#--enjoy using utau constantly. and that spark to create new covers just dies out.

[hiratelier]

Many thoughts running through my head as I prepare to upload my last UTAU cover of the year because I'll barely touch the silly singing robot program next year when I have more exciting things to work on...but even then it feels like you're saying goodbye to a close friend you've been with for almost 9 years

#mine #text #currently i am trying to finish a cover for my utaus' 9th anniversary next year and man #the spark for making robots singing usually isn't there nowadays but when it comes to my own utaus #god it does feel nice working on something! #this entire year i've been pumping out covers that first started as an outlet for my creativity #but then halfway into the year i kept getting into creative ruts and it was frustrating because i only limited myself to one outlet #so discovering animatics...gaining new interests...and picking up new skills has helped me branch out from utau significantly #but i will say that using utau bestow me lots of skills that will prove useful beyond just making utau content #i guess working on this one cover helped me reflect on that some more...but god it's kinda making me emotional #even most of my friends who used utau back in the good old days have moved on to other things now and i'm sort of in that boat... #it's not too fun trying to enjoy utau by yourself but honestly i think it all boils down to the fact that i was forcing myself to-- #--enjoy using utau constantly. and that spark to create new covers just dies out. #i suppose that coming back to utau once in a long while to work on something nicd amidst working on other projects is something that's-- #--more healthy for me yknow? i know i'm sort of betraying my utau-oriented audiences on youtube and bilibili with the way i've been slowly- #--moving away from utau and uploading other kinds of media and interests #but i'm opening up a new chapter for myself in making more oc media and animatics and they're more than welcome to stay along for the ride #i think i'm running into tangents at this point but what i'm trying to say is that for me uploading utau covers weekly was draining #and with me moving away to other projects and not being too hard on myself...my creative drive is slowly coming back #and maybe once in a while my creative spark for using utau apart from anniversary reasons will come back better than ever #and i will try to keep my own utaus alive as ocs apart from singing robot shenanigans and diffsinger development #it is a hobby i enjoy for myself after all and its not supposed to be a chore