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Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (2001)

#Harry Potter

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They’re so funny

#the incredible

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entranced recently not by “i can fix him” or “i can make him worse” but the “something deeply wrong with him and i want to be around as like a spectator when the car crash inevitably happens” dynamic

#death note

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maybe its the trauma and mental illness, but something about max mayfield escaping the fake upsidedown shakes me to my fucking core.

shes spent the last seven or so months in a depressive state, curling in on herself and locking everyone out. shes dealing with intense trauma and negligence and grappling with survivors guilt at the same time. most of her life has been filled with lesser issues of the same variety, producing someone who defaults to being unknowable when in pain. we had seen how bright and open she could get when she was with the party, but then this season we’re reintroduced to someone empty and guarded and shut off from the rest of the world, who hardly engages with her friends and deflects when someone shes supposed to be closest to tells her that he knows shes not okay and can see shes struggling.

her running and hiding from vecna feels like symbolism for her running from herself and from her trauma until she ends up in a place of limbo in the creel house. shes in the trance and cant see that lucas, dustin, and steve are right there with her, giving her a lifeboat and begging her to come back, which mirrors her real life in that her depression keeps her from wanting their help. when youre in the throes of depression, its so easy to just go through the motions and let things happen to you. maybe you dont actively seek out death, but like… if it happens, it happens. vecna!billy bringing up how max sometimes thinks about killing herself adds to these themes tenfold.

its supposed to be easy for her to listen to vecna tell her that everything is her fault and that she deserves to die. he preys on her self-imposed loneliness and pushes on her survivors guilt, telling her that she can hide herself in the real world (which she also feels guilty for), but she cant hide from him. 

it doesnt matter how much they want her to come back, or how much they beg- the party cant reach into the upsidedown and pull her out, much like how lucas asking her to talk and telling her he knows something is wrong isnt enough to pull her out of her depression alone. it was always up to her to want to keep living. 

she finally starts calling dustin and lucas for help because shes terrified. max doesnt actually want to die, she just wants to stop feeling like this. asking for help ends her up in limbo after running around in the darkness of the fake upsidedown, and vecna is surprised to see her there, not expecting her to try to reach back out to her friends. he then tries to lure her back into the darkness of her own mind. 

the shots of her running towards the portal were so fucking well done- you can really feel her desperation, and the stress and anxiety of the moment permeate through the screen and it triggers this sense of panic in the viewer. we dont know if its too late for her to come back. we certainly dont want it to be after shes just remembered everything she has to live for and breaking free from vecnas grasp. we have to watch for an agonizingly long time before getting an answer, seeing her frantically trying to escape without so much as looking back after she realises she has a chance. she claws her way out of the fake upsidedown because she violently needs for this to not be the end.

max mayfield survives because she wants to, and that strength will forever leave me in awe.

#stranger things

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I think my favorite thing about Klaus is the fact that he’s basically the embodiment of death and yet he exudes more life than any of the others. He’s vibrant and bright, he’s loud, he takes up space, and he doesn’t shy away from his feelings. He’s unapologetically himself and he lives without regrets, and he refuses, time and time again, to put any more pain or anger into the world. He’s been through hell nonstop his whole life and he still finds reasons to keep living.

He is truly the most beautiful representation of the complexity of life and death and the care that Robert and all of the writers put into his character is such a lovely change of pace from the traditional treatment of death in media. They could’ve made him angsty, jaded, or any other caricature of the constant reminder of mortality and yet he’s the one who reflects the beauty of life most lovingly. He treats dying as a casual change, something that’s just part of life, and yet still insists time and time again that the choice to keep living is worth it. That’s what’s so special about his storyline in season 3. He’s faced with the knowledge that by the time he was eight years old, he’d already died at least twice. If it weren’t for his powers, he wouldn’t have lived past eight years old and instead of letting it break him even more than he already was, he decides to fight for himself. He wants to live to see himself control it, to get control over his life back. To take advantage of the life that was almost taken from the little tiny Klaus who died scared and all alone, and make it worthwhile.

And I just really, truly adore him.

#the originals

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nobody:

me when my family asks what i'm doing with my life:

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The “opening is a lie” starter pack:

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YA Films I’m Obsessed With

Midnight Sun (2018)

Quote: “Because you said the best part was having someone to share your adventures with. So go talk to him tell him the truth he deserves that, and so do you.”

Everything, Everything (2017)

Quote: “Dear mom, I know staying in this house keeps me alive, but this isn’t living. I want to experience everything… everything!”

The Sun is Also a Star (2019)

Quotes: “I believed it would take a lifetime to understand the human heart. In the end, all it took was a single day.”

All the Bright Places (2020)

Quotes: “There are places that need to be seen. Maybe even the smallest of places can mean something. At the very least, maybe they can mean something to us.”

If I Stay (2014)

Quotes: “Life’s a big, fat, stinking mess, but that’s the beauty of it too.”

The Duff (2015)

Quote: “No matter what label is thrown your way, only you can define yourself.”

To All the Boys I Loved Before (2018)

Quote: “I write a letter when I have a crush so intense that I don’t know what else to do. Rereading my letters reminds me of how powerful my emotions can be, how all-consuming.”

Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012)

Quote: “I am very interested and fascinated how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other.”

The Fault in Our Stars (2014)

Quote: “I fell in love the way you fall asleep. Slowly, then all at once”

Before I Fall (2017)

Quote: “Maybe for you there’s a tomorrow. Maybe for *you*, there’s 1,000 or 3,000, or 10… So much time, you can bathe in it. So much time, you can waste it. But for some of us, there’s only today, and what you do today matters.”

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i thought the umbrella academy couldn’t get any more relatable in terms of actually understanding how siblings act but then season two comes along with shit like:

“I’m going to BEAT you and not the way you like it” 

“cHiLDrEn iN tHe bAcK” and then klaus just fucking falling over the seat. 

klaus showing up to allison’s house seeing a body and immediately going “are we burning or burying” 

five being So Done with Luther all season but still pushing him out of the way from the bricks falling

“Luther sniffs dad’s underwear” 

“You have had your possession privileges REVOKED”

and then ben going still worth it

everyone mentally rolling their eyes when diego starts talking about how he likes a girl (don’t @ me you know they were)

five pretending not to care about them but actually caring a lot™

the entire part where they’re lifting the tractor. diegos like fucking finally and luthers like we can leave you here would you like that.

diego forgiving vanya in less than a minute

the entire scene with klaus allison and vanya

everyone being like ok i understand why you would want to kill them but i still can’t let you

luthers forced smile at strangers after five yells “IM THE DADDY HERE” literally what i do when one of my brothers does something stupid in public

luther trying to keep the peace between the fives is just a whole ass mood tbh

klaus going over the ‘possession ground rules’ with ben

“klaus you’re so FILTHY” 

Ben and klaus’s little piss fight on the side of the road

“you look like antonio banderas with the long hair”

diego and luther when five shows up covered in blood

but we didn’t kill the comission! yeah that entire conversation especially “Five what did you do?”

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Imagine being part of the Umbrella Academy and realising that your father would rather adopt a literal rock than you

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they’re so messy I can’t

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Ok but you know what I absolutely love?

I fucking love the fact that Five hasn’t even been in this time period for an entire goddamn minute and he’s immediatly ready to jump into the fray the moment he spots his siblings, no questions asked. 

Who started it? Who are we fighting? Why are we fighting them? How the hell did my siblings get stuck in the middle of a war between the US and Soviet Union?

Who cares. Whoever they’re fighting I’m fighting, questions can be asked later. 

 Like.. don’t ever say Five isn’t the most ride or die person in this show cause his entire existence revolves around keeping his family alive and safe and he’s literally willing to let the entire world die as long as he can secure his sibling’s safety (as we saw in season 1 with the deal he struck with The Handler).

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Why in the hell does there hAvE to Be ZoEnNe drama? Robbe’s parents are already divorced, he doesn’t need his new ones getting divorced too.

Also leave them alone???

(If they do a DRUCK imma riot)

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the Hargreeves siblings have three braincells bouncing between them and Ben has two at all times

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Haru & Subaru :3 || Doukyonin wa Hiza, Tokidoki, Atama no Ue