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Y'know something I really love about Tumblr is that it's one of the few sites I can actually SHOW my art.

Everywhere else restricts you to squares or specific rectangles and it's so frustrating. So much art is in all sorts of unique aspect ratios and shapes that most social media is extremely hostile to or straight up won't even allow!

#just. thinking about it. #i cant post most of my art on Instagram lol #also sorry idk why im posting so much this morning #yes i do. tired can't sleep bad days the oast few days and about to see my family #so posting is keeping me awake before i gotta get going

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wide art

Still happy with all of these!

(patreon ko-fi store)

#ok self reblogging cause i just noticed. how few complete faces there are #why do i keep doing that #on twitter people will be like 'face train!!!' #or like 'show some eyes!!!' #and then i look at my art and it's all like this #like bro i dont HAVE any #i keep drawing stuff without faces!!! #probably in part cause comics are... mostly faces... #so im like ughhh #but i dont actually know #i dont think that's it #i think i just like the expression through other means #and eyes are always so attention grabbing and central #something i absolutely love to utilize sometimes #but most of the time its almost too much haha #self reblog

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Y'know if you're not reading my tags you're missing out

[image ID: tags from op "every time I use the word 'benevolent' I remember that guy who called me 'sensei'??? Because he asked me for a crit and I was basically like 'i really don't like your comic' but obviously constructively. And then he kept messaging me asking for critique and I had to tell him to stop. And then he made a video review of my last comic and the whole review was like 'yeah so I haven't read this comic. Looks pretty sick though. I basically harassed her and she had to say to stop lol' anyways. That was weird. He used the word 'benevolent' a lot so I always think of him. Sending good vibes I hope he's still making comics"]

#is it weird to call myself op #whatever #me looking at my blog to look at my own art cause i like it so much #and then reading my own tags xause i also like them #its not narcissism on god #its a healthy ego #why would i make or say stuff i dont like if i can help it #i feel like my tags should be better on the 'look at my tags' post but whatever #this is REAL this is ME #my tags have all kinds of fun stuff in them usually on god #well idk #anyways #text post

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I hate posting on social media.

But I do it anyways.

Every time I post something, it risks people getting mad at me. Of getting big, too big, and coming back around to hurt me. It's happened before. It'll happen again.

And yet I post anyways.

Because I think a lot of people feel very much alone. And I think that the power of art is that it can, for a moment, make someone feel less alone.

When I look at art I can feel the artist behind it, saying "I made this, and I wanted you to see it. And I want you to see yourself in it too. And I want you to know I love you." And I feel a connection in the humanity of every stroke they made. Through millennia and cultures and lifestyles, no matter what, there is always the artist behind the work, and I know I'm not alone.

Every time I share something my art transforms, entirely against my will. While I'm working it's reflective, relaxing, explorative. I'm learning while I draw, about myself and the things around me and how I see things.

And then I post.

And now it's in someone else's hands. They see it, and everything I tried to put into it is irrelevant. It only matters what someone gets out of it.

This transformation is magical, but it is also extremely vulnerable.

And it's scary!

But I share anyways.

Because I made this. And I wanted you to see it. And I want you to see yourself in it too.

And I want you to know I love you.

#i know this is kinda funny when you look at my art and it's the vampire yaoi #but im actually so serious about this!!! #everything is meant for connection #even if it's a silly meme that took 5 minutes #it made me laugh while i was making it #and i wanted to make you laugh too #because i love you #i want you to enjoy my silly story #i want you to be maybe a little confused #maybe a little reflected #maybe a little inspired #because i love you! #and i want you to feel seen #to feel heard #to FEEL!!! #my god i want you to feel something #and so i create! #and i put all of me into it as much as i can #all my little weird bits and undesireable parts as well despite my wishes #and i hope that maybe by making myself vulnerable #you can see all my pieces and perhaps youll recognize that we're made of the same stuff #and maybe youll know its okay to be yourself #with all your bits and pieces #that you struggle to love. #well i love them. #i love you. #and i want you to love you too #anyways #I'm just thinking. #i'll probably delete this later

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wide art

Still happy with all of these!

(patreon ko-fi store)

#I committed to myself that I'll put my links on my art #auuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh... #AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH #feels bad but I gotta do it #enough people going omgggg I wish I could get this as a print #on my art #that makes me go #YOU CAN #YOU CAN HAVE IT AS A PRINT #AAAAAAAAAAAA #anyways #art #my art #illustration #digital art #ocs #my ocs #illustrator #digital painting #digital illustration

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Hello, I believe that I used one of your old artworks that I saw in a screenshot on pinterest as inspiration for a school music project. I was hoping to get permission to use it as a base for an short animation for the same class. Below I've put the artwork I'm talking about. If you're against me using it in my animation I completely understand as well, just let me know. Also, if I've located the wrong person please let me know. I've put the photo down below.

yeah that's me, go ahead

If you're using it heavily just credit me somewhere and you're all good!

Thanks for asking!

here's the 2 versions of the image I can still upload to make things easier for you, the original gets removed because the original post got nuked (the whole OP blog did, it wasnt cause of me at all) but it's just the same drawing cropped down to a square

#if you feel like it and you're using my art go ahead and send me a few bucks on kofi haha #goes for pretty much everything #like I'm putting my art out there for free I understand people are gonna take it and use it and whatever #that's all fine I've come to terms with it #credit is nice as always #but yeah like go ahead its fine #you dont have to pay me to be clear I mostly just say that like hey I mean #just in case #asks #calcifur555

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me: whoa why arent I focusing today this is so weird I've got very tangible tasks to do today??? why cant I get anything done???

me: oh

me: oh....

the dr pepper I didnt drink: is there someone you forgot to ask

#guys dr pepper is keeping me alive right now I swear #the only time I get any work done is when I have dr pepper idk what it is #dr is right this shit should be prescribed cause what the hell #I'm really hoping that once I start taking the wellbutrin the doc prescribed me it helps #I dont wanna start yet tho cause I'm about to go on a family trip and I wanna have drinks #and you can't drink on it #so #yeah #idk why I'm posting this #probably cause I can't focus ltierally at all #I've drawn actually straight up nothing #it always feels so silly #like oh well then what did you do #yeah so thats the thing #just cause I didnt draw does not mean I did something in its place #days just gone idk what to tell u

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Hngwhshhdhsa my eldest son by @deoidesign

Thanks for the commission!!! I love him 🥺 💗

#I'm so glad you're happy with it!!! #also idk if you read tags but I have a printer I. could print and send it to you #if you like actually really did want it pinned up on your wall I can make that happen LOL #commission #thank you for commissioning me!!!! #he was fun to draw

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I love Time and Time Again!! It was genuinely interesting to see two characters talk things out. Of course they kept secrets, but they knew when to reveal them and that made me want to stick around and read it. Thankyou for making such a wonderful comic!!

Thank you so much!!!

This really means a lot to me <3

I think there's generally a tendency to believe that relationships can't be nice in a romance or the story will be boring.

I understand where this idea comes from, stories should have conflict! And, real world relationships have conflict, as well. They always will! It makes sense that most stories centered around relationships would, inevitably, at some point, have disagreements, fights, anger...

I get why others enjoy it, its messy it's fun it's drama! but for me personally it just stresses me out since I've done so much work to NOT be like that!

As a writer, when presented with two people who are reasonably at odds with eachother, where neither of them is in the wrong per se, but someone still ends up hurt... it's a fun challenge to write them working through it in a believable way. it's a fun challenge, too, to put them into situations that feel equal and human.

I just think it's a necessary thing for who I am as a person to write relationships the way I do, and so I'm just very very very glad that other people resonate with it as well!

It means a lot. Thank you.

#me trying not to ramble on for paragraphs impossible challenge #asks #anon #I always love to talk about how uhhh #the perceptions we have of how relationships should be displayed #idk I dont think that theres any one way to do it #those relationships where people dont communicate and they fight all the time... #those happen. they happen all the time irl. #of course they would be reflected in fiction constantly! #but just for me personally #after YEARS and years and years of working on myself so I dont do that #I pause. think the best of my partner before jumping to conclusions. #take the moment to ask him hey #has anything been bothering you lately? things have been good but I want to be sure there's not little things I've done to hurt you #and i listen when hes telling me that yes. it did bother him when I made that joke the other day actually #and to learn to be patient #and not cry immediately #and listen #and ask instead of assuming #and always think the best thoughts first or whatever #its done me a world of good #and I dont think it is healthy for me personally as a person to write an unhealthy relationship with poor communication #because I get uhm... extremely invested in my writing... #in the way that it very much helps me learn about myself and practice habits. #cause obviously I still fail. of course I will #and I just would like to get as much practice as I can #of being better #for me and for him #and for all my friends

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Hi, I kind of have a question, Adam said that can't walk in the sun when doesn't drink blood, but what exactly happens? Do vampires just burn immediately, begin to be more sensitive to sunburn or is it another kind of thing?

so, in time and time again I really wanted blood to be something of a medicinal need for vampires. it's not a 1:1 metaphor of course, please don't try to think of it that way, but it's how I conceptualize it.

He needs blood to go in the sun, to heal, to "be something of a human again" and it also grants him the ability to time travel, shapeshift, compel others...

Without blood, he can't do these things. So, to be honest, without blood vampires would just... die. They can't exist without it. being in the sun uses blood, its dangerous. it wears you down. it makes you weaker. it can kill you!

I realize this ends up making my vampires feel weak, but... it's a metaphor for chronic illness. They have limited energy and if they do not take the time and the 'medications' they need to recover, they'll become weak or die. They have to manage their limited energy.

there's extreme privilege for vampires who have steady access to blood, like Adam does. His access to blood lets him time travel, transform, go in the sun constantly, etc. Vampires without as much access have to become nocturnal, they get stuck in one place, they have to be careful because even a small cut can cost precious resources...

A desperate vampire might end up hurting someone for what they need. a vampire with people who are willing to help them can get by, or even thrive. a vampire with none of these will die.

I know it's not the most satisfying answer, but it is my answer! My experiences being chronically ill are very much at play here.

#I dont want people to think too much about it as a metaphor for chronic illness #cause. OBVIOUSLY 'monster who kills people' is kind of loade #but as you can tell in my writing I'm sort of doing my own kinds of vampires #idk. I think within the confines of my story it's a metaphor I'm comfortable with people reading #but within the broad scope of vampires as a concept not so much #I mean even within the confines of my story I think that it has severe limitations as a metaphor #just. yknow it is the internal logic I'm using and the intent I have #asks #anon #also you dont have to start all your asks with 'hi i sort of have a question' #its okay to just ask me things #pretty sure these are all coming from the same person and I'm pretty sure I know who #not to freak you out just #its a tell haha #its ok to just ask me things I promise #I enjoy talking about my work #I'm happy to get the questions

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this is still one of my favorite paintings of all time...

print of it

#ughhhh fuck it looks sooo good I'm still so happy with this one #I have to make something else thats like. idk. this same vibe and style #I love painting like this #UGHHH I love making art #been looking at my art lately like actually yknow what. I'm really good at this #like my art looks good. I'm good at what I do. I deserve to have my job #etc etc #were so back #digital illustration #my art #painting #digital painting #illustration #ocs #my ocs #time and time again #artists on tumblr #digital art #ttawebcomic #adam and steve

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I'm opening commissions!

10 slots!!!

Bust shots - $100 USD per character Half Body - $125 per character Full Body - $150 per character Simple BG included!

Examples of my art:

I also do Digital paintings, Animations, Comic pages, and Character design!

If you're interested, you can inquire for a quote

Feel free to DM me or email me at [email protected] with inquiries!

Thank you!

#working on an animation comm right now ( #(hell yeah hell yeah hell yeah) #so that'll take me a few days but if you wanna get in on the queue hit me up!! #I'm good at art and you can get some of it from me for a limited time only #while I'm on. hiatus #cause i don't get paid while I'm taking time to heal #so i haven't been paid for. a few months #and now i uhhhh #yeah anyways #commission me! #no pressure i know im not cheap lol #but #do it #no haha it's okay #do it (gun emoji)

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Taking notes mostly for me but also for some friends about the efficacy of marketing online!

I think artists (myself included) generally operate as if people who WANT to support us will find our patreons and stores and ko-fis, and we feel really bad about putting ourselves out there more.

so as an artist who mostly markets "passively" in pinned posts, maybe a post once a month, etc, I'm curious to see for myself and for other artists how well (or poorly) this has been working.

#yeah i think i should post it on everything too #then at least when smth breaks containment and gets a few thousand notes. people can msybe consider throwing me a few bucks #plus now that i can print ANY of my art? yeah #should make it mote obvious people can buy it #cause #seeing notes of people saying 'omg i want this as a print' hurts... #YOU CAN HAVE IT #YOU CAN HAVE IT AS A PRINT #PPEEEEAAASEEEEE #self reblog #reminder to self to promote that people can get my art as prints later

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Alright now that this quick poll is over...

Artists

You have to advertise yourselves more (myself included)

This is some tangible proof that people do not know ways to support you even exist unless you tell them

Sure, this poll is probably skewed... Towards the most active members of my audience who see most of my posts! not even 30% of the people who voted KNOW that I have a patreon. And these people are likely also readers of my comics! Which have a small patreon icon at the end of every update!

If your promo isn't obvious and frequent, most people will miss it entirely.

So please, share your posts more! I promise people aren't just avoiding you, they want to support you but many of them probably don't even know they can!

Taking notes mostly for me but also for some friends about the efficacy of marketing online!

I think artists (myself included) generally operate as if people who WANT to support us will find our patreons and stores and ko-fis, and we feel really bad about putting ourselves out there more.

so as an artist who mostly markets "passively" in pinned posts, maybe a post once a month, etc, I'm curious to see for myself and for other artists how well (or poorly) this has been working.

#isnt meant to make people feel bad #moreso its meant as a reminder #like #hey! #people probably don't know they can support you! #and that its okay for you to make things more obvious #it doesnt make you annoying. its probably a lot of people's first time seeing it #I'm saying this and doing this mooostly to try and convince myself to promote myself #but! its valuable for others too! #like look!!! #I'm a 'big artist' to a lot of people #I mean. I dont consider myself one. but many people do #and I have... 30 patrons...? #despite over 100k readers on my comic #cause people just dont fuckin know it exists #you gotta put yourself out there more!!! #me yelling at myself in the mirror #self reblog #additional comment #reply

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sometimes I feel like discord is lacking emojis and so I make them myself. these ones in particular are my favorites

frog, toad, and soup!

Feel free to use them if you'd like!

#im glad people liked these so much #i knew Tumblr would be a safe home for them #self reblog

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i know it's kinda late to ask this, but Time And Time Again will become a fast pass?

If you mean daily pass, my answer is basically "not if I can help it!"

If it's on daily pass it was webtoons doing, not mine.

#asks #anon #i want to keep it free for everyone as long as possible! #just morally thats where i land.

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Hi guys! So as you may or may not know, my mother has been hit with a very large vet bill she cannot afford to pay for.

My comic is launching next month, but to try and help raise funds towards this bill I've decided to open up preorders for the PDF ahead of time! You can check that out here:

If you're not interested in the comic but still want to help out, we've got a gofundme set up here:

And if you can't purchase or donate, reblogs would be greatly appreciated—either this post or the post where I explain the situation in more detail. Thank you! ❤

#rare promo reblog from me #this artist is a friend of mine so im biased #but fuuuuuck their art is soooo fucking good #I've been wanting to read this for SO LONG ill probably buy this later just to finally get to see it #youve got no idea #please yall pirate lesbians please #or just help them spread this around!!! #they also have a commissions/fundraising post if you wanna go seek that out