked me on a character narration quite like Hostile Takeover's J. J's awareness of every part of what shes doing and how shes doing it makes it even more subtle when you realize that despite all of that, she has so little awareness over what she thinks. Like she doesn't question it. Uzi's narration makes a point to show how she censors her own thoughts, she doesn't allow her mind to wander to certain parts of the past, shes completely aware of how some thoughts sound and decides against saying it all together. Meanwhile, J will go on and on about how much better the job would be without V's constant talking back and N's inability to do anything right, and in the same paragraph be constantly thinking about the argument with V, and what got V so messed up to begin with. J is like a rock, a precipice of confidence. But the moments where she doesn't know what to do, (like when she thought she was going to die in that church tower from the rising sun) its almost like she has to put on appearances even in a moment where shes completely panic-ed, that she still somehow has to pretend she knows what shes doing, even with no one around. Its why the fic made me rethink J in general, I've loved J for while but Hostile Takeover was the first time I actually was able to SEE what J could be as a character story. It really puts into perspective how important narration can be in telling a damn good story. (Sorry this became a J paragraph. I could analyze fics for the rest of my life and be happy lol)

Haha maybe one day I'll finally sit down and write. I'm not really the greatest at translating my thoughts to text, for some reason its easier for me to illustrate my feelings about a character then to write it out. The only reason I can draw fanart like that is because I analyze these characters to death lol. Looking at all the angles of two characters and then asking the question of 'what would it take for them to be on friendly terms' is a pass time I indulge it frequently!!!! Thats why I like rarepairs, sometimes they're dynamics are alot more unique than most, even if they're 2 characters that have never once canonically interacted (which is my favorite. Alot more creative thinking with that one yknow?) Still, maybe I'll get to it :O (prolly would practice writing analysis post first. because I always have to stop myself from doing it on other posts XP)

I've also grew up on roleplaying (my brother is into roleplaying and that got me started on it lol) used to roleplay on roblox even before I could read (which. isn't a joke actually. who gives a 5 year old unrestricted internet access???) funnily enough I can't even say I ever completely grew out of it, I still visit alot of roleplay maps on roblox (including WCUE!! never actually roleplayed there but I think its fun to spec) but mainly I used to roleplay on animal-based mmos like FeralHeart in my younger days.

Iffff,,, I could say anything about N's character,,, to hopefully help inspire some ability to write him (and sorry this gets its own paragraph) I would probably say that he is a very self-destructively selfless person, whos never gotten over anything or anyone in his life (I.e when V was in stasis during their time in the manor, N constantly visited her and would draw pictures of the two of them together ((as lizards)) and is kinda implied to have been reading books to her during this time. Even after getting 'digitally lobotomized', while N couldn't exactly remember V as he knew her back then, he still carried that affection he had for her all that time ago. He never stopped caring about V, even when he forgot) while I wouldn't describe N as in anyway 'innocent' or 'naive', N still has a habit of unconditionally caring about pretty much anybody lol. He had like, what, a 27 minute conversation with Uzi? And while it wasn't enough to completely convince him, it still was something that made him hesitate ("I really enjoyed our time together,"). And while I'm here (having mentioned Uzi) I would also say N is a very lonely character, seeing as he was often belittled by his peers (J) or in some cases completely ignored (V, but she had her reasons and thats a different discussion) a funny part of N's character is just how much he IS like Uzi. A person completely isolated by his kind because of how he is, who was never given an explanation as to why, why everyone is so oddly cruel to him. The biggest difference though being that N never fought it, he completely accepted getting knocked around if it meant he could stick around. It took someone else to point out how fucked his situation was to make him think twice about it. Uzi is the type of character to go down kicking screaming and punching(asterisk but thats also a different discussion), and N, despite being in such a similar place to her, isn't that kind of guy. While I wouldn't say N is the type to take everything lying down, there is something to say about just how much he is willing to take before getting angry, yknow? Overall, I think N is a very loving, loyal-to-a-fault, kinda guy, but his compassion for those around him is often times the reason he gets so tunnel-visioned in the first place (i.e causing explosions and throwing rocks and debris everywhere in a mass, angry panic, trying to go save V.) and its why he is so willing to get himself hurt in the first place. ("I really enjoyed our time together, but I can't have you shooting V with that thing.") (Or yknow, cutting his arm off, but thats alot less selfless-ness and alot more self destruction) His patience and understanding is one of his biggest strengths and somehow always the reason he gets hurt. Basically I think he need to go a lil insane as a treat.

((Oh its also good to note that his unconditional love for everyone around him is also the only reason why he has lived this far to begin with (the characters this includes: V, Uzi, AND Cyn.)))

I also think the above, is the reason why I enjoy NxDoll so much. it takes SO MUCH for him to hate someone and yet Doll did the one thing that would make him do it (hurting someone he cares about the most). I just knoooowwww if they saw eachother in that church it would've been ON. That fight would've taken out the whole god damn BUILDING. it would be two people fighting for the exact same fkcing reason!!! REVENGE!!! the horrible chain of trauma contuines with them!!! killing one will only leave the other with what remains!!!! And yet I also see them as two people who would really benefit from being on friendlier terms. Both becasue N's softness is just not something we ever see Doll treated with, and because Doll's avocation for justice might just be the thing N needs to get a god damn backbone for once and earn himself some self-appreciation.

But I also think its more fun when its enemies AND lovers.

They should make eachother worse <3

#this one got really long. I just have alot to say about these characters #Despite not being a fan-fic writer I certainly can talk like I've been writing them for years!!#Oh and I forgot to mention: I have like a shit ton of different songs for different ships or characters in murder drones.#If you like Final Girl for NxDoll #you should also listen to You're So Creepy by Ghost Town!#Its also pretty good for the vibe(tm)#funnily enough I know I have atleast seen 1 doll fanart referencing the song. due to one of lines. lol #anyway I'll stop talking hahah.#oh and if you ever DO write those fics. please let me know!!!! I would love to read them when you get around to making em :O!!!!!#You've got about the same idea as I do as to what makes a fic good so I would love to see where you take it!!!#asks #anon #Juzi Anon #character analysis #<-- adding that because jesus christ that paragraph about N really goes to show how much I think about this series.

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peacockrulz · 2 days

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If you are still taking art requests, could you possibly do one of V x Thad? Its a ship I really like that isnt really that popular.

So what if you're a ghost of yourself?

You can haunt me.

[Requests are closed!]

#the caption is a reference to a post by notquiteaghost!!! I would link it but I don't want to go digging for it XP #they make me physically ill (positive)#I had to go full analysis mode on these two to figure out what i wanted to draw for this request and AUGH I love them!!!!!#the tender. soft. violence. as a flame is both dangerous and warm.#“I don't need you to be the antonym of violence. If I did I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't ask that of you”#vhad is about loving someone broken and loving them as they are!!!! not who they were before or who they could be but who they are now!!!#if i was a fic writer id be dangerous #anyway yeah these two got me into rarepairs. thanks for the request (sorry its completely self indulgent for me sdkjfsf)#murder drones #murder drones thad #serial designation v #vhad #killingblonde #<-- love that shipname it sounds like a horror movie lol #also if you want a real good vhad fic “They Came From Copper 9!” by doodlingNutjob is one of my faves #theres not alotta fics but yknow

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peacockrulz · 5 days

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dont say sorry we love the paragraphs!! tbh i cant stand a lot of md fanfics because of how they characterize uzi in particular, they just do not do her depth justice. and you're so right about the narration too. its so subtle but a lot of great fics go above and beyond to take narration from just describing the world to actually representing a characters perspective- literally and figuratively. hostile takeover is a masterclass in it tbh. its actually inspired me to try and get into writing for md because you need to be the content you want to see in the world ig- im starting with rp rn though because i find that to be the easiest way to get into a characters head, ya know? also your dollxn piece made me physically ill (positive). im shipping them now but exclusively in the way your fanart is framing it (also great song choice listening to it and staring at the art really sent me) - juzi anon

I think a good narration is like, an unspoken art when it comes to writing. I LOVE fics that make a point to have the characters thoughts be a part of the narration; It speaks volumes to how that person write the character themself and can even make for some really impactful dialog thats not even spoken. I think the biggest strength of Hostile Takeover (from the chapters I've read!) is its ability to make a character's narration show the subtle, unseen things about the characters themselves. (Which is why I love J's chapters so much, J puts up such a large persona that being able to read the thoughts she actually has is so!!! arugh!!!!!)

Also: I'm glad to see you taking an inspiration for writing, I've honestly thought many a time to force myself into writing fics just because theres so many ideas I have that I do not have the time or skill to illustrate lol. I actually started posting artwork because I wanted to see more fanart for my own rarepair!!! And I can understand the whole roleplaying thing (I haven't roleplayed canon characters since my.. *shudders* MMO days /j) I grew up on roleplaying and still do on occasion! (OCs I mean haha) I think its a great stepping stone to writing full blown chapters and stuff, all about practice or whatever!!

oh and: I'm glad you liked that piece lmao. N x Doll is one of those ships I thought about for 2 seconds and went "wait no I get it.". I've honestly thought about making more art of it just because its left such a impact on my skull. (ITs... the only enemies to lovers you could HAVE with N canonically w/o messing w/ his character and i am OBSESSED)

#oh and I wasn't expecting anyone to actually listen to the full sONG sdkljfklsdjfskdf #I appreciate you understanding the vision and I also maybe apologize for those lyrics being alot more suggestive then the art made it seem #its the only song I've got thats about like killing eachother freaky style tho so its the only correct vibe tune I've got skdjfklsdjf #I do NOT apologize for roping you into the NxDoll ship tho. I love those freaks!!!#also idk I'm glad you liked my portrayal of them #being told that is really cool to me jsdhfsdf so thnx ^^#asks #anon #juzi anon #also when i posted that art i took a week off due to burnout and now when I look at my tumblr for you page I see alot more nxdoll #did I miss something or.

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peacockrulz · 8 days

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oougghhh its so cool to see you posting art here again.. i remember seeing your jolly art for the first time months ago when i first got into md and absolutely LOVING it!!!! and the newer art you've made recently goes even harder!!! peak is back...

I have re-read this ask throughout the week and it still kills me /pos

I've had a tumblr for awhile but I'm really bad abt not cross posting lol (even now I'm kinda neglecting my twitter oops). I never left!!! Just tend to disappear from time to time again.

Having my art remembered tho makes me stupid emotional!!!! I've been thinking abt redrawing that Jolly art for july and this ask just reminds me why ;; so yeag thanks!!!

#also calling me peak made me lose it.#always thought of my art as kinda basic so reading this is jsut a weird reminder that yknow #people like my art!!!! fuck!!!!!!#yeah htnanks ^^#asks #anon #<-- glad to see ur still here btw sdkfj and sorry for the delay

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peacockrulz · 8 days

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tessa and j angst?

I loved my friend

She went away from me

There's nothing more to say

The poem ends,

Soft as it began-

I loved my friend.

[request are closed]

#the caption is “Poem” by Langston Hughes!!#SIIIGHHH #I could draw this a billion times and still feel like I can't illustrate this feeling #suppose thats the point of trying to draw grief but still #I could maybe write abt these two #but to illustrate them is surprisingly difficult #still. something about being doomed from the start something about having lost her twice somehow. yknow what im sayin.#murder drones #serial designation j #murder drones tessa #tessa james elliot #Don't have any songs for J so she gets poems lol.

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peacockrulz · 8 days

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Ok just wanted to drop an idea for a nuzi art. N but with roller skates while Uzi is on his back pointing at where he should skate to, he is holding her by her legs,they are just zooming past suprised Khan with angry heart Nori on his head.

(Alao what if N uses his wings to gain speed with the rollers?? 🤔)

he was a sk8r boi,,,,, (Bonus doodle under the cut)

[Requests are closed (while I catch up!)]

I have NO CLUE how to draw these wings KLSDJFSLKDJF

#HI I DEEPLY APOLOGIZE FOR THE DELAY #I got super fcking burnt out last weekend from family junk and had little free time x_x #so sorry this is alot simpler than the others i've been posting. Just need some time to get myself back in the groove of things :]#hope you understand ;;#murder drones #serial designation n #uzi doorman #khan doorman #nori doorman #biscuitbites #n x uzi #yknow the tags

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peacockrulz · 19 days

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juzi anon back at it. 1. you're so welcome everyone should read it 2. read your tags and i really agree! the author nails the characterization throughout, but uzi is a particular highlight. i didnt even like j before i read the fic. same goes for cyn! 3. the sketches are beautiful <3

Welcome back Juzi Anon!!!

I did like J before reading, its just I don't guess it ever occurred to me what actually made her..J if that makes sense??? Like I guess it never occurred to me all the little things about J having a reason y'know?? I also just love how her narration reads in general (Like Uzi refusing to narrate things even through strike throughs but J just. saying it sdkjskdf) I really enjoy J still being incredibly mean and corporate and even cruel to her teammates but the narration making a point to show she still often thinks about and even worries about V and N and that just makes me!!!! aughdskfjsdf!!!!!! (also being completely fine with her own disassembly by the company?? like ooo girl thats smth else)

The!! Thing!!! About!!! Uzi!!! is I always see people write her as though she hates people and everything and the truth is that its a front!!! She is the most violent diplomatic person in the show!!! She gets frustrated and is a bit mean but she always always tries talking to people before fighting them and this fic is the first I've read that points it out!!! how she juggles the idea of leaving or actually trying to talk to J like!!! thats Uzi!!! Curious and Diplomatic!!! (I have yet to get the parts w/ Cyn but I'm excited to see her!!!)

anyway sorry for the paragraphs Juzi Anon, I love character analysis but have a hard time writing it down sdkjskdfj I'm glad you liked the sketches <3

#Every one of my followers seeing the real me rn #the guy who can't shut up abt characters and writing but has a terrible time writing it down kdsjfdsf #still tho I appreciate you Juzi Anon #If i could I would just talk analysis and fanfic all day but ALAS #asks #anon #Juzi Anon #<-- thats your tag!!

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peacockrulz · 19 days

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doll x n maybe? their dynamic is sort of fun

Its life or death, you're in my world

and its life or death to be my girl

[requests are still open!]

#you get extra points for naming the one fucking rare pair that would get me to spend ALL NIGHT ON THIS /pos #I have OTHER REQUESTS ANON!!#no but serious thanks for the request sdkfjsdkfj #The song is Final Girl (feat. Slayyter) btw #its a bit explicit(?) but its a bit of the vibe for this piece lol not really character fitting just for the vibe #also I'm sorry if you wanted something like. actually ship-related #I would've done an extra doodle but I literally spent all night on this. iits 6am again #anyway thanks!! :3 #Murder drones #serial designation n #murder drones Doll #N x Doll #noll #< i like that shipname actually. sounds like 'null'

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peacockrulz · 19 days

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aIKJSDFKLSDJFLDKG????? This is really sweet to wake up to!!!! I'm glad you like it ;;

Like no joke you're probably the first person I've seen actually write Uzi as diplomatic and curious!!! The fact theres so much emphasis on the cruelty she faces in school yet she still cares about people is something I don't see a lot in other fics so thank you for that sdkfjskdf

okokok I'll stop gushing abt ur own fic just thank you for the comment and thank you for the fic (I will read more when I have the time)

juzi for the juzi nation maybe? just read hostile takeover by snugglesquiggle and it gave me fatal juzi disease