there are a few flakes of happiness
dropping outside of my window
ground gathering white
only the slight glow
from the Christmas tree
is illuminating this room
I pull a pack of matches
from my dungaree pocket
and introduce it the the wick
(with it’s gentle cinnamon scent)
and it is a miracle we’ve all come to accept
as not a big deal
this convenient flame
does its job
with no complexity
just sit there, hot
and wait to be blown out
easy-peasy
from behind my ear
I slide a joint out
but it tangles (just a bit) in my hair
and I drop it to the floor
where
three curious cats
give it their
utmost attention
shooing them (with love)
I pick up the slight bone
and place it
to my smiling lips
I bring the lit match
to the tip
as George Harrison
croons to me about
thinking for myself
taking a long pull
I close my eyes
thanking all of the gods
for Rickenbacker guitars
and fuzzy bass boxes
I exhale
and blow the mellow smoke
to the spinning ceiling fan
where it
scatters like
love notes wild from the breeze
the snow is picking up
and the album is
nearing it’s ‘Side A’ completion
time to become mobile
time to rise for a
quick flip
and then
back to my ultra-comfy chair
for a few more
puffs
a few more tunes
while watching it all go down
outside
walking towards the stereo
I step over:
two cats
a pair of slippers
catnip dust
and an ornament that
should still be hanging
proudly
on the tree
lifting the needle from the vinyl
I am hit with a bolt
of pure joy
and hurry to get that 'B-Side’ rocking
ah, tonight
thank you for the
snow
and music
with my billowy weed
and three cats
this night could not have
been any more enjoyable
my legs are pure
cocaine woodpeckers
and I cannot get a
wink of sleep
everyone
twists and churns under the sheets
when the moon hits its stride
but this…
this is ridiculous
right leg shake
left leg shimmy
the pillow, all bunched into a
huge cotton ball
is as uncomfortable
as rolled up jeans
under my desperate head
and my veins?
what of them?
well,
they are filled with shreds of
aluminum foil
straight out of the microwave
Christ, even the tips of my ten toes
are affected
I receive 10 seconds of silence
before it starts again
and I have to
move my legs…
wildly…
like flapping a sheet off a porch
but nothing flies away
no, not for me
I rise with great dissatisfaction which
compliments my
immense frustration
as I give the clock
(which read 3:48 AM)
a sorrowful hairy eyeball
dreams will not enter tonight
I’ll have to wait until the afternoon
when it always seems
to always go away
it’s a nighttime thing, you see.
so, I stand in the center of the bedroom
stretching with arms up high
and my legs,
those demented twigs,
could walk for hours
but I’ll have none of that
so,
I head outdoors for some
fresh morning air
and to listen
to my early morning birds
chirping their first chirps
of the day
while the woodpecker within
continues on
her tornado grinding
onto my stiff little fingers
drive me to the brink
of insanity and passion
her with
wine thighs
grooving hard under that
July heat
is an instrumental masterpiece
of lust and love
her neck tastes
of middle of the road
perfume
and her hair is
mousse perfection
to be viewed with cautious eyes
but those kisses she delivers
to me
on my front porch
explode taste
like
every peach I have ever eaten
all rolled into one
mighty burst of
flavor
dripping with desire
the juice of her wanting
leaves me strong and hard
and ready to deliver
..ready to bring her home
with an arched back
on a Persian carpet
that has never seen
such amazing actions
in its century old
life span
pulsating enthusiasm
with a
never say quit
drive
I take her
onto me
and enter
with great fanfare
and parades of thrusting movements
enough to kill
another man
weaker than I
but I hold steady and bring
her home
to squeals
of delight and pure
100% joy
and like that lemon song
her liquid drips down my thigh
as I rise
to salute her
for coming home with me
and showing me
what love
can be
when done
correctly
this amazement
happens
when that wine is flowing
and the circuits are frazzled
to the point of
steady heat
sparks and then flames arise
like a horny phoenix
with wings
spread wide and takes to flight
from the ashes of its destruction
this is merely a woman
…one girl…
who stands beside me
in the New York heat
lovable and able to
bring me great favors
when we are charming each other
to such an extent that
sex is just a giggle away
and I feel
a mighty joke
coming on
right about
now
I love a good spine
and I have well over
one thousand
sitting upright
protecting the wax inside
on my knees
I finger through the albums
searching for something
fantastic to play
on this Saturday afternoon
my turntable
hungry
for some simple tunes
I stop at
Buddy Holly
and slide the record from its
vertical home
and bring it to my
large fleshy nose
for a whiff of
1957
Rave On
and when the needle
is placed softly…gently
to the vinyl
I can feel the joy
rise up
inside of me seconds
before the tune hits me
right in the middle
of my chest
and when
Buddy starts singing
and the guitars join him
I am convinced that God
did not create us from a rib
we came from
the neck of a Stratocaster
Well…all right
I can feel my toes
tapping on the cheap Persian carpet
(a fake)
and I sway to the tunes
wishing hard
that I was wearing
black rimmed glasses
but there can only be one
Buddy Holly
I am lost in a
fool’s paradise
as a cigarette is lit
under the spinning of the ceiling fan
and
I exhale the blue smoke
up into the breeze
…satisfied…
over one thousand records
and I chose the
perfect artist
on this lonely Saturday
when the album comes to an end
and the arm returns the needle to the cradle
I find that my spirits are high
my dumb soul excited to be here
at my cheap apartment
and I swear that
my kitty cat
thinks Mr. Holly was the perfect choice as well
I pick him up
and pat his head
as I think hard about who could
possibly follow Buddy next
my mind filled with artists
but no one
…not even the Beatles
could create such happiness in my body right now
so I return the vinyl to the paper envelope and slip it back in the cardboard
I can’t do it…
nothing can top him now…
maybe tomorrow
but on this day
only Buddy Holly
will make it for me
as the clock inches towards darkness
and the air around me grows chillier
I hold out my arms to the sky
and thank whomever lives up there
for the thirty minutes I just spent
on cloud nine
my spines
all of them
stand in respect
to the greatest rocker…
knowing full well
that they could never
live up to the music just played
but maybe tomorrow
when I go to my knees again
(as I do every day)
I will possibly pull out the Coasters
and play
Hey Sexy
and I’ll smile a wide kind of grin
my toes will tap…
my arms rising to the ceiling…
my soul clean and spotless
Is there anything
Better than
A good mood
Piled up with
The Beach Boys as the
Soundtrack of the day?
Walking with a skip
In your step
Enjoying the day
Despite the
Cold rain
And sick children that
Lay down under your
Dilapidated roof
To find yourself
Dancing around
To this rare nugget of happiness
These harmonies
These mini pop operas
Shine so golden
Dripping so many colors
To your wanting chest
And does it break your heart
When you think of Brian Wilson
And his total break down?
His solo genius
All on his own as
His wilted flower friends
Chuck verbal rocks at
His fat head
Brian, if only we could
Have saved you
But don’t you have
A tie dye heart that beats
In a 4/4 pattern?
As 33 1/3 spins such joy
For you
Without a single
Gray cloud in that
Sky above you
Do you want to hold hands
And walk for a while
At the zoo?
Petting each animal as we
Pass by?
Feeding them
And telling them
Each
That You (you you you you)
Are so
Glad they are
In
Your
Life at that
Precise moment?
Splendid moods spins today
And you can thank
The young men
With honey voices
Singing for you
Lightning bolt crazed
Too much coffee
While my baby is
At the hospital
Leaving me in
Control
Of the percolator
As her Granddad lays
Dying on a cold bed
In a November death scene
As the black and white
Images
Flicker past his eyes
And the orange juice carton
Sits untouched
On the table next to his bed
Alone here
With not even a cat
To keep me company
I down the crushed beans
In my favorite mug
All the while
Our guitar stands
Up against the wall
Waiting for the buzz
To come back
Plugged in the outlet
To create some
Tasty
Rock tunes
On this freezing winter evening
So
I down my
Third cup
Of the hour
And boy do I ever feel it…
Strong and black
With two spoonfuls
Of crazy sugar
Melted in the liquid
For my quiet enjoyment
She has been gone
For just an hour or so now
And I miss her
Voice and whispers
Neck and thighs
Fingers and eyes
Bangs and ears
So I crush out this
Pall Mall cigarette
Into the silver ashtray
Leaving the smoke
To rise to the ceiling
Against the wishes
Of my landlords
And charcoal lungs
I am all jitters
I am certainly alive
I am dancing upon my chair
I am tongue ready
And
Missing her hard now
And hoping for a cheerful woman to
Come through my door
With good news and a
Kiss on my bare shoulder
As the heat vent spouts out
Warmth
On this chilly night
When the coffee was all I had
And my baby
Was away
Holding another mans hand
And keeping the tears
At bay
While the smell of
Salisbury meat
Wafts through the hospital
Making her slightly
Nauseas and sad
I rise from this
Antique desk
To make another pot
And I will hold off
On cranking it up
Now
…I'll save it
Until my dear woman
Is back and
Possibly groggy
And in great need
Of a jumpstart
After a long weary day
With tissues
Glued to her hands
And a runny nose
From great sorrow
And a case of the
Old blues
My mug is empty now
My heart is in love
And the coffee
Was perfection
While I sit waiting
For my lady
To come home
Once again
Where I will greet her
With a smile
And a cup of the
Good stuff
When she walks through
My door
In just an hour or so