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part ii of fic recs. please read the warnings carefully before reading each fic. some of these might contain mature themes and/or smut.
MULTIPLE MEMBERS:
bet | smau, hyung line, completed
after jake takes a new liking to his friendโs diligent liberal arts partner, he decides to start a bet with his friends. โlets play a game. whoever can win her heart gets anything, anything they want.โ
by @seungstarss
(y'all i'm warning you this series ends in absolute heartbreak so read it only if you know you won't end up crying. for masochists like me, on the other hand, drop everything, read this first)
engene week | dialogue fic, ot7, completed
one lucky ENGENE is going to spend a week with enhypen
by @thatonenoona
(sunghoon's part is suggestive)
no nut november | smau, hyung line, completed. mature
four men suppressing their carnal instincts for thirty days doesnโt sound plausible, but itโs no nut november, so victory is crucial. yet, thereโsย only one obstacle keeping lee heeseung, park jongseong, sim jaeyun, and park sunghoon from their prize: you.ย game on, boys.
by @jayflrt
HEESEUNG:
the misfortunes and misconceptions of lee heeseung | oneshot, hogwarts au
by no means does lee heeseung hold any romantic feelings toward you. the mere possibility is jarring, considering his luck seems to take a turn for the worst whenever heโs around you. from getting hit with a bludger during quidditch to getting into trouble with filch for setting off dungbombs in his office, heeseung starts to think youโre some sort of bad omen. heโs prepared for disaster when you two become partners in potions, but why does the amortentia smell like you?
by @jayflrt
your lips, my lips, apocalypse | drabble
sex, love, and romance tasted like poison on your tongue, a secret that you held close to yourself for years. unfortunately, when heeseung kisses you, he, too, could taste that poison.
by @star-sim
(vanya slay)
hopeless | oneshot
absolutely no one would have expected the dark, brooding, and rough heeseung lee to be hopelessly head over heels in love with the sweet, oblivious you. especially you. even with the help of practically the entire year, it's almost pathetic the way heeseung struggles to utter three, simple words to you, let alone look you in the eye.
by @star-sim
(another vanya slay)
je t'aime | drabble
โah, pretty, why are you blushing this hard? all i did was say โi love youโ in french.โย
by @lheebra
i spi-der loml | oneshot, spiderman au
you love lee heeseung with all that you have,ย but somehow, he doesn't find that as a good thing.ย despite feeling the same way, to protect you,ย heeseung wishes you didn't love him at all.
by @wvnkoi
you, me and the moon | smau, completed
lee heeseung is a famous frat boy who is known to be mysterious since he would always stay at the corner to observe people passing by but he does not like the fact that his eyes would linger a little longer on you than he likes to admit because who the fuck is he kidding? you're way too good for him.
by @heeracha
JAY:
undercover lover | two-shot, detective au, mature
part 1 | part 2
you've been forced to work with your work rival, park jongseong, on a case that could bust one of the biggest dealer in seoul, but things don't go according to plan.
by @ja3yun
(y'all i'm back with the e2l!! atp enha-ism should be associated with e2l with how obsessed i am over this trope)
21st century girl | smau, completed
where jay 'claimsโ he has a girlfriend but none of his friends believe him because how are you a girl in the 21st century and don't have any social media, right? and if you and jay continue to let them think your relationship is fake for entertainment purposes, nobody has to know.
by @hoonvrs
it was just a bet | oneshot
discovering the truth that your one-year relationship with jay was nothing but a bet, you take matters into your own hands and decide to seek revenge.
by @juliesblogs
JAKE:
hello kitty meets batman | oneshot
jake sim was youtube's cut-throat, horror creator, known for his dark video style. meanwhile, you were the cutesy beauty vlogger, lighting up every algorithmically generated home page you touched. no one would have expected you two vastly different people to know each other, let alone be in a long-term relationship.
by @star-sim
(vanya triple slay)
my love (mine all mine) | drabble
after years of abuse, jake is afraid of love, so why do you have to be so warm?
by @star-sim
(atp it's slay 3000)
into the spider-verse | headcannons, spiderman au
where you are JAKE SIM's MJ
by @wonryllis
kissing your bestfriend | oneshot
If kissing your best friend while youโre smoking is illegal, then sue you for just doing that. Or even better, go to jail for that crime alone.ย
by @sadnightforus
SUNGHOON:
maneater | smau, ongoing
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐. ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐/๐โฆ ๐๐๐๐๐?
by @w0nslvr
(*laughs evilly* i bring you, e2l. again. nine chapter up so far)
every fragile thing | oneshot
After an ankle injury lands you in weekly physical therapy sessions instead of on the ice where you should be training for regionals, youโre certain you must be the most emotionally volatile figure skater within a hundred mile radius. Park Sunghoon proves you wrong.
or,
every fragile thing has one of two choices: become stronger or shatter into a million pieces.
by @stllmnstr
(e2l :P)
seasons | oneshot
park sunghoon, the notorious playboy who just so happens to be your brotherโs best friend, was off limits. heeseung had made it clear to you during your freshman year of high school, and the rule still hasnโt changed even when entering your senior year. but what lee heeseung doesnโt know wonโt hurt him right?
by @leaderwonim
i'll love you forever | oneshot, mature
you were sunghoon's first everything; first friend, first love, and first heartbreak. after years of quietly crushing on you, he was finally ready to confess. so ready to confess, that he told his parents the two of you were already dating! it was an easy enough lie to keep up and he kept it up for months, what could possibly go wrong? he thought. little did he know, you would have a falling out and stop talking for months.. and then, you'd both get invited to spend a week at home with his parents, who still believe you're his girlfriend.
by @zreamy
poker face | oneshot
wiping a bit of frosting (or smth else) off of their cheek while eating and taking it for themself
by @wonryllis
SUNOO:
love error | smau, completed
known as the owner of running a popular confession account, sunoo has gotten plenty of people together. monthly, love news holds an event where anonymous people gets a chance to confess. of course, sunoo is just doing his job โ starting relationships. but what he didnโt expect was someone dming him on twitter asking if he was the one behind a confession โฆ who knew a small error can cause him to think about his love life for once?
by @hanniluvi
(sunoo sunoo sunoo sunoo my love i'm so sorry </3)
JUNGWON:
smart, sexy, lacy, iโm losing it lately | drabble
jungwon has always hated you, right from the start. you were too nice, too smart for your own good, and latelyโyouโve been starting to get too pretty for yang jungwon to handle.
by @leaderwonim
(one sided e2l? hmm...and super cute)
he loves me, he loves me not | smau, completed
๐/๐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐๐, ๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐โฆ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐.
by @w0nslvr
(i'm only too proud to say it's e2l again)
you've got to be kitten me! | oneshot
jungwon yang, the stuck-up class president, had a secret: at night, he transformed into a cat. when you, the class's residential troublemaker (and one of the people that jungwon simply couldn't bring himself to understand), accidentally discovered his secret, jungwon found himself questioning his role in the school hierarchy.
by @star-sim
(my lil prodigy vanya strikes again)
all clear! | smau, completed
for as long as youโve been on jyp universityโs badminton team, your teamโs main rivals have been hybe university. the rivalry goes way back, and as the team captain, youโre well aware of your teamโs disdain towards the hybe team - but it just so happens that youโre secretly dating hybeโs team captain, yang jungwon. and since tournament season is coming up soon, the rivalry between hybe and jyp is stronger than ever, and you and jungwon both know that if the secret got out, conflicts would arise. youโve heard of enemies pretending to be lovers, but have you heard of lovers pretending to be enemies?ย
by @amakumos
(finally i found this one. one of the fics i've reread for at least 4 times <3)
dress-coded | smau, completed
Dress codes are dumb. And everyone in school agrees. So why is the dear student council president Yang Jungwon so insistent on upholding such a stupid rule? And why is Y/n so insistent on changing his mind?
OR
Y/n finds a new way to break the dress code each day, purely to spite the student council president and make him change the stupid rule. But what started as a simple act of rebellion soon takes a turn as more is found out about the goody-two-shoes president.ย
by @pandenewie
(mild e2l XD. is2g jw and e2l are gonna be the reason i die someday)
recall | smau, completed
after spending months suffering from amnesia in the hospital due to an โaccident,โ you return back to your normal school life where your close friends who you remember stick by your side 24/7. Unexpectedly, you cross paths with ex-student council president yang jungwon, who you failed to remember but feel oddly drawn to. however, after the meeting things start to get odd and you slowly begin piecing together the mystery behind your accident.
by @seungstarss
(another series that left my heart in pieces. this is by the same author as "bet". again, y'all are gonna end up crying so proceed with caution)
the language of flowers | smau, completed
jungwonโs just every bit in love with the student council president who keeps visiting his flowershop
OR
in which you find solace in a flowershop, and its ownerโs grandson finds solace in you.
by @soobnny
(the cutest fricking fic i've ever read of jungwon)
seven minutes in h(eaven)ell | drabble
what do you do with a popular guy in a closed space? Well, absolutely ignore all his flirting signals with your nonsense because we stan self sabotage in this household.
by @woncine
(this was super cute too!!)
if we're both single | smau, completed
y/n and jungwon became friends after sending each other tiktoks and shared random messages and photos of their lives. their relationship became deeper as time passed by and one day, jungwon sent her a tiktok joking that if theyโre both still single before new yearโs, they should date each other. what happens after that? theyโll have to find out together. only if theyโre both still single.
by @winwonies
NIKI:
u+me | threeshot smau
situationship with niki
by @isawritesss
baby troubles | smau, ongoing
it's the start of a new year at university. You're a mom of two lovely toddlers, but you seem to be having problems with your relationship. Riki Nishimura one of your classmates seem to take interest in you based on your looks.
by @enhypensccstarlight
(unable to tag :(( )
candy | drabble
honestly, today's the day, iโm gonna break up with you, iโm going to go see you, hope you'll understand
by @serafilms
(fell in love with niki again with this piece)
i hate (love) you | fourshot smau
nishimura riki despised love, so why the hell was his heart beating so fast around you?
by @leaderwonim
noona | oneshot
jiwoo and niki were in a relationship. niki had a tendency of doing as he felt, which in this case meant bringing home a kitten, to jiwoo's apartment since jay and jungwon are very allergic.
by @smileydk
1 4 3 pointer | oneshot
after forcing yourself to stop playing basketball due to peer pressure, you meet nishimura riki โ who reminds you of past you ; and you hate it. you hate him. So why do you find yourself wanting to help him when heโs going through tough times?
by @jennaissantes
heart to heart | smau, completed
NISHIMURA RIKI never would have thought that being a demon meant heโd be summoned by you on a late tuesday evening begging him to make your p.e teacher disappear for a day just because you didnโt want to run during class the next day
by @kkurades
night secrets | drabble
in which the two of you reveal your deepest secrets to the other in the middle of the night
by @yenqa
nda: not dating actually | mini-series, completed
Niki doesnโt โdoโ dating - itโs something his friends find great joy in teasing him about.ย Growing tired of their jokes, he finally tells them all about his magical summer fling. Small problem - itโs all a lie.
OR
Being approached by an acquaintance and asked to be in a fake relationship is not how Y/n expected their day to go... but what's the harm in helping out a friend of a friend?
by @pandenewie
two sides to a boy | oneshot, spiderman au
Spider-Man is the local legend in your city and the one identity that no one can seem to figure out. but one day you and your friend Jungwon decide to do a film documentary about finding out the identity of Spider-Man, If only you had known earlier that it was your high school crush, Nishimura Riki.
by @rikiluvly
(unable to tag)
oh niki, you're so fine | smau, completed
Lesson learned ! never ever accept a dare from Heesung! Dared to tweet about how attractive your best friend was, you miss-typed โmโ with โnโ who apparently turned out to be the name of some guy in the basketball team? Oh how embarrassing!
by @aernx
AUTHORS:
(they have so many works that are so good, and since i can't tag every single work here (there seems to be a limit to the number of links i can add TT), i'm naming the authors themselves)
angel1kisses
rowretro
minhosimthings
thatonenoona
im-yn-suckers
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LEA'S NOTE: the amount of wonki fics in here is embarrassing (i'm a girl in love) and the lack of sunoo fics is horrifying (my baby sunoo TT). someone recommend me sunoo fics if you can 'cuz my algorithm seems to hide every sunoo fic from me...
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hi everybody, I'll be going on my hiatus due to some personal issues. I'll continue to work on my works behind the scene until I fully return. in the meantime, I'll be partially slow with my smau updates too. take care everybody <3
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[10:59 AM] โHeyโฆ HEY!โ Riki whispers to you while you both are listening to your teacher who is busy explaining and breaking down about worldโs history.ย
ย According to your seating position, youโre sitting in front of him, though, youโre sitting on the right side of the school twin desk and he sits at the left, not vertically aligned to each other. It has never been a problem for the both of you, as the seats arenโt far away.ย
ย The fact he cares to disturb you during class is both annoying and questionable, as he rarely does, unless itโs an important business.ย
ย It startles you out of your trance, as you snap your head to look back at the guy who is now staring at you.ย
โWhat?โ You ask, a bit irritated that youโre pulled away from the board. Your fingers stop working to write more notes, but try to keep your ears alert, invade when your teacher mentions any relevant information that might be on the exam.ย
โYou dropped your pen.โ He answers, maintaining eye contact despite the forbidden rule to not talk during class.ย
ย You look up, observing your desk, realizing that your pen is indeed long forgotten as it mustโve fallen off some time ago when you were trying to take notes during the lessons. You donโt say anything, but instead place your pencil on the top, lowering your body a bit as your right arm works itself to retrieve the school item back to where it belongs.ย
ย However, a piece of folded paper catches your attention as you donโt remember that any of your classmates litter or there are trash as all of you have mandatory cleaning duties as a group.ย
ย Curious, you pick it up and place it onto your table, unfolding it to see the note was written in a messy handwriting, the writing style that belongs to none other than your friend, Riki.ย
โTo the cutie whose student number is 9, will you be forever mine and my valentine? - N.R (student number 14)โย
ย Your student number in this class is 9. His student number is 14.ย
ย You feel like your world spins, but in an agonizing slow manner, the one that is sick and both ecstatic from the realization.ย
ย You recall back to every moment that you both share; a lot of occasions where youโve gotten too close to him and subtly held his hand under the excuse of your hands being cold, but never once did both of you want to let go of the fingers lacing motion.ย
ย Or wore his jacket because you didnโt bring yours and it happened to be chilly (you shamefully admit that you just wanted his scent to linger on you).ย
ย ย Or when he bent down to tie your shoes because he noticed youโd trip with your shoelaces not being properly kept in place.ย
ย Or when he gently wiped your mouth because you have ice creams on the corner of your mouth as you both skipped school that one time.ย
ย You smile to yourself as you remember and get mushy as you now know that your love wasnโt always one sided.ย
ย Giddily, you begin to write your response under his words. And when youโre done with it, you hand Riki the now shared response note as you notice that his eyes were trained on you the entire time.ย
ย And as he opens the note to see the response โTo the boy whose student number is 14, yes Iโll be yours. And I hope to spend every Valentine with you. - Y/N (student number 9)โ, you giggle as you see that he canโt help but his face dusts in every shade of red, eyes now glistening with sparkles as he has received the best news of his life.ย
COPYRIGHTED BY SADNIGHTFORUS, 2024
A/N: if you ask me, pure insanity
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SACRED PLACEย (SES)ย
boyfriend!eunseok x gn!readerย
SYNOPSIS: The sun is setting and you know itโs childish that you want to keep holding onto this moment for forever, because you know his heart will never be yours.ย
WORD COUNT: 2.2Kย
WARNINGS: unreliable narrator first of all (for clarification), emotional lololol but which sadnightforusโ work isnโt, occasional pet names, insecurities and so much confusion. I promised eunseok loves reader but they are wrapped up in their head okay. inferiority complex is strong, do not yell at me.ย
A/N: I wrote this one in the morning cause Iโm cranky and i like miss carly rae jepsen. slightly inspired by bends by her. this is not self-indulgent fun fact, her music just got me acting up thatโs allย
reblogs, comments and likes are appreciated!ย
5:39 PM.ย
ย The sun begins to set, as you can see from the corner of your eyes. If you turn around, youโll be met with a breathtaking view of the sky sinking and reflecting its light onto the ocean water.ย
ย But you donโt want to.ย
ย You donโt deserve to see it. Pretty things like that will disappear and theyโll never stay.ย
ย You and your boyfriend are laying on your back on the beach, legs tangling with one another as you often look to your right and sometimes the left, yet, never the front.ย
โBaby?โย
ย His gentle voice calls out to you, reminding you that heโs still here.ย
โYeah? I zoned out, Iโm sorry.โ You rush to apologize as you quickly retrieve your attention back to the man near you.ย
โItโs okay. What are you thinking about, hmm?โ He asks, his fingers now making their ways into your hair as you let your thoughts roaming wild, eyes shooting up to the orange hue of the once blue sky that will be soon decorated by the warm embrace of the darkness in just a few more hours.ย
โNot anything that interesting that interesting.โ You give him a small smile, reassuring him that he shouldnโt be worried about your long train of thoughts that seem to be involved in the picture of him and you. โJust think about how pretty you are.โย
ย And you never lie about this matter.
ย Heโs extraordinary, youโre nothing special in comparison. He has always been showered in compliments for his out of world, sharp yet such a masculine look, and he knows it too. Youโre just a person who exists and youโre not sure whatโs the purpose behind why you exist. You personally think only people who have star power like Eunseok should be the one to stay on this earth, to show how beautiful life can be.ย
ย Youโve seen his exes, they are all beautiful. You canโt compare because why would you compare goddesses to a person that never radiates a sense of mystery or intrigued othersโ interests? Youโd think theyโll be so embarrassed to be compared to someone like you.
ย Even if he tells you that youโre the prettiest person on the planet, you donโt believe him. How could you when youโre a plain jane, while he is the most beautiful boy youโve ever met anyway?
โFunny, I think about how pretty you are too.โ He chuckles, his eyes has a bright sparkle that you only wish to be able to witness this close. You hope you donโt lose this privilege any time soon.
โUmm hmm.โ You hum, pretending to agree with his statement. โBut youโre like the beach waves that are steadily rolling. Youโre just so comforting.โ
ย My beach boy, my comfort boy, something you wanted to say but hold yourself back from doing so.
ย Heโs just one of a kind.ย
ย Every time youโre sad, you often go to the beach. Itโs something youโve been doing since you were a kid. Youโre still an adult and you feel a bit childish that youโd still go to stare at the ocean waves rolling, but right now, it does nothing more than being a poison to your mental health ever since you let a pretty boy with strong features of the name Song Eunseok invades the space of your loneliness. And you begin to associate him to every little thing that you used to like.ย
ย Just like right now, youโre thinking that he is truly reminiscent of the fresh air that washes over the both of you, with the heart in the sand that you used to draw for him whenever you both get here.ย
ย He has your heart, but does he know that? Does he care that youโll be willing to do anything for him?ย
ย Probably not. Youโre happy to keep that thought hidden from him.ย
โDonโt think so.โ He chuckles. โYou know what I think of when I see you? I think of you as the sunset that people will never get tired of seeing.โย
ย Youโre gloomy, how could he sees you as the sun of his life? Or in his eyes for that matters, even worthy of his attention?
ย You canโt comprehend it.ย
ย Heโs so much better than you in every aspect. You think that he shouldโve been with someone who is on the same level as him, not someone who has nothing like you.ย
ย You never know what love is, until you meet him. In school, there was no one who had ever shown their interest in you, but you supposed that itโs better than to be heartbroken at the realization that the love someone gave to you was merely because of a bet.ย
ย You always kept your head down, afraid to meet peopleโs eyes. Youโre timid, meek and shy because you never feel like you fit in. Even the people in your family, theyโre all charismatic and charming, except for you who is not at all an interesting character to think about when they ask about your family.ย
ย You think you're a pretty forgettable person to others.ย
โThatโs you.โ Your eyes lock onto his face, observing how a person can be this beautiful. God indeed has favorites, and your boyfriend is one of them. โYouโre the most beautiful person Iโve seen. Youโre as beautiful as the sun that shines during winter, to keep someone warm.โย
ย Itโs true, youโve always felt like the walking embodiment of overwhelming loneliness since birth. And Eunseok is your sun who provides warmth into this stoic, cold life of yours.ย
ย For the first time, you are able to see the world in more than just two colors that youโre so used to being familiar with, black and white. You see a variety of colors in its glory with his love, but youโre not sure if his love is out of obligation or not.ย
ย You begin to love yellow, aside from chronomatic colors that have been your favorite colors growing up. Itโs because it reminds you of Eunseok. He is nothing but sunshine, the brightest star that shines amongst the crowd of people like you.ย
ย You remember that you didnโt particularly like yellow as much when you were younger. You didnโt feel like it suits youโ it belongs to happy people, special people like Eunseok. You wonder, how could someone born and carry something special since birth already? Was it made or was it a practice to enhance the exquisite god given gift?ย
ย You sometimes resent god for making you a boring person with no drive and easily moldable into whatever they want you to be, instead of being distinctive.ย
ย You want to be special, heck even feel special, just for a minute like him too.ย
ย What does that feel like?ย
ย It probably feels nice, being loved for simply who you are.ย
โI know you said Iโm like the beach waves, but personally, youโre like the ocean. Youโre unpredictable, but very calm, beautiful and breathtaking.โ He maintains eye contact with you. โYou really remind me of the color blue. You have a kind of depth to you that people would love to write about.โย
ย What is he talking about?ย
ย Oh right, you remind him of the color blue?ย
ย You know about the association of the color blue and melancholia. You know it means sadness.ย
ย Is that how he perceives you?ย
ย Truthfully, you think that people arenโt blind to the fact you look down all the time. You radiate off the 'damsel in distressโ vibe and youโve been told to brighten up more. You even had people approaching you and willing to listen to your stories because you just looked so troubled and you might need a hand or a shoulder to cry on in case you had no one.ย
ย You think these kinds of things only happen to pathetic people like you. You personally donโt know someone who is alike to you at all.ย
ย You have so much to say, but in the end, itโll all boil down to you being lonely and miserable.ย
ย You always feel so blue, can he feel it too?ย
ย Why canโt you be happy?ย
โYou always say these things.โ You try to avoid saying that you donโt believe it, because itโll show that you donโt believe in yourself as much as he always told you that he has always been so amazed by him. โI see myself as a dessert.โย
โWhatever you say, cutie.โ He shakes his head. โBut in my opinion, if youโre a dessert, then Iโd rather die of dehydration just to be close to you.โ
ย You know that itโs supposed to be a compliment, but you donโt feel like it. No matter how much he tries to flatter you, you don;t ever feel like those compliments ever get through your head and soak into your brain.
ย Youโre not enough.
ย And you know that heโs too good for you.ย
ย You believe that youโre truly a dessert, thereโs nothing that excites people about you. Youโre just someone who is meant to be in the background, not someone in front of the camera, not someone who attracts attention from the others. If people stay around you long enough, theyโll get a thirst to seek for someone who can fulfill their excitement in being adventurous and interesting as well as striking, something you lack.
ย And if youโre the ocean, youโd kill people with the tsunami of your overwhelming blue-esque. Nobody should put up with you, but he does. You donโt understand why he stays around with the way youโre like an unpredictable ocean wave that could make others fear for their life.
โBaby?โ He mutters out softly, seeing you losing yourself in your train of thoughts. โLetโs get up. Itโs getting dark. I want to walk around this beach with you.โ
ย You donโt notice that the sun has been long gone and has been replaced by the moon now, but you supposed that youโve always been quite a daydreamer. Youโre flustered however, as you sit up, using the support from one of your arms before you can stand up, then you dust all the sand that attaches itself onto your clothes.
โLetโs go.โ He smiles at you, and for a moment, your sadness vanishes like the air that brushes itself all the way from thousands of miles away to softly blow his hair, making him look almost so dream-like.
ย You think youโre so special that youโre the only person whose person he directs this smile at. And youโre the cause of his happiness just as much as he is with yours.
ย He takes a slow step, you follow along. He takes your hand in his, then grip it tightly, like a sweet cotton that is inseparable that never wants to let go.
ย You see some shops start lightening up their place, as youโre visiting a tourist attraction. However, you canโt help but feel like itโs just the ghost of Eunseok who talks to you. And you might be seen as crazy for holding onto an imaginary man.
ย Then youโre back to being sad again.
ย Because no matter how real he is, you feel like youโre holding onto a version of a man that doesnโt exist at all, or a version of a person who you mightโve made up in your head.
ย What if he doesn't love you as much as you do with him?ย
ย Itโs funny that youโre probably in an unrequited love in this relationship, maybe.
ย You know about the kind of love that people all shared throughout their lives. However, you canโt be too sure about the feelings that he has been upholding for you.
โI love you.โ His eyes land directly into yours, gazing deep into your soul, as if he tries to read you.
ย You suddenly feel terrible for your earlier thoughts and equally as self conscious.
ย And you almost wanted to cry.
โI love you too.โ You say, eyes almost brimming with tears and it takes you a crazy level of self amount to not break down in front of him.
ย And you mean it. You mean every single word that you respond back to him.ย
ย This beach is your sacred place. You introduce him to this place because you make a room for a boy named Song Eunseok in your heart, a place that is just as sacred as this place youโre standing at. Itโs very vulnerable and youโd hate it if he walks out with your heart in his hand, squeezing it until it explodes and bleeds uncontrollable and the memories of the beach waves rolling as you both walk by the shore, admiring the view under this moonlight.ย
ย This love itself is very sacred too, and you hope that heโll continue to love you for a long time as much as you love him.ย
ย Because you know that thereโs no other room for any man who comes after him anymore.
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NICOTINE LOVEย (JCM)ย
innocent-turn-corrupted!changmin x heartbreaker gn!reader
SYNOPSIS: Ji Changmin was an innocent boy who had the luck of meeting you, a heartbreaker, in one of the parties that your friends threw. You think youโve successfully corrupted him, with the way you got him smoking in the backseat of your car, while confessing both of your heartsโ out, high on that nicotine love that you both shared.ย
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WARNINGS: cuss words, smoking. commitment issues. mentioned of s*x, they made out before (donโt get jumpscare). this was originally a time stamp but itโs not now so enjoy it I guess.ย
A/N: black angel by bloo is what made this whole au. thank you.ย
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Youโre smoking with a certain someone that shall not be named right now (or you refuse to tell on yourself).ย
ย But it wouldnโt hurt to admit that the man in question is Ji Changmin at all.ย
ย As you quietly watch him exhale the smoke from the nicotine stick from the other side of the car, you think back of how you both first met.ย
ย You remembered that you met him at a party that one of your good friends hosted and you can exactly count that it was just 2 weeks and 3 days after your semester started. Like a fucked up miracle in disguise, you noticed a meek boy who stood at the corner of the event, watching people anxiously as he looked like he had no idea what to do in situations like this. So you approached him, despite not knowing who he was.ย
ย Ever since, he has become someone who relies on you in every way possible. Much less, regarding yourself with the title of โmentorโ too, as he had claimed so.ย
ย Honestly, you find yourself liking the title but youโre aware that youโre not the greatest influence he could base himself after.ย
ย He was quite naรฏve, calm and inexperienced in the world of wild and chaos that he found himself in. You were his navigator to explore the depth of it.ย
ย Truthfully, you think heโs a cute, innocent guy who has the worst luck to be stuck with a devil of a heartbreaker like you. And it also wouldnโt hurt to admit that you both had made out quite a few times in all of the times youโve known each other since you first laid eyes on him.ย
ย And honestly, you like him a lot. Youโre just scared. Scared of not being someone perfect for him.ย
โYou look like a cigarettes after sexโs song.โ He comments, thinking how beautiful you look right now with cigarette tucking in between your fingers and the way you zone out.ย
ย And itโs the truth. You look like someone who is straight out of a dream. Someone a rock band would write a song about. Thereโs just an air of command to your presence that he or any other person canโt help but have to turn their head to your direction.ย
โHmm?โ You take a moment to process what he said and inevitably, a rush of heat creeps up on your cheeks once you do. You donโt know why your confidence has suddenly disappeared when you were fine just a moment ago.ย
โYouโre so fucking cute when youโre shy.โ He chuckles and you canโt say that youโre taken aback by the fact that he cusses, but youโre just so surprised by the fact that he is bold, even more with the way he wants to make moves on you.ย
ย What is he up to?ย
ย You almost want to show how insane you go from these comments along but you keep your composure.ย
โHey Ji Changmin! Who taught you these things?โ You slap on his bicep playfully with the free hand you have.ย
โItโs you, mโlady.โ And he winks, sending more flirtatious gestures, as youโre continuously getting affected by his actions.ย
ย You can only roll your eyes as your response to show that youโre not phased by what he did at all, even though your heart is beating fast and you can feel yourself breaking out in cold sweats despite the air conditioner in your car that prevents both of you from overheating. And with window roll down too, you think that youโre gonna repent for your sin later on in days when your car reeks of absolute lung cancer sickness.ย
โIโm not joking.โ He mumbles, frustrated that you always think that heโs so nice and just being a good friend when he does compliment you. The comment was intended mostly to himself but you hear it.ย
ย Okay, maybe fighting off those romantic advances werenโt the smartest thing youโve ever did.ย
โYou said youโre not joking? Hmm?โ You lean closer to him, closing the gap that was once in existence as each of you were previously at both sides of the backseat earlier. You intend to make him crumble and make him open his heart tonight.
ย Because you donโt want to be the only one who feels like this.ย
โY-yeah.โ He stutters and he almost cussed at himself for doing so. โActuallyโฆโ he puffs one out before continuing โGod fuck it. Okay, I'm sick of hiding my feelings. Iโve always liked you since you first noticed me at the party.โย
ย Your heart skips a beat by that confession. So all of this time, you werenโt delusional to think that he might be into you too.ย
โYouโre so nice to me. I donโt get it, you could have anybody, but you choose me to be your sidekick, your friend or whatever you want us to be. Youโre so fucking cool, Iโm just not that cool when compares to yo-โ
โChangmin, if you donโt stop that right now.โ Your stern tone wakes him up from his thoughts that he was drowning in earlier because of his insecurities.ย
ย You hate when he sees himself that way.
โYouโre the most unique guy ever. I justโฆโ You gulp, guilty lumps in your heart. โJust afraid because Iโm a heartbreaker. I donโt stick around, and lookโ weโve made out so many times but had we ever talked about it? No. I thought you should have someone who isnโt afraid of commitment to be with you.โย
ย Itโs true, youโre not used to commitment at all, nor ever found yourself in a long term relationship.ย
ย Youโre a free-spirited person, someone who needs to feel free and comfortable in any connection you involve yourself in. You can easily kiss and sleep with people without emotions involved because you donโt desire attachment, you only want experience and the risks. It has been that way ever since you were young. Youโve heard too many horror stories of what being chained down to marriages and even relationships have done to people, thatโs why you always date people until you get bored and break up with them as if theyโre not someone worthy of explanations. And especially, you have a knack for making people fall in love, intentionally or not.ย
ย But Ji Changmin changed it for you.ย
ย He makes you crave stability and the calm, peaceful nature of life in a world that is occupied by nothing but mystery of the untamed.ย
โI donโt really care about that.โ He frowns, upsetting that youโd think of yourself that way. He takes one last puff before speaking again โGive me a chance, I can show you what it is like to settle down. We can still be fun and risky while in love.โย
ย The deal isnโt so bad.ย
ย This time, he takes the initiative to lean into you even closer as you both collectively agree to destroy the nicotine stick you got in your hand before throwing it out. Then you mumble something against his lips that he canโt really make out of.ย
ย However, his eyes fill with affection and so much promise of the future with the reflection of you by his side.ย
ย You smirk, nose bumping into his, signaling that youโve let him into your heart with a simple comment.ย
โThen show me what it is like to be loved by you, baby.โย
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coworker and enemy!yangyang who has been a pain in your ass ever since you joined the company in late September. He was your supervisor and he was helpful and nice before you got switched to be under Kun's wing. ever since that incident, he starts messing with you and your mind.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who looks for an opportunity to jap and even throw a smart remark at you whenever you both are together. Youโve grown so used to his behavior overtime that you arenโt fazed by what he was doing anymore. You began to throw remarks at him too and humiliate him at times for him to have a taste of his own medicine.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who purposely messes up your work items and hide your lunches so heโll have a reason to say โhaha loser you look like youโre about to dieโ and youโll be forced to sit through an empty stomach, insanely worn out from both work and his antics.
coworker and enemy!yangyang who always bickers in your social media posts even though you both donโt follow each other. You reciprocate the same energy and oftentimes, even go as far to mess with other people who attempted to flirt in his comment to show him that he will never win this silly little game easily.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes much more meaner when you started getting closer to Sicheng, who is a new member of the team from the other department, and he seems to notice and like you too. He would go as far to say youโre unattractive and not compatible with Sicheng, which you both know is a total lie, but for some reason, you got affected by what he said.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who became worried as you began to be so much more quieter, distant and you stopped responding to his antics as your attention is solely directed on your works. He instantly feels like shit and even filled with rage when he notices that you have become much more affectionate with Sicheng too.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who often punches the pillows and gets drunk, murmuring about how he hates that youโre so distant and looks at Sicheng like heโs your world while Yangyang himself probably amounts to nothing in your eyes and he wishes that youโd reciprocated his love too.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who gets drunk and complains to his friends about how you have heart eyes for another โscumbagโ in his company, slurring all of his drunken thoughts about how he has been in love with you for so long and he just doesnโt know how to express all of those thoughts properly so he resorted to picking on you instead. He was mad that instead of you noticing him, you gave attention to another worthless guy who doesnโt deserve a dime of your time.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who one day works late overtime and gets out, thinking no one would be in the building. Surprisingly, he spots you, who seems to be equally as beaten down by the work as him. He walks to you, doesnโt have the heart to tease as it has been so long and youโre startled by how quiet he has become right at this moment.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who strangely enjoys the comfortable silence, without bickering just once as you both are taking a long walk, exiting the companyโs ground. He was doing good until you hit him with the question โSo.. a little birdie that you like me. Is that correct?โ in the most teasing voice ever and he swears he wants to die.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who begins to panic, while wondering who could be the snitch on him as his mouth quickly responds โNo I donโt, youโre just egoistical.โ to which you respond with โOh yeah? Then why have you been raving about how pretty I am to your friends and how you hate Sicheng so much?โย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes silent as he knows you have defeated him in this, then you laugh, the loudest and most genuine laugh he had ever heard since he knew you. โThatโs my cousin, youโre so dumb.โ Then you laugh even harder, as you continue speaking โIf you pay attention, youโd notice that I use Sicheng to get back at you for being emotionally constipated and bullying your crush as your love language.โย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes red in the face as he gets exposed as he tries to speak โWait! I can explain-โ and he just ends up stuttering half way when he does. You find it adorable how he has a new different side to him.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes ecstatic once he heard the โYou know, I think youโre so dumb that you never really noticed I like you either the way I harassed at least half of the girls who follows you on Instagramโ and he doesnโt care for anything else as he leans in to kiss your cheeks.ย
coworker and enemy!yangyang who ends up working his courage to ask you out on a date and finally working out on getting his enemy as his baby.ย
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[2:04 AM] Moving on from you was hard.ย
ย Still hard, and seeing you with someone else while he still thinks about you is even harder.ย
ย Sometimes, itโs almost comical that love makes him lose his mind like this. But here he is, pouring another bottle of wine into his glass as the light on his nightstand illuminates his bedroom now standing lonely.ย
ย Seungcheol knows he should leave you behind. But he canโt, not with the way that the image of your eyes staring right deep into his soul still serves as a mental image that he thinks back about every night before he lured himself to sleep with nothing but regret as the bed warmed by his side.ย
ย He has the tendency to overwork himself to deathโ you always tell him to take it easy. With you around, he did, but with you gone, the only way that he can proceed with his life normally is if he throws himself into work so that he wonโt have time to entertain his heart of the ideas of โwhat ifโs with you.ย
ย He always forgot to eat his meals on time whenever he was busy and he thinks that he didnโt die because you were the one to remind him of the food intake. But god, does it get harder to eat when you slip out of his life and he goes back to square one, with only the thoughts of you soothing his pain to stop all of his misery.ย
ย With each thought, the wine bottle soon becomes emptied and he pours another one and repeats the step all over again.ย
ย He doesnโt tell you this, and he hopes you wonโt know it either. He has tried seeing other people but all he ended up seeing was a glimpse of youโ he knows itโs selfish and it broke his heart a bit, thinking how much of a horrible man he is for leading people on.ย
ย He sometimes drive by your house. Or even change the usual route he usually takes for his work by driving on your street, just to see your house. But he doesnโt have the heart to face you and gradually, the amount of time he has done this has decreased, but it doesnโt make it hurt any less. He even goes to both of your favorite restaurants in hope to run into you, but it seems like you never revisit after the breakup.ย
ย He has to move on, even if heโs feeling so weak and defeated.ย
ย His eyes glances over to the view outside of the cityโ it looks dull and thereโs no warmth to the scenery at all, just how he has been feeling for months. His lips didnโt dare to speak, he lost his ability to really speak his mind a long time ago once you make your way out of his life.ย
ย He then takes the last sip of the wine before he realizes that he managed to finish 2 bottles for tonight.ย
ย Enough is enough.ย
So, he collects the beverages and the wine stains glass, placing it into the sink as he lets the water run. He cleans it with a sigh, and doesn't ever bother to turn on the light either as the light provided from far away was enough for him.
ย With a heavy heart, he has to force himself to step out of the kitchen, making his way to go back to rest. His palm then unlocks the door of his bedroom that he has previously left in the cold, with neither the nightstand lamp turned off nor the air conditioner still brewing of cold air that runs past his body.ย
ย He then gently lays himself onto his bed, trying to secure warmth with the blanket, eyes attempting to close on its own due to his intoxicated state as his head can only think of you and your new lover, heart now trembling in pain.ย
ย Tonight, he allows himself to miss you again, but tomorrow, he knows he has to move on.ย
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A/N: been feeling a little angsty lately. inspired by one of bloo's songs.
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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU
017 - PICKUP LINES TO USE FOR CONCERT GOERS
Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesnโt know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.ย
WARNINGS: cuss words, sexual jokes, creepy pictures, calling people old
A/N: I think I'm funny. one of my fav chapters btw
TAGLIST: @hoondiors @ariadores @who-tf-soddhi @erehkinnie30
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016 - CONCERT ANNOUNCEMENT
Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesnโt know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.ย
WARNINGS: cuss words, suggestive flirting (from jay's side), cockroaches, rats, joking misandry
A/N: new character unlock, let's welcome han yujin from zb1 we cheer
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UNCUT 015 - THE IDOL, THE FAN
Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesnโt know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.ย
WARNINGS: cuss words, mention of criminal record, being drunk
A/N: that one pic of jay sent me spiraling cause why is his ski mask a literal baby diaper
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015 - SORRY (BUT I'LL DO IT AGAIN)
Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesnโt know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.ย
WARNINGS: burned food, jay being silly
A/N: zero smau i'm sorry omfg
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When you woke up this morning, you heard the birds chirping outside. You thought that it was gonna be a good day.ย
ย You werenโt too far off, but what exactly is your definition of a good day?ย
ย Well, to start it off, your roommate, Yeji, has made a meal for you. An actual meal for breakfast without burning the food or making it indigestible. Truly a blessed day that you donโt have to run out to the convenience store to eat a decent meal or either spend a penny to eat something that doesnโt taste like charcoal exploding in your mouth.ย
ย Second, you managed to catch a bus without rushing like most days. And your bluetooth earphones were fully charged which allows you to listen to Bladee and Mariah Carey as much as you want to without doing a mental calculation to see how much time you have left until your earphone runs out of power and shuts itself down.ย
ย You love life. You really do.ย
ย Third, you finally came 15 minutes earlier to your university without a sweat or feeling like you ran from a storm of humidity. Itโs a good thing that you choose not to do heavier makeup like most days because otherwise, you think itโll cake up half way into the lessons and you donโt want to run to the restroom to powder it up.ย
ย List of good things that happened today.ย
ย Your legs are working their ways there to the hall and you enjoy whatever that is playing in your earphone (Youโre deeply embarrassed to say itโs Talk To Me Nice by Bladee). You only wear one side of the ear piece so you can also pay attention to the surroundings. You think itโs actually quite the downside of having an earphone that isnโt an airpod, but you donโt want to spend your money on an unreasonable pricey stuff just to hear people talk while youโre still wearing that piece when you can just easily remove it and itโll give the same effect too.ย
ย Someone bolts really fast, runs like his life depends on it and you swear you could see the sweat trickling down his face. You smell a familiar scent and you look up to see if youโre right about the man who suddenly runs into you like a bull like this. He then stops in his tracks right in front of you, which startles a reaction out of you as you almost lose your balance with how he pants. And yes, you were right, itโs Jay.
ย What does he want to tell you this early in the morning? For godโs sake, itโs like almost 8 am.ย
ย You donโt expect that youโll meet him first thing in the morning (aside from your roommate Yeji who has become a face you accustomed to see), nor do you expect to run into him being all sweaty and looks like heโs on a self-inflicting punishment for his crimes.ย
โHa- ha- hey! Y/N!โ He pants. โI- Iโm sorry for calling you baby! Itโs okay if you donโt want t-to keep seeing me anymore! I know I overstep my boundaries and act as if weโre dating and if you donโt want to talk to me after this, I understand!โย
ย He panics, the little eyes being widened and the anxious gesture, heโs like an open book even if he seemingly always keeps his cool most of the time. Youโre confused by his rambling of apologies, what- He apologizes for calling you baby before you guys are a thing?
ย No guy has ever apologized for calling you baby before dating. And you remember dreading when you tell your friends about the horror stories of guys that just made you cringe to their every dialogue that escaped from their mouths.
ย You donโt want to admit this one thing so early to yourself but maybe.. maybe your friends are right.ย
ย But you still need to make sure that heโs into you just as much as youโre willing to let yourself be into him too.ย
โJay, itโs okay, really.โ You say with a smile tugging between your lips. โIโll let it slide becauseโฆโ you stop in your trance when you realize that you were about to say that you like how he calls you baby.ย
โBecauseโฆ I want to keep seeing you.โย
ย Good excuse right there, is what you think to yourself. You want to keep being a tsundere just a tad bit longer to see how much he is willing to keep up with your shenanigans.ย
ย God, this sentence nearly made him lose all of his composure. And could probably melt a man who has even the slightest attraction to the opposite sex.
โReally?โ He asks with a beaming glint in his gaze that holds so much hopefulness inside. And you finally realize somethingโ youโve never seen so much love radiating from someoneโs eyes.
ย You choose to only shyly nod as a response and he deems it as a good enough of an answer. Truthfully, you want to see how long it will be until you finally start admitting that you perhaps, feel something for him too.ย
โItโs nearly time for my first lecture, I donโt really want to be late. And you should get going too. I guess Iโll see you soon?โ You make an excuse to get out of there once you start feeling like your heart goes crazy with the way he looks at you like his only one.ย
โOh- yeah. Iโll see you around! Have a good day!โ He stutters, in a daze as he watches you make a run for it before you completely disappear out of his sight.ย
ย The hall feels empty now and it allows him to sigh. He forces himself to go to his next lecture with thoughts flying around his head on what he should do next to be someone to you.
โWhy do you look like that?โ Heeseung questions, observing how Jayโs brows are knitted tightly together.
ย Theyโre now in the apartment of Jay, three men are busying themselves in the kitchen as the place owner himself is cooking up some food as a promise to feed his friends if they donโt bother him when he was trying to apologize to you. The other 4 are playing video games in the living room, which is approximately just a whole 5 seconds walk from the place that creates the best kind of food (dearly presented by Park Jongseong, as Jake likes to say).ย
โLike what?โ Jay mumbles, not sparing his friends a glance with the way his focus is entirely on the food.ย
โLike Y/N turned him down or something.โ Sunghoon responds, before wincing in pain as Heeseung slaps his bicep. Jayโs face now contorts into an uncomfortable look, a look that screams that he is dejected and defeated by the weight of the world and that the light of hope has disappeared from his life.ย
โOH MY GOD?!โ Sunghoon yells out, which catches the attention of the gamers from 5 feet over.
โWHAT HAPPENED?โ Jake yells, asking, as his eyes are glued to the screen.
โY/N REJECTED HIM!โ
โNO WAYYYYY!!!โ Sunoo and Jungwon say it together at the same time and they all stand up to run to the kitchen to see the heartbroken man.
โI thought she liked you, no?โ Riki asks, eyes overflowing with love as he looks at Jayโs cooking. Heโs leaning against the counter, trying to pretend he cares but he really doesnโt.ย
โShe didnโt even reject me, but something worse.โ He looks visibly down and the youngest kid of the group doesnโt have it in him to tease the elder today. They wait for him to say something as he continues.ย
โShe said she doesnโt mind when I call her baby because she wants to keep seeing me then she just bolted to her lecture, is that a girl code of saying if I fuck up one more time, sheโs gonna disappear from my life?โย
ย They all can blankly stare with the โAre you kidding meโ expression written on their faces. Especially Sunghoon who is the most displeased person out of this whole conversation.ย
โOkay- WHAT????โ Jake yells out, clearly shocked by the statement that leaves his friendโs mouth.ย
โI think youโre overthinking it.โ Heeseung comments before going back to chew on the baked cookies (Jay honestly forgot he has snacks until Heeseung randomly was able to find where he hid those).ย
โI think sheโs gaslighting you.โ Sunoo opens his mouth to give Jay constant paranoia (as a hobby) and it seems to work as his shoulders that were once dropped start to tense up.ย
โOh shut up, Kim Seonwoo.โ Jungwon retorts, taking pity on the older friend of theirs. He then goes back to bickering with Heeseung about the cookies, something about the older who needs to stop being greedy and give his share of those baked goods afterwards and Jayโs attention is not on their bickering but he almost let his friendsโ words get into his head.ย
โHavenโt you guys been texting enough time to see whether she likes you for real?โ Riki raises a question and he earns a thumbs up with โYouโre rightโs from the group. He then reaches over to open the fridge to see if his hyung stores anything that he wants to eat (and much to his disappointment, itโs only groceries instead of something cool like ice cream and milk).ย
โI just donโt want to start off on the wrong foot, like I shot my shot through Twitter dms and Iโm so positive she knows that Iโm so in love with her that itโs kinda weird from her perspective.โ Jay sighs, feeling beaten down. He almost gives up on trying to have you when his friends keep throwing the โyouโre a creepโ comments on a daily basis.ย
โWow, youโre really self aware.โ Heeseung deadpans. Sunghoon leans in closer to face Jake as he says โopen your mouth, ahhโ as he feeds him the fries that Jay made earlier.ย
โโฆPlease donโt do this to me right now.โ Jay says, deadpans and anxious.ย
ย Why does liking someone require so much mental work?ย
โYou should be thanking the entities in heaven that she still talks to you after that whole ee-dรฉ-rial compliment. Iโm personally really embarrassed for you and I wasnโt even there.โ Heeseung says, taking another bite of the cookie while Jungwon is on a strike to steal the last 2 cookies before his hyung can get them. Riki now joins Sunoo, Sunghoon and Jake to eat fries while they mumble a โhmmm, deliciousโ to rub that in his face even more.ย
โI think smartphones are the worst invention that Steve Jobs couldโve made.โ Jay groans, eyes focusing on the way the food is overflowing its smell to the 6 people who are cramped up in his penthouse (a name deprived from Jungwon).ย
โActually, itโs Frank Canova. A little google search wouldโve told you that.โ Jake responds.ย
โShut up, physics nerd.โ Sunghoon scoffs, choosing to not feed Jake and get the last bite of the fries himself.ย
ย Jay prepares the dishes for his little family (he likes to play house and pretend it so) and he takes off the apron that has been staying on the entire time he was cooking up something extraordinary as a celebration for his friends to not fucking up his chances with his crush.ย
ย The chaos quiets down as Jungwon voluntarily dropped his one sided beef with his hyung over cookies to devour the big meal that Jay prepares. At that moment, there was no sound coming out of their mouth except a little chewing and little laughter. While everybody keeps complimenting his cooking, his stomach almost churns with acid because of the unnecessary overthinking from his interaction with you earlier.ย
โYou just have to try harder to win her over.โ Is what Heeseung says before he goes right back to go to the food war with 6 other people.ย
โYeah.โ Sunoo agrees. โShe already gave you the greenlight. Just donโt be stupid, thatโs all.โย
โAs long as you can prove to her youโre not an obsessive weirdo, you definitely have a shot. Iโd date you in a heartbeat if I was a girl.โ Sunghoon responds and Jake goes straight to ask โWhat stops you from doing that?โ to which Sunghoon answers with โI just like girls.โ with the most serious expression he can muster at the moment.ย
โWow, thanks guys for that advice.โ He says, monotones dripping from his voice.ย
โUm, by the way. Can I ask you something?โ Heeseung asks, eyes penetrating straight into his as he scoots closer to the chef, ignoring the other presenting 5 people.ย
โSure.โ He nods.ย
โIf you could go back in time, would you call her baby again?โย
โYeah. Iโll do it all again.โย
ย Then he smiles to himself as Heeseung quirk one of his eyebrows and slowly turns away from him.ย
ย Maybe itโs not that bad at all, he just has to keep pushing and be himself.ย
ย At least, thatโs what the guys are hinting at.ย
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ex!sunghoon who you have an on and off relationship with since your high school days and you canโt seem to let each other go, even in college. Your friends are visibly annoyed at how you wouldnโt drop him every time you complained to them, saying that youโll definitely drop him because all you guys did was destroy each other but you never seem to do as you said anyway.ย
ex!sunghoon who becomes your sneaky link and who lets you stay over at his place and vice versa. But every time that happens, you think heโs lingering into your life like a ghost because thereโs no trace of the Park Sunghoon you used to know anymore, who is soundly sleeping next to you.ย
ex!sunghoon who always says that heโs no good for you and you both are aware that the relationship drags on longer than necessary. It has become to the point that you both are unsure of where youโre standing at this particular point of your relationship with him.ย
ex!sunghoon who always claims youโre too emotional but itโs not your fault that you never have a stable relationship with anybody beside him and you showed your vulnerability (part of the reason why you still keep him around). You know youโre tugging at his sleeve and you wear your heart out proudly, but you donโt want to lose the only romantic lover who knows you inside and out.ย
ex!sunghoon who always has sad eyes and everything he said is a blatant lie that he whispers into your ears to get away with his wrongdoings but you cast it aside because you love the pain and youโre addicted to this cycle of the torturing love you both share.ย
ex!sunghoon who kisses you like you mean something once you both are alone and you couldโve mistaken the intimacy as his confession of his real affection that comes true, but heโs too quick to tell you goodbye once you both are done for the day and left his place, feeling more hollow and emptier each time you did just that.ย
ex!sunghoon who knows that what youโre doing is practically self destructive and both self harm but he doesnโt stop you. It feels as good for you as it does for him, but it also kills him that your presence will never hold a long longevity, which is something he wanted from you. He knows that you just need someone who knows you so sickeningly well that you donโt need to explain yourself, while preparing that one day youโll no longer be in his life anymore.ย
ex!sunghoon who is aware that your love will never be permanent and he knows youโre gonna leave. But heโll let you do as you pleased, until youโre finally snapped and walk out on him, even if it hurts him and he wishes he can say โI love youโ to you.ย
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A/N: the quickest thing Iโve ever written in my entire life.
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can i be added to the fated stars taglist??
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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU
014 - BABY (2)
Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesnโt know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.ย
WARNINGS: cuss words, ai image (jumpscare)
A/N: I hate ai stuff but that one was too funny to not include in it
TAGLIST: @hoondiors
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