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It's nice to have a friend

#have my back yeah…….. #feral about this song when it comes to Them #911

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How Animals Mourn

Anguish by August Friedrich Schenk † The Dead Miner (Mourning the Master) by Charles Christian Nahl † The Faithful Hound by sir Edwin Henry Landseer RA † The Orphan. A Memory of Auvergne by August Friedrich Schenk

#fucking christ

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nina @shitouttabuck reminded me of my the nice guys buddie au and so of course being fed as i have been

#i know you are literally in the throes of finishing a degree but consider this: #im begging you to write it. someday #on mine knees #eddie diaz ‘you will never be happy’ ink on his hand…….

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tidbit tuesday because i am finally writing again and i am giving myself an excuse to share that

catholic eddie having a sexuality crisis you’re my one true love actually

Our father, who art in heaven – hallowed be thy name.

Eddie couldn’t help but laugh, a little, as he murmured the prayer. Hallowed be thy name. He knew the prayer talked about God, their holy father, but the prayer had always made him think of his own father, of the way Ramon Diaz was a hallowed man in his own right, how he parented with an iron fist and expected to be obeyed.

Things were getting better now, with his dad. Maybe – maybe that was part of the fear. Eddie had always been afraid of letting people down, but more than anyone, he was afraid of letting his father down – of seeing that look of disappointment set into every crease of his father’s face, an expression he’d been on the receiving end of for more of his childhood than he’d like to admit. Eddie had tried so hard to make sure he was never on the receiving end of that look again, but nothing he had ever done was good enough – not marrying Shannon, not the way he had tried to take responsibility for his young family, not the army, not the man he had been when he’d come home from Afghanistan.

Distance had lessened the number of disappointed looks, but Eddie knew that was because he was simply not seeing them anymore; he was sure his father sometimes frowned at the phone when they’d finally call, silted conversation about Christopher, and life at the firehouse, the best either of them could muster.

It wasn’t perfect, but it was getting better.

Eddie wasn’t sure if he was ready to blow all that progress up. It was selfish, to want to maintain the status quo at the cost of his own happiness, but he couldn’t help it. Eddie, despite what the circumstances of his life would imply, didn’t like conflict – not the fundamental, existential kind of conflict this would result in, the kind of conflict where his character and worth as a father would be called into question.

tagging @mellaithwen @clusterbuck @hattalove @buckactuallys @bibibuck @littlespoonevan @shitouttabuck and anyone else who needs a good excuse to share a tidbit of fic that’s not done but you’re buzzing about

#oh eddie….. this bad boy can fit so much catholic guilt inside him

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#burst into tears im not even kidding #invented love invented love invented love #911 cast

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I love this dork 😭

#i watched this video on loop for hours the day he posted it….. #ryan guzman

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Their first kiss is gonna be in Eddie kitchen MARK MY WORDS

#oh my god #firefighter art

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#he’s literally so Love Of Your Life shaped #911

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i am a being capable of immeasurable love and whimsy

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………. I SHAN’T FUCKING SPEAK 🫣

#prev 😭 #feel like i gotta tag this nsfw

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hi, nina! i just wanted to let you know that you're one of my favorite 911 authors! 😊

JESS 😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ blowing you soooo many kisses and playing uno reverse card MWAH you have made my day

#got little hearts floating above my head rn reading this over and over #ask

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hi i’ve just finished reading like a dog with a bird at your door and oh my god. that was the best thing i’ve ever fucking read, so thank you so so much <3

HELLO this is simply the loveliest message to wake up to!!!!!! soooo glad it resonated with you, i loved writing it so much im so so so happy you enjoyed it <3333

#thank YOU for reading and sending me this 🥺❤️ #ask #anon

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SAW VI (2009) dir. Kevin Greutert

#so true mr kramer #saw

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something in your magnetism (2x01 / 6x18)

#in my notes #forgot about this…… menaces to society

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Josh O’Connor in Alice Rohrwacher’s “La Chimera” November 23, 2023.

#keep thinking about this grubby man…… gotta rewatch this and gods own country i think #la chimera

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#say it louder king

#but that’s NORMAL #911

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figuring out how to draw my faves <3

#god i fucking adore this #firefighter art