#I am a people and I def want this

[judasisgayriot]

there's so much to unpack here (@predoom found this while I was searching for a different video from this time! <3 <3 thought it needed to be immortalised...)

#fobedit #pete wentz #patrick stump #peterick #fall out boy #fob #anni edits #i just had to preserve this in gif form lol #if anyone else has gifed this yet i havent seen it so dont b mad or anything lol. i am but a humble gifmaker #source is linked obv #crazy video. insane. why did he say all that #pete why are you talking about your wedding like this lol. #never mind the speech he makes up for patrick #these codependent mfers i want to study them #aaaaanyway. also pete and patrick you are DEF the only people who have ever seen top gun #sure. it's your thing. i won't take it away from you babes

[cultofsappho]

#why does that not even look like taylor?? am i crazy?? it doesnt look like him at that angle? im losing my mind #rwrb #red white and royal blue #i mean... i like the poster no prob there #and nick looks like nick #idk why people hate this poster i think its cute #i def did NOT want a bubble gum pink cover AGAIN

[deoidesign]

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without' #I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk. #can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work... #for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well! #it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to. #but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end... #I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too. #but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk. #anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better. #but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much. #and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so... #I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better. #and I'm just crying because of all this combined. #I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

[blinkpen]

h

I wish every fuckhead who isn’t even a survivor and has no idea what personally experiencing such chronic debilitating trauma and the effects it has on your life and brain is like and just giddily opts in to get off in incest as a titillating taboo kink thing for funsies a very Kidney stones made of hot sauce and spiders

the spiders with lots of little spikes on em

#like I hate these types of people deep down to my bones I really do FOR REAsONS let’s NOT DISCUSS #Def delete later I am sick angry isolated from the world and screaming into the void #What’s the word again oh right triggered I’m triggered haha more family coming #I don’t want to interact with ANYBODY #But if I refuse to join festivity I’ll be the asshole and chewed out for it uuurgh

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

So i finally listened to The Magnus Protocol and uhh holy shit, yall mind if i

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#the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #In the tags #My favourite case has to be the 2nd one Daria girl you are so fucked up!!!! You are so fucked up girl get help!!!! #And i am loving the absolute toxic work environment it is hilarious all the characters are great!! #Alice Gwen and Lena have three way situation of snide backhanded remarks and office coworker hate going on #Colin hates everyone but especially the puter and is this close to murder #Sam is just trying to do whatever the fuck he is doing. He is new here. He is over qualified #Teddy my man saw his place workplace comedy swerving towards horror genre and immediately ditched ship good for him!!! #(Unless Lena brutal pipe murdered him in which case girl i am so sorry) #And just character in general. Like Alice is trying to vibe her way through life #while also saying some death flaggy 'oh this is def foreshadowing' shit every episode #Gwen has the same surname as the shows previous antag #but also just after Lena's job and just wants to be taken seriously and thinks everyone is against her #she also may or not have discovered that her boss is murderer but oh well #Sam is like this sweet nice guy who is also so fucking nosy and the only one actually curious about fucked up shit cases magnus institue #And everyone is telling him to stop Girl! Turn away girl!! You are gonna get fucked up girl!! Look away!! #Colin is just so fucking angry and feral but also IT is just like that. He is crawling on the floors. He is growling at people #Lena is so fucking tired with all these bitches in her office Head Bitch incharge of all these Bitches #And i am 80% sure she murdered that guy Klaus #Anyway love all of this. Cant wait to hear them get killed in brutal tragic ways

[ilivelikeimtrying]

Nimona AU where Ballister is a villain but like, he's not even really that evil, like, at all. He's just, really bad at being a Villain.

And him and his "Nemesis" have the worst relationship, meaning that they have a great relationship because they don't even actually hate each other like Nemesis' are supposed to.

V!Ballister, doing an 'evil' monologue: Well well well, sir Goldenloin, it has been quite some time since we've last- What's wrong?

Ambrosius, whose face was scrunched a bit: Huh? Oh, it's nothing, these ropes on my wrists are just- they're burning and itching is all- you can keep-

V!Ballister, panicking and running over: Really?! Oh Ambrosius you've been here for hours! Why didn't you say anything sooner?! Are they too tight? Is it this new brand? I told Nimona not to get these ones but no-

*cue to Ambrosius staring fondly at Ballister as he continues to ramble about never buying this specific set of ropes again*

Half the time Ambrosius doesn't even know why he's fighting the guy, like, The Director is all "He's the personification of an Evil Villain" at Ballister and Ambrosius is staring at the same guy seeing him help a little girl get her kitten out of a tree and give a good bit of the money he stole to people in need and points at him like "Really????? "

#nimona #nimona 2023 #nimona movie #Ambrosius questions the Director so much when it comes to Ballister #Nimona he's a little more inclined to believe because she's basically chaos- but even then he hasn't seen her ACTUALLY do something BAD #but Ballister himself is like- trying to be a villain with Nimona- #(and has the means for it I mean- c'mon he's a genius who can fight and has a kickass sidekick) #- But he's just- so bad at actually being bad. #he's very much capable of commiting crimes and doing villainous acts but other then that the guy is so wet cat and actually super nice #the people still 'fear' him as a villain because of the Institute and their propaganda and the other Hero's hate him #(because he's beaten them all before in battle- and wins every time) #but Ambrosius is the only one who's genuinely kind to him because he doesn't actually see him as a villain #kinda wanted to Uno Reverse Card things- so they both like each other but Am is so oblivious to Bal's advances- #even when he's being painfully obvious #like- it's not a 'we can't date cuz we're on opposite sides' thing- it's a: #'I really like him but he probs doesn't feel the same cuz we're on opposite sides' thing #okay so like- looking at it better now- yeah this is defs comic × movie now so #¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #nimona comic #cuz like- they do give off those vibes #but in my head this Amb is still his movie personality and nice #with a mix of 'wake up don't believe everything this bitch is saying' juice #and as dumb/af comic Amb #like at some point Bal requires his help to get rid of admirers and is like 'I could use something cute on my arm to turn them away'- #and Am is like '... you could always use a nice handbag. You can borrow one of mine if you don't have one- or! I saw this really nice one'- #and Bal is just staring at him like 'Gloreth he's so dumb i can't not have him' #and he mentions that he meant a cute PERSON on his arm but Am is still like 'Oooh... uhm- I have this one friend- they might help if i ask' #and Bal just goes 'YOU! I MEANT YOU YOU ADORABLY DUMB TWINK OF A HIMBO! I COULD USE YOU NEXT TO ME TO FEND THEM OFF!'

[note-boom]

You know a silly thing I want?

I think that Naomi and Gin should team up and be a non-superpowered version of Soukoku. They're already enemies via being on different sides but more than that....Naomi's intelligence and quick thinking + Gin's almost supernatural skill with knives? That's more soukoku-y than the more fighting-based partnership Akutagawa and Atsushi have.

But even more than that...they are both sisters to powerful members of their organisations, they are both the only significant character-based rather than author-based characters, and they both have that whole illusion/more than they seem thing going on. Also, IRL Akutagawa and IRL Tanizaki bickered or something about literature, didn't they?

Anyway, yeah...it would be cool to me to see them team up....

#its probably not gonna happen BUT IT SHOULD #they are the more fictional of all these fictional people #and partnering up to shake their world would honestly be symbolically cool #like the way characters kind of surpass their author in a sense...though that could also be orv brainrot speaking #and dont kill me for this but if we go by that...then akutagawa dying and then tanizaki dying... #death of the author anyone? #(yeah def orv brainrot infecting my bsd thoughts sorry) #idk i do absolutely love atsushi and weirdly think he deserves more despite being the mc... #...but i also VIOLENTLY want side characters like half of the agency and pm and guild to be explored more #anyway i blame tachiguin for their amazing tanizaki sibs metas #and also orv for the tags.... #and yes with this post i am officially back on tumblr yay! #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd musings #bsd naomi #bsd gin #character analysis #anyway watch as i get attached to this silly desire

[donationwayne]

Feelin Good (Could be Better) Chapter Four

Hello, just realized I never posted this over here. I posted chapter four of ten of my first ever chapter fic!! (completely written just posting as my irls beta it)

You can read the first, second, and third, and fourth chapter of my fic over on AO3 right here

This chapter, Buck has dinner with Chimney, Maddie, and his parents. (He gets a little drunk)

Summary

The Buckley parents come to town, turning Buck's already shaky mental status from precarious to worse. Despite avoiding a dreaded dinner at all costs, Buck consents to join Maddie, Chimney, and his parents for dinner. Buck is super fine thanks for asking, he'll just bake about it. And think about kissing Eddie, obviously. Secrets are revealed, leaving the 118 reeling.

snippet

“It's just that you were quiet on shift the rest of the day after Maddie stopped by, and you haven’t shown your face in the work group chat since. I’ve known you long enough to know when you’re spinning out a bit.” Buck laughs a little numbly. He occasionally forgot how perceptive Chimney could be. He was good at burying it under his goofball exterior. “What I’m trying to say is that if you need me to cover for you tonight, I can.” “I’ll be fine, Chim. It's just been… a really long time since I’ve seen my parents.” “You’ve never talked about them much,” Chimney considers. “When was the last time you saw them?” “When I dropped out of college, so maybe… when I was 19? We’ve had no contact since.” “Does Maddie know?” Chimney asks in concern. “Of course not. You know how she is… I just don’t want to worry her. She’s got enough to worry about. I don't want to be a burden. I’ll be fine tonight, Chim. Cross my heart.” Buck lies. “I can admit I’m being a little stubborn. I just need to get through dinner. It’ll be fine. Besides, it’ll be better for you if there’s a buffer.” Chimney procures a small bottle of rum from his jacket, offering it to Buck. “I figured this might work as a little liquid courage.” He grins when he spots the look of disbelief. “Listen, if I understand anything, it's complicated family dynamics.”

#ngl all the maddie haters are making me a lil sad #bc in my au i def made she that she knows Nothing #and he pretends like hes fine around her bc he doesn't want to worry her #plus we gotta remember the sheer amount of trauma she has also been through thank you #sorry i will stop now #i am a maddie defender #maddie buckley #chimney han #evan buckley #this is a buckley parents hate blog #this is a safe space for people who hate the buckley parents #the buckley parents #the buckley siblings #911 #911 abc #buddie #buddie fanfic #whump!buck #aubs writes fanfic

[malevolententity]

sometimes i wonder if m a dnd elitist and then i remember no. i actually just enjoy a wide spread of ttrpg systems indie and mainstream. and just get very annoyed that everyone else in the world is seemingly too allergic to shopping around for systems so instead of finding an indie system that does what they want. theyll just break dnd to the point where it doesnt even resemble dnd anymore. like oh? youre playing dnd 5e but youve changed half the stat names and all basic mechanics? and the only dice you roll is d6s?? GO BUY MONSTER OF THE WEEK. THAT IS THE SYSTEM U WANNA PLAY IT ALREADY EXISTS AND IS VERY FUN. YOU CAN PLAY OTHER GAMES ITS OKAY I PROMISE

#dnd is my least favorite system ive ever fucking played which is how i know m not a dnd elitist/snob #and am infact just an asshole who wishes people would branch to other systems #i also think dnd is just. a bad game if your table wants a roleplay narrative focused game because inherently #there are no mechanics to reward player interactions thats all homebrew and dnd doesnt really Allow for reward mechanics #but like thats a whole different conversation that i am simply not going to have at 2am. or ever #i might have it one day but. def not now #something something i think its beautiful that people make dnd into a roleplay narrative game. but it is infact. a dungeon war game. #and where dnd excels in my opinion is as a dungeon crawl puzzle game where you Can make lil guys who have compelling moments

[sunsetzer]

As someone who gets migraines especially from stress, I have started to hc Edgar as someone who gets stress migraines as well, because he's been running a kingdom by himself for ten years, and he had to deal with an alliance he Did Not want with the empire that totally killed his dad while also secretly helping a rebellion against said empire and also maintaining a persona to make the empire think he's too young and stupid to be doing that- *inhale*

AND THEN he breaks the alliance, and he's actively fighting the empire but he still has Figaro to think about constantly, and then the world ends and the castle gets trapped underground and he has to become a gang boss to find a way back in so he can save everyone before they suffocate- *inhale*

AND THEN they have to go find all their friends, and fight horrible nightmare monsters, and kill god, and finally try to rebuild the world that got destroyed post-game, and after all that now he's the leader of like... the only surviving nation after the apocalypse.

#and then i feel sad and want someone to bring him water and make him lay down #my mans cares so much abt his friends and his people even with a migraine hed try to keep working on whatever hes doing #edgar is def someone who acts more chill than he is theres no way he doesnt have anxiety #he just also has hundreds of people depending on him so he cant just shut down #final fantasy vi #ff6 #final fantasy 6 #ffvi #my post #edgar roni figaro #enjoy my late night angst i have plenty more where this came from #the returners live in my head rent free so i am thinking about them constantly #maybe i will post more hcs later

[recitedemise]

It doesn't need to be said (I am preaching to the choir), but after seeing a very bad faith interpretation of Gale nearly half a year after release, I am going to say it again regardless!

Gale is a victim, not a perpetrator. In his relationship with Mystra, he was preyed on and hurt, not Mystra. Yes, Mystra told Gale not to seek out the missing part of Weave that is a part of her, but Gale had no idea it was Karsite in nature and was not aware he was looking for something that was actively corrupt and dangerous until Act 3. Mystra did not inform him right out the gate. Gale may have went to seek it out despite her disapproval and erred and doomed himself for it, but Gale was also aiming solely to apologize for...wanting to be her equal. And I am saying it one more time: it is NOT Gale's fault for wanting to be on the same footing with his lover. No one wants to feel like they're looking UP at their lover, beneath them and not worthy of them. Gale was groomed. Gale was preyed on and eyed by Mystra since he was a young boy. He was her pupil, she, his mentor, and later, he became her lover. Of course Gale wants to feel equal to her. Of course Gale wants to be more. How could he not want to be more, to live up to his goddess that gave him an OUNCE of her attention? Lord forbid.

Gale is not some manipulator. How the idea that he, a mere mortal, could manipulate Mystra, a goddess, is truly beyond me—a goddess who told him to literally die to earn her forgiveness. While he may have had a more haughty personality in EA and was originally supposed to have tried to usurp Mystra in CONCEPT, a lot and a considerable lot has changed upon release. Gale is remarkably human. He is remarkably honest. He is so bare, so forward, and is practically the FIRST person to reveal to you everything you need to know about him among the party if you prove yourself trustworthy, which, let's be real, is a low bar (you save a child and he's impressed. Like. Truly. The bar is THAT low). Gale is arrogant, sure, but is also remarkably modest with his desires and has befuddlingly low self confidence and self worth. He does not try to manipulate Mystra or the player into anything. He's a dying man who honestly just wants to be told he's worthy of everything as just Gale DEKARIOS, not just as Gale of Waterdeep. He's ambitious because he has lived his whole life with the impression he's only worth something if he makes himself out to be something. There is no manipulation here, just a deeply wanting man who looks at 'the world is better FOR you' like it's worth more than all the riches in the world.

Gale may have his hang ups because he is well and truly traumatized, but that's because he's absolutely the victim in his situation. I get it. He's older. He's a grown man and Mystra talked so 'calmly' and didn't physically hurt him (even though she did turn a blind eye when Gale, you know, was afflicted with and living with a bomb in his chest), but that doesn't make Mystra any less the perpetrator of his traumas.

#OOC. #TBD. #Ugh... Still bad Gale takes in Feb 2024. okayyy... #the person who typed this said gale was a classic manipulator and they def believed #he withheld information and knew the weave was karsite the whole time #okay. so. we just want to believe so badly gale is a bad guy and twist facts to suit that very #bad faith interpretation... man the way people will do anything to point at gale #and just go see hes a dangerous incel or what have you... oh. truly not... #i am also very fed up of people going 'well they talked calmly so they weren't abusive.' #no more. as someone who had to endure my abuser being 'so calm' in their nonstop condescension and manipulations like MYSTRA i am here to #say: cork it. you dont need to be sneering or yelling to be abusive. and for that matter #gale getting angry after he realizes mystra wronged him isnt abusive or toxic either. hes reacting FINALLY to the wrongs of his abuser #like. man. just enough. #i have a lot of thoughts. clearly. but gale was essentially gaslit into thinking he deserved what he got. my abuser also did that to me #and i just think we should stop blaming victims :)

[rewritingcanon]

i remember when i first got into the hp fandom when i was first reading the books i was forcing myself to ship drarry because i wanted to bond with everyone else who was doing it ☠️☠️ i was so excited to get up to hbp to read all of the moments harry was apparently ‘obsessed’ with draco and when i finally read the book i was so damn disappointed 😭 like i open the book expecting drarry and get smacked in the face with HINNY?? yall are actual LIARS im sayinggg

#‘what does this mean? does this mean i just bought ratatouille for nothing?’ #still cant find it in me to ship it. idk what happened but i never found the high everyone else did ☠️ #when they overhype the canon moments of drarry<<<< #back then it felt like u were either a dramione shipper or a drarry shipper and i def didnt want to be with the dramione fans 😭 #i was neither. but i was (and still am) a romione girl till death #anyways drarry is so overhyped the reason people ship it has to be at least half motivated by fanon #harry potter #hp #draco malfoy #drarry slander #hinny #hbp #half blood prince #dramione slander #honest to god i WAS on drarrys side i swear. but it lost me in the plot… there are better enemy to lover stories out there #rewriting #no hate only peace and love #edit tags: this draft from like august but i was too scared to post it lmao. my drarry followers this has nothing to do with u bookies 🫶🫶

[didhewinkback]

i know we are somewhat in the dark ages for fic engagement but we are in a golden era of fic writing OKAY so i wanted to shout out my fave writers on here bc you absolutely should be reading their work (everyone on this list is a legend who needs no help from little old me but wanted to shout them out anyway bc theyre talented af):

@oh-honey-styles, @harrytheehottie, @harry-on-broadway, @andwhenshesays, @harrysblackcoat, @for-fucks-sake-h, @hslllot, @harrystylesgotmefuckedup,

#fic rec #i def forgot people and am scrambling my brain #theres also writers that havent written in a few years that i re-read all the time but didnt want to tag them #in case they arent comfortable #but their work is in my fic rec tag ! #this is just me geeking out

[eurydicees]

i get the appeal of being a hater for sure but personally i was built to be a lover and to love things and to see the beauty and worth in everything i choose to see beauty and worth in sometimes for no other reason than that i want to see beauty and worth in them. like i don’t want to hate things for fun! why are we all so mean to each other! you do you but personally im gonna choose to unapologetically love the things i love

#this does NOT mean the things i love are exempt from criticism #it means i am embracing childlike whimsy and adult adoration for things that i want to #no EVEN THOUGH and no IN DESPITE OF them being cringe or silly or boring or weird #hating things can def be good in moderation sure i guess #but isn’t it so much more fun to just love the things you love #instead of wasting your time hate watching stuff. #or telling yourself your interests are stupid because other people are hate watching them #like life is short and boring. #i’m not gonna waste time telling people who stupid i think their favorite media is. #*how #i’m gonna watch my favorite anime and i’m gonna read fics that were written with love and im gonna write poetry only i get to read #like. you can be a hater if u get joy from that. im gonna love enough for both of us

[l-ucitiel]

i'm so sorry for all of the ooc lately & i will be getting to some writing later, i just wanted to make an official post about this because i will be updating my rules. I WILL NOT TAG RADIOAPPLE. it takes up a good like 75% of my blog & is my personal favorite ship. if you need it tagged / don't like the ship, it's highly recommended that you don't follow me.

#*` 𝟎𝟎𝟐 / out of character. #/ im getting down w the sickness rn so i will add this / write some later #/ but i have seen a couple people with this in their rules and i just wanted to make it clear #/ because i dont like being rude but im like. def not going to tag it i am sorry

[isame-allen]

Question does drew know the dark part of jr?

No he doesn’t know

Delusion did told drew that he also takes care of the crime department along with dream, but he says that he helps with the weaponry and battle strategies

Which is only like 40% true

#yea delusion takes out people in like the worst way imaginable but hey he did use certain tools and torture methods #which is basically the same as weaponry and battle strategies. am I wrong or am I wrong? #besides why would they want their ‘kind for his own good’ brother to know. they’d def gonna have one hella of a talk #with drew when he finds out abt delusions department #drew von licht #h!ds delusion #sibling au #we are curiosity