#(just finished 4 assignments)

[ivysangel]

Jason as a nibbler, a neck biter, a vampire. Not literally, he doesn't need blood to survive, no, but the way his mouth somehow always finds your neck, always finds a way to catch his teeth on your carotid, you'd think he did.

He comes up behind you so innocently sometimes, his hands ghosting over your hips and his hair tickling your jaw. His beautiful, soft, jet-black hair that is so quickly replaced with sharp nips of his teeth. You pull away, pushing his head back with your hand, and he groans; what did I do, his eyes say when he lifts his head to look at you. "You're biting me." you point to the teeth marks on your neck, indents a little deeper where his canines were. "I'm loving you."

You patiently wait for the day he gets carried away and accidentally draws blood, the day when the permissiveness of your flesh gives way to this indulgent behavior of his. He'll nose at the tiny droplets of blood collecting around the puncture wounds, licking and laving as a pool of iron collects on his tongue. Pulling away, looking like a wolf who's just devoured its prey, with blood smeared on the tip of his nose and his pupils blown wide.

He'd tasted blood before when he'd punched too hard, when he'd been punched too hard; the taste was always bitter in his mouth, too metallic, and always lingering long after he'd washed it away with water, but not yours. No, yours was welcome, just as bitter and metallic but also sweet? Comforting? Welcome? Yes, welcome. He'd welcomed you into his life a multitude of times, made room for you in places he'd previously thought to be too cramped. In his home, in his mind, in his heart, but the one place he could never figure out how to integrate you was his body.

Of course, he'd had sex with you, let you touch him in ways he had never been touched before, seen him at his most vulnerable, but it would never be the same for him as it was for you. You could never be inside of him the way he was inside of you. He thought he'd never know how it felt to walk around with ghosts of you inside of him the way you did when he came too deep or stretched you out too much. He thought he'd never know what it felt like to carry a part of his lover around with him outside of a material object. Now, he knew otherwise; he knew there was an alternative—a painful, bloody alternative—but an alternative nonetheless.

#cw blood #guys guys guys i don't #have a blood kink #i really need to say that *crying* #i'll probably never expand on this #anyway this is just a little experiment #not entirely sure it's any good bc hello #brain fried #(just finished 4 assignments) #back to back #anyway !!! bye #jason todd #jason todd x reader #jason todd x you #jason todd smut #jason todd imagine #red hood x reader #red hood x you #red hood smut #red hood imagine #jason todd lover

[andtheyreonfire]

goro akechi has been dead for 7 slutty, slutty years

#well. 4 if you say royal takes place in 2019 #persona 5 #2/2 #akechi goro #goro akechi #persona 5 royal #p5r spoilers #it's not 2/2 yet in my timezone. but it is spiritually i think #my brain hurts and i just wanna buy the zine but i gotta finish the assignment uuuuuuuuuu #i think i'm out of it but i can't tell if this source is just. not even addressing why these practices are argued to be abusive #or he's just doing it purposely #''oh it's not 40 hours a week!!! it's an Average of 40 hours a week!!! and it's more like 30-35'“ #''ohh people have called out the past use of electro-shock therapy...don't they know we only used it for dangerous behaviors????'' #''ohhh well if any one was actually abused in these practices they should contact the authorities'' we are talking about CHILDREN #book-licker. i am so tired. why do you mention studies and then not source them in your references. #anyways i should be having my autism times now that's what i mean yeah

[mage-ical-character-person]

This was a WIP for so long goodness.

ANYWAY. I think Player 2 in Pikmin 4 is really funny when you think about what the heck's happening in-universe. The person I was playing with saved all their bomb rocks for Louie so the Louie Dandori Battles were really easy for me.

Kersploding him

#The shading was fun #especially on louie I'm proud of how that turned out #not super proud of like the pose of louie but it felt like a louie thing to do. Standing like that while kersploding #(how does one draw explosion??) #Yeah I just kinda started this towards the tail end of summer and then school started and I had to college for the first time #but it's fall break rn so I had time to finally finish it instead of doing the hw assigned over fall break whoops #ANYWAY I'm sure I'll figure that out. #pikmin #pikmin 4 #captain olimar #louie pikmin #moss pikmin #mage’s doodles and drawings

[khufiya-khaufnak-antariksh]

So earlier today I introduced some of my WIPs to some new people, and I realised that many people might not be familiar with those two WIPs.

Kriya Petri: fantasy (with body horror & dystopian elements). Setting: A country called Fillor on a planet called Thuluke. In Fillor, to bind yourself to the one you love, you require a trinamate potion to seal the bond. 'Trinamate' is marriage (though that is a rather crude translation of the word). But to get a trinamate potion legally, the couple needs to be… acceptable. A man and a woman who plan to have at least one child. Yes, it's been 1000 years since the global apocalypse, but 'sufficient reproduction' is still a concern among the Filore people (plus it's a moral virtue for the Divine Monarchy, who reside on the cloudlands, with an iron grip on the institutes of Fillor). A potioneer wants to elope with their lover, but the pair is, let's just say, not acceptable. So what are they to do? The potioneer brews a trinamate potion on their own, finding the closely guarded methods & ingredients for the potion through who-knows-who, bunch of shady people. The potion explodes. The potioneer knows the punishment for something like this. They'll be condemned to Kaewoe (so will their lover, if anyone finds out), a realm so deep below the ground that it's close to the core of the planet. Kaewoe, where the mind & body are destroyed by the horribly high concentration of magic. Kaewoe, the names & lives & loves of all who enter it, all slowly turned to unknowledge. Good thing stealing identities is absurdly easy in Fillor! The potioneer wipes all memory of their crimes & love (or else the Thought magicians would know), flees to the city of Naebo. Their name is now Kriya Petri,

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Welcome To The Real World: scifi, fantasy, surrealism, horror, tragedy

This one's in very early stages Inspired by Frankenstein Setting: The Great South Asian Rip in Reality, where physics (time & space both) is just completely twisted. The year is sometime in the 2070s. Sometimes it's the 2040s outside the Rip. Depends when/where you step out. Moh-maya, reality's very fabric & everything that keeps up the illusions that comprise reality, are very malleable in here. Main character: Kabir aka Moksh. A closeted Indian trans man who lives a double life, perhaps even a triple life. One in which he's a cis woman & a regular bright STEM student (STEM studies also include study of moh-maya). Another in which he's just some guy with good friends (the most authentic of his lives), where he goes by the name Kabir & uses moh-maya to present as his true self. If only temporarily. (it's painful, mentally & physically, whenever he has to revert to the female form). The third is some mad scientist bullshit, he's going by the name of Moksh among his fellow mad scientists & his main project is a moh-maya Frankenstein's monster that others can share their consciousness with, such that they can experience shape-shifting more easily & go where they physically aren't, do things they physically can't. Let's simply call it the 'entity'. Due to many reasons, creating this entity is pretty illegal. Hence the new name & collaboration with fellow shady people. the plot, put shortly: he starts doing vigilante justice w/the entity & then goes far & gets more & more consumed w/work & things go verrrrrrryyyyyy wrong despite starting with (dubious but) good intentions.

in this second one i neglected to mention the fact that you, as the reader, get front row tickets to the main character's spiral into madness & justifying murders thru the entity + the entity is a whole person & has opinions + a whole lot of other stuff, I DID mention that this WIP is in very early stages but holy fuck i could go on & on about it (just not in a way that can be packaged in a structured & sensible introduction)

#i have re-written the introduction to kriya petri so many times because it's hard to know WHAT parts i should talk about first #and this introduction still isn't concise. currently i'm not really in the phase where nailing the introduction is super important but #it's still at least a LITTLE BIT important. but i never seem to get it right. i think this one IS an improvement over my other #introductions to this wip because it gets the MAIN FOCUSES across (and even without talking about the other major characters it at least #touches upon the issues kriya has which will be common with the other characters. so it works). #still not entirely satisfied BUT this is my 'baby' wip cuz i started it when i was 14 and it's grown so much in the past 4 years #and honestly i should probably just read a bunch of scifi (finish octavia butler's series lilith's brood maybe since i finished the last #book recently) because before i wrote this intro. THAT was what made some of the worldbuilding aspects 'click'. #i really need to make the amphibious nature of the thuluken humans play more of a part in their culture as well! #i just realised that so many aspects of this world have been DISCONNECTED! they need to be woven together! #it's midnight and i'm sleepy. why am i sleepy i could be working on this (or on my college assignments [it's okay i've got a lot of time #for them & am making progress on them at a steady rate])

[kenjakusbraincum]

lol i want to fucking die just like i predicted

#everyone jumped me my last couple of free days #friends family professors #i have like 10 ppl and 10 assignments i have to meet/finish in the next... 4 days #yall cannot be real right now #and also i just came back from the worst bday party #i felt so overwhelmed and excluded evem though i knew half of the people there #i wanna cry #and i cant just tell my friends/family oh i dont have time for you lol shouldve texted me earlier #im so bad at saying no like that #at this point i think ill just.. stop coming to my home country for holidays #its starting to always be a fucking nuisanc #e #like im supposed to enjoy my time here not stress about it #if i was abroad at least i wouldnt hwve to think about fitting ten fucking people who feel entitled to my time in my schedule #but alright #my head aches

[solarisgod]

So today, we were given the opportunity from a supervisor to work with our organization's different program next Monday to Thursday at 9am to 5pm that focuses on making these products and packaging them, as this program job is offered to autistic individuals who can do these tasks usually after they graduate from the program that us cluster have been working in and are qualified to work at a professional setting. Our supervisor told me this team was looking for an intern who could work most days while they're organized, and it's just...

With us at a different work campus to fill in for an absent facilitator until Friday, it just makes me beyond happy and proud to believe that I'm making such a great impact with this organization while I'm being seen as so trustworthy and diligent to get these work opportunities and experiences and connecting with this organization more. We'll be finishing placement on December 14th before entering our final semester of the program, and I really do not want to go. I can't juggle between work and education at all, so I'd have to wait and see if I can apply a job there in spring.

But the fact that we're this farr to the journey that's coming to an end? It's so crazy to vaguely remember our orientation day and first work day, and now we're trusted enough to be given more different responsibilities across different areas for not just them, but ourselves as well, and I'm just forever extremely happy and grateful to get to work here. I've even said it to my supervisor of our original work campus during our mid term meeting with my placement supervisor few weeks ago that I'm really happy to work at this organization that's so welcoming and accepting and supportive.

I've improved so much even before placement when we had to do placement searching and these interviews, and it's insane to me that I wasn't at all anxious with the interviews or reaching out. I was depressed and suicidal across the summer that we wouldn't secure the placement by September because we'd have to wait a whole year to do it and I had already wasted a year because I didn't know we had to do a bridge in summer course in order to enter the bachelor course, but the lack of anxiety in general and having more confidence in my future is just everything to me.

The first year college and high school Astrifer would never ever believe that xyr life could get better over time despite everything, but it has and it will so much more.

#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ OOC . › #[ am rambling about placement work ] #[ let's see if I can use any of these for my final assignment due on December 4 lmfao ] #[ anyways I'm just. so content with this ; I so so so hope that we'll get an official position with this place after graduation ] #[ even few of my colleagues yesterday were shocked to hear my placement will be finishing soon and they were ] #[ like ' noooooo please don't go! apply!!! ' so it's just. ] #[ extremely nice to know I am capable of doing something good while I can actually mean something in the end. ]

[elmmni]

utilizing the power of gay love and my girlfriend believing in me to push through the 11 pages of writing due Thursday o7

#she believes and i cant keep worrying her by joking about jumping into traffic #got 2 pages done tonight in the last like 45 minutes after locking in so i only have 5 left to finish one so i can do that in like 3 hours? #and then the other is only 4 pages so i can do it #the power of gay love and adhd focus music is gonna get me through finals i can feel it #i literally just have to get to friday and im clear ill only have 4 more assignments after that and 2 of them im already mostly done with #and the other 2 arent due until next friday and should be quick #and exams are next week but thats fine im a good test taker ill be okay #maybe its midnight delusions maybe im just pulling through whos to say #she speaks?? #girlfriend tag <33

[pallases]

#ANXIETY!!!! #finished the report (before 1 actually which is i think a new record for me) resume still needs touching up but that’s fine. the real #problem is the program due early friday afternoon and then the other one due monday night neither of which i think i will be able to finish #on time GODD #the one due friday is technically supposed to be a partner project but i have no idea what’s going on there bc our compiler doesn’t allow #you to share files and we don’t have a google doc or anything so ive just been picking at it on my own mostly unsuccessfully. going to text #her tmrw morning to see if she’s made anymore progress on her end bc uh. #then the one due monday i haven’t even started and i know it’s a hellish assignment bc everyone else in my class is struggling w it and mos #of them have been at it for days (i have not been bc band + taking 4 more credits than most of them + theatre stuff etc there’s been no #time 😭 he literally told us not to start it the day before which. i’ll probably be able to start it friday night so not quite that bad but #like. absolutely not good either) #absolutely not looking forward to that. it’s never ending ‼️‼️ and don’t even get me started on auditions friday i don’t think i’ll be able #to practice beforehand… it’s fine #personal #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles

[ni-ien]

I haven’t drawn anything recently but I’m trying to pick up some old wip’s! 😭 in the meantime have the start of some yuri that I did for a class a few months ago :]

#I posted just the cover awhile ago but here’s the whole thing 🥹 #this is really just an excuse for me to post a lil’ update though and truthfully. I haven’t been able to finish anything for 4 months 😭 #thanks for sticking around! 🥰🫶 #oc #23tarts #actually I was really upset abt this assignment bc the prof gave us so many requirements for it #for a class that was neither an art or a creative writing class #and only a WEEK to do it 😭 #that’s why it’s so. corny :) #but we need cringe lesbians too I am a firm believer in cringe lesbians 🫡 #love wins!!!

[detentiontrack]

I am so stressed out, I hate this essay

#this is my last assignment before break..... #4 days until i get to see my girlfriend again....... #just need to finish this one essay.........

[pepprs]

i cannot express enough how damaging it is mentally and emotionally that i still live here 🤣

#purrs #the way everything is ALWAYS my fault! the way that my parents are gods who can never make any mistake or admit to wrongdoing and everything #they ever do is justified but then when i (a fully grown adult) also try to explain when i didn’t do anything wrong or when it’s not #actually my fault it doesn’t apply lol. the way i am asking for permission for things THEY SHOUKD BE ASKING ***ME*** for permission for LOL #the way i found out only recently (yeah.) that im still legally / financially a dependent 😍😍😍😍😍😍 awesome. lolololol. the way i can’t get out #of the quicksand until i get out of the quicksand but in order to get out of the quicksand i have to be able to get out of the quicksand 😻🙏🏻 #delete later #btw i just finished my first homework assignment ive had to do in a year and 3 months and my first class is in 15 hours. what if i *** rn. #also ​it occurred to me the other day like. i have always thought of myself as selfish and imparient but also… these were things my parents #were telling me i was / treating me like i was as young as 3-4 years old as evidenced by the video tapes. and like. what if that’s not #actually how i was / am and everything i did and needed and do and need was valid and justified and what if all the bad things i believe(d) #about myself were / are because they told me that’s who i was and i was too little to know they were wrong. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

[treecakes]

okay all of my three papers i have due by thursday or friday are outlined at the very least. yay! but i want to have at least one in by wednesday morning.

#and then i have a final exam on wednesday also. i’ve finished every other assignment aside from those three papers 😭 #one of them is nearly written actually the outline is really detailed i just need to make it coherent #one of the other papers will just be stream of consciousness for 7-10 pages #and the last one. well. no one knows how long it’s supposed to be not even the professor because she has told us at least three different #things. and my classmates are saying. oh i’m writing 3 pages double spaced #but the professor said in class. 6-8 double. but then on the assignment doc. it just says 4 #but once on the doc it says double spaced. and then later it says single. so. who knows!!! i don’t #i’m going to go with. 5 or 6 double spaced pages. probably. idk #it’s the last one i have due so it depends on my patience level #and how lucrative my sources are for that. 😭

[marshmurmurs]

Really had to fight for my life to figure out this one

#mcyt #iskall85 #vault hunters smp #vault gods smp #marsh tries #vh hnk au #just him as i try to work out the last of the hunters #ik ima give abe blopal and i might give cpk alexandrite #however still gotta get the last 4 assigned #which is gonna be hard since theres only 3 vault gems left #might have to pull out magnetite as one? or maybe technically bounty pearls would count as a gem #actually probably just gonna leave it here until i finish catching up on the manga before i commit to anything

[miodiodavinci]

woughh,,,,, busy,,,,,,,,,

#met with my internship people today and it was basically nonstop from there #i just finished taking care of my responsibilities for the day and i am now laying in bed #because i have another meeting at 7am tomorrow #grind doesn’t stop -/SMACKED #for real though i am being launched into action like a pumpkin from a trebuchet #i want to play videoed game so bad as a treat but i Really need to use my downtime tomorrow to do artwork things #because i need to make major progress on this project before the Real horrors start #right now it is just usual college stuff #readings and assignments and commutes and classes and zooms #but soon it becomes that and basically being an unpaid employee for 4 hours a day #and preparing an extensively vetted portfolio on top of that #it’s going to become me and my time management skills against the world lads #gotta get ahead before it gets intense . . . . #anyway i gotta snzz i need to be up in like 6 hours #snzz…….

[sodalite-lite]

Today's (last week's, really) Trackpad Tuesday is sponsored by: Lying to your friends to protect them! I gave up on doing the dithering sorz Process parts under the cut

#soda draws #taleblr #trackpad tuesday #blood #eyestrain #i keep forgetting parts of my design for him but WHO CARESSS #wouldn't be a fun fandom without that one person who draws bad awkward edgy mspaint fanart #<- i say that endearingly #yeah i colored the gloves. so what they get covered in blood anyway #i have a lot of useless things to say i'm writing this like half an hour after i finished at 2 in the morning i feel a bit panicked #i was drawing this and was like 'this is getting more about me by the minute' whatever THAT means #this was fun for the most part. took way too long. i really like leaving most of the sketch visible but it makes it hell to color #honestly he probably has a better memory than me but whateverrr mann #'so is the blood real or symbolic simon?' that's for you to figure out random person online reading my tags!!!! #whatever my problem is sucks two days ago i could barely get out of bed and today(ish) i whip SOMETHING up after working on it #for like 10 straight hours #i'm mostly just thinking about my unfinished assignments #ENOUGH TALKING INTO THE SCHEDULE FEATURE 4 YOU...

[caramelmochacrow]

i still have math assignments but hey im drawing peaky p-key in outfits similar to host members and/or male idols. is that something?

#crow talks #blame their maji love 1000% cover. i researched a little on those boys and assigned 4 of them to peaky members. #the ones i assigned yuka and esora to are gay together btw. theyre childhood friends or some shit EUGH-- #i will spare you of my musings. just know that im enjoying myself designing these outfits lol #i only finished shinobu's but that was bc i had a clear confidence w hers now im doing kyoko's