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i’m slowly poisoned

and the voice of the wind

reminds me of haunted dreams

my soul is healing

when all the stars reflect my memories

#jojo fanart #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojo's bizarre adventure #jojo part 5 #golden wind #purple haze feedback #phf #pannacotta fugo #jjba fugo #fugo pannacotta #massimo volpe

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little creek comic!!

I really really need a new sp season,,

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This is the standard winged nightjar and it has one singular stupidly big feather on each wing... if you even care.

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Embrace the cringe.

Write weird fanfic.

Read weird fanfic.

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IT IS EXACTLY WHAT I'M THINKING!!! This differences applies by itself even without some thoughts naturally every. time. I love that

*head sizes 🙏

noah n codys design just like, complete eachother, yk? Cody: Round face, short nose, light eyes. Noah: Angular face (or less gently, A BLOCK), long nose, n dark eyes. the color palettes r also complimentary but u get the idea

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#total drama #td cody #td noah #noco #total drama noco #td noco #noco total drama #noco tdi

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Cody "I thought gay people called eachother some shit like hotcock" Anderson

day 35: why would you say that

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2023 recap!!!

jan: forgot

feb: forgot

march: forgot

april: forgot

may: forgot

june: forgot

july: forgot

aug: forgot

sep: forgot

oct: forgot

nov: forgot

dec: forgot

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boys in pajamas. no context 😈

#total drama #total drama fanart #total drama action #total drama island #total drama world tour #noco #art #my art #i love them

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they are monologuing

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one of the more valuable things I’ve learned in life as a survivor of a mentally unstable parent is that it is likely that no one has thought through it as much as you have. 

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

The best thing I ever did for myself and my relationships was insist upon frank communication and a categorical denial of subtext. For some people this is a moral stance. For survivors of mentally unstable parents this is a requirement of recovery. 

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pics for post with commissions (2/2)

#death note fanart #death note l lawliet #lawliet #l lawliet #death note #ryuzaki #death note ryuzaki #L #death note l

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my pics from a post with commissions info (1/2)

#death note matsuda #death note fanart #death note #dn #dn matsuda #touta matsuda

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i've found a new antistress for my life

#afk lorsan #afk arena #afk arena fanart #digital illustration #digital painting #lorsan

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#death note matsuda #death note #touta matsuda