#I am the body; you the better part

[sluckythewizard]

THEY could give me the surgurey i need (inspired alot by evojellys designs for em. GREAT STUFF)

#THE SUCKENING IS S O COOOOL GUYS VIV N VEX ARE SO FUCKING COOL AND FUNNY... CHARLIES FLAVOR OF DERANGED IS JUST #SO PERFECT FOR THIS CAMPAIGN.. I LOVE HOW HE DOES HORROR AND EVIL AND SCARY AND AAUAUUUGHGHGUUHGHG #their teeht arnt spiked like normal vampires but theyre sharp n smooth like a Beak. in my beautiful heart #ALSO UGHGHGH BIG SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 7 BUT #THAT THING WITH THE MAP. WITH THE DEMONS N VAMPS. THEYRE KEEPING TRACK OF THEM. #'so viv. was that one of mine or one of yours?' IS THIS A PET PROJECT OF THEIRS OR SOMETHING. ARE THEY PULLING MORE STRINGS THAN WE THINK #IS ONE TUGGING AT THE DEMONS AND THE OTHER TUGGING AT THE FANGS? PITTING THEM AGAINST EACHOTHER SO THEY KILL EACHOTHER? #AND THEN ITS EASIER TO TAKE THE BODIES FOR THEIR FUNNY CREATIONS?? IT PROLLY WASNT EASY TO GET SUPPLIES B4 EDWARD CAME INTO POWER #BUT OH MY GOD.. POOR EMIZEL.. THE MEMORY OF HIS CREW WAS TAKEN AND THEN HE WATCHES A BUNCHA THEM GET HORRIBLY DISMATNLED N DISTORTED #HE KNOWS HE CARED FOR THEM AT SOMEPOINT N HE KNOWS THE MEMORIES WERE TAKEN BUT HE JUST. CANT. AUAUUGGUAHGUAHGUAHGUHG #THAT SUCKS SO BAD FOR HIMMM EMIZEEEELL EMIZEL CMERE BABY BOY ILL SMOKE U OUT BOY. GET AWAY FROM THOSE EVIL GUYS I AM BETTER N CAN BE TRUSTE #viv n vex are so cool...theyre fuckin CRAAZYY N SCARYYY BUT ALSO. SO FUNNY... I LOVE A PUNNY JACKASS... 'LOOKS LIKE YOUVE BEEN: DISARMED!' #'IVE MADE THAT JOKE 6 TIMES AND ITS STILL FUNNY EVERYTIME' i gotta draw more of their bullshit... #im already doodling up the 'YOU CAN CALL ME MOMMY!!' bit. i gotta draw more o the monstors n the horrors too... especially emizels sire UGH #I LOVE VILLIAINS THAT ARE SO GENUINELY SCARY BUT SO FUNNY... charlie just does evil ppl like no one else idk what it ISSSS #okayokayoka y im normal im. relistening to the ep n im at the edward part. oh my god. i actually love him. he actually makes my skin crawl #IM DONEthats my rambles for tha day. back into my hole i go. also i have comms open. cmere pspspss i need moneyyy heyyyy cmereeeee #check out my main artblog. GO!!!

[whaliiwatching]

hm. them. also ding ding

#spider man: across the spider verse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #spiderdykes #new tag for the lesbians!!! #ough writing is so hard. but it is happening kind of #drawing kisses are so hard but i am going to get better FoR THEM #in this house we love and appreciate fat bodies and soft parts!!!!!!! #theyre ace4ace and t4t in every timeline of mine. by the way. if you didnt know #yes including the PURPLE drawing #im lowkey addicted to drawing butch peter but i also have almost no drawings /of/ her bc they have to be pERFECT #trying to get out more sketches than failing to complete less larger ones #like the olden days… #ding ding is an INSANE cat. meows like a chainsmoker in heat. tries to eat everything. does not know her left from right #ugh im just so love them much. ughgghhh

[gatheredfates]

Also related but I can't be bothered adding it to the original post: we should be allowed to make 'ugly' work. Don't treat your creative process like a content farm, I'm begging you.

#｡･ﾟﾟ･ — sea speaks #i'm very passionate about this as someone who is very like #'happy' with who they are #both in body #creative process #etc. #it took me a long time to get where i am #and part of that is just being like #i do not exist for other people's approval #it's so so so important trust #trust!!!!!!!!!!! #there's a difference between uplifting yourself #and being confident in YOUR ability #and egotism #anyone who says otherwise can kick rocks #you cannot bring me down!! #my brain could do better than you and she's a whipped bitch!

[bhaalsdeepbat]

Like the way Astarion lights up at the prospect of killing the Githyanki patrol and his excitement when Ethel runs and he's all "now it's a hunt !!"

Heroic Astarion who still fucking FROTHS at the mouth at a good chase because anything worth eating is a little dangerous. He's still sweet and emotionally available, but he also still needs to hunt to eat and that prey drive gnaws at him regardless of if he hunts innocents or bandits. He might as well try to enjoy himself (and he does. Without guilt. Durge is actually quite into it)

#bat rambles #astarion #im sorry i am not ok about this vampire twink #durge who also still has some prey drive instincts bc theyre still made from the body of bhaal #i promise im trying to be normal #bg3 #astarion is durge's princess and durge throws their body across running water for astarion to step on so he dont get hurt #he's still pathetic but he is also a predator #i also like the idea of that being part of the me vs them dynamic he constantly has to work through #cus can you imagine? e #everyone you meet is a propsective meal and he just got out of his “arrangement” where that was part of the deal #he HAS to see himself as better than the cattle and Cazador kinda #reinforces that kind of thinking #but redeemed durge or a good tav helping guide him away from thinking like that #i think hed still have those moments of #awe is the snack trying to fight back #and be intense abt his bloodlust and hunger #but he'd move away from being like GNOMES DONT COUNT AS PEOPLE BUT POULTRY RIGHT

[yanderespamton78]

Pinup!!!!! the baby!!!! the guy!!!!

sorry if this looks kinda iffy the majority of this was drawn between 11pm and 2:30am so i was very tired loll

also yes that is a totoro bag i dont care if totoro doesnt exist in cyber city he has a totoro bag come at me

Pinup belongs to @turntableart

#read all the tags before you reblog otherwise you will be confused #i feel like i got the body type wrong uaughhh #i feel like the proportions are inaccurate #im blaming it on the clothes i promise the sketch looked good then the clothes went and ruined it #i feel really bad admitting this but now that i think about it i literally never draw chubby characters #all my addisons are pretty long and gangly for the most part and then spamton is just very small in my style hes not really pudgy #and tbh i didnt really draw full bodies very often before addisons and spamton but my one (1) oc was also pretty long and lanky #probably because i myself am pretty long and lanky #ueuugough hauguh #i need to practice more #also i feel like the shoes look weird #im generally not too happy with it but its ok ig #i was terrified of making the features too exaggerated and being offensive and i think i went to much the other way and just made him skinn #ffs #ill draw him again i promise #and it will look better pinky promise #🤙🤙🤙 theres no proper pinky emoji #i love him tho hes cute #i really like his original design #uururuguggg #ugh debating whether i should even post this or if i should keep tinkering with it #im gonna tinker with it a bit more i will continue writing tags when im done #ok tinkering over im much happier with it now #i made him a bit shorter and that solved all my problems #i think i have a habit of drawing characters too tall ngl lmao #also not too happy with the rendering but its good enough #uh im only posting the tinkered version that im happy with so if you want the untinkered version then just ask lol #pixel art #art #turn off the lights arg

[winterlilyarts]

More photos from the samza shoot!

I am so in love with these photos I can not describe it

Photography done by mangobread.photography on Instagram!

#snowlilycosplay #mizuki akiyama #project sekai #prsk mizuki #prsk #mizuki akiyama cosplay #prsk cosplay #project sekai cosplay #i am so proud of this cosplay #and these photos are just mwah #also one of the only full body shots of it that i like #i gotta get better at doing full body shots of cosplays #also for this one i need to do a photo that highlights the embroidery on the like tailcoat piece #it is one of my favorite parts #the joys of deciding how to do details #i love just having fun with it #once again if you wanna talk about cosplay or just sewing in general i will gladly chat about it

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

so fucking upset. i looked up what's considered concerning weight loss and got a statistic. i looked up the same question but specified teens and i got a bunch of articles about how to lose weight. what the fuck

#tw weight loss #? idk if that tags necessary but better safe than sorry #past this point there is discussion of ARFID and stuff #LMFAO also ive had a medium to mild case of ARFID my entire life and no one noticed past concern for my pickiness #i say medium to mild because ive gotten better recently #i even ate half a bowl of the noodles i dont like the other day. AND they had been touched by shrimp & cabbage juice & soft peanuts #i mean i did drown them in soy sauce first and got nauseous thinking about it the rest of the day. but progress #i mean. im the type of person to skip a meal or barely eat because i dont like the food available or its too loud where i am #my adhd impacts it too like sometimes ill forget to eat or wont be able to make anything that day #but like goddamn. a growing child should be gaining weight. 'we should keep an eye on that' every single time and then no action #you know maybe thats part of why my body hurts sometimes and feels weird and shaky other times #its hard to tell based on how bony i am or whatever because i also naturally am a string bean and im not. like. starving myself #i get the same comments about how i should eat more and how im so skinny when im healthy and when im not #or i used to. people are generally less intrusive now that im older #gosh i need to flex my metaphorical brain muscles more i put way too much thought into the wording of this

[apocalyptic-dancehall]

hey!!! harkening back to this post, i drew it a while ago and forgot that i was done coloring. verrrry sketchy and messy and doodly

#- gijinkatrap #it's a concept tho. i'm not even sure if i'm satisfied with the colors #context in case you don't care about the og post: i had a spontaneous thoughtspark about genshinified blorbo. leading into this #+!!! HUGE credit to hal for refreshing me about visions and stuff #i don't think he'd have like. an ACTUAL vision or anything tho considering the nature of meks. just cos it looks neat. (cryo + pneuma) #i'm already probably gonna start wondering how i'm gonna do this with the regular ver. bc ofc i am #i am NOT putting these in the main tags like the animal crossing thing bc context and shit #and i know his other hand is missing it's bc it didn't fit in the glove. pretend it's the same as the one i DID draw #i don't think this'll be too serious or anything i mean. i plan on making him use a fucking umbrella to bludgeon enemies #if genshin had unique body types.. sigh. he'd be shorter than the med. male base + a bit wider. plus holey limbs #the only part of this concept that isn't clicking with me is his sleeves.. but i'll do better #and the armor.. mmm..... i'll tweak it a little #- velveteen pen-scribblings ]

[straydogged]

weight gain as an outward indicator of healing my beloved!!!!

#thinking about how much happier I am being. fat? idk if that term actually applies to me or not because Dysmorphia #but I have gained a good amount of weight since I started getting better and even more since I moved out of my parents house #I was only as skinny as I was because there was nothing safe for me to eat in the house and that really encouraged and enabled my ED #I have learned to love food since moving out and yeah! I've gained 60 pounds from my lowest! but I am eating more regularly than I ever did! #I don't love my body for a lot of reasons but I am measurably better and more healed than ever before #anyways if part of your healing process has included gaining weight I love you so much and I am so proud of how far you've come

[sysig]

VUXisms (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Or if you prefer my very Normal Collection of ZEX stimming lol #I'm not choosing to read alien behaviours through a neurodivergent lense you can't prove anything #Okay you got me yes I am lol - in conjunction with my ADHD Max HC (which I am only more convinced of lol) I went into this with #Really any kind of self-soothing behaviour fascinates me :D And ZEX definitely needs the soothing ;; #But it's not just the stimming! Though I did keep pretty diligent notes about that lol he's deeply interesting to me! #He's a texture person! Part of that is due to being VUX and having very processed food but if it fits it fits! #I'm also a texture person - again I have too many notes relating to ZEX lol #I also find it charming (or sad - whichever is applicable at the time!) when ZEX eats in ''odd'' ways haha ♪ #Eating without utensils - you can always just wash your hands you do you <3 #The weighted blanket lol so - I had a very normal and measured reaction to ZEX enjoying full-body pressure lol #Solely and purely intellectual! Of course! VUX enjoy swimming! Full-body pressure makes complete sense! #And he's a tactile person on top of that - pressure good for multiple reasons! I really do think he'd sleep better with a weighted blanket ♪ #Back to stimming! I really loved the scene of him opening the water bottle and his therapist being So Impatient with him about it lol #Let him figure it out! He's very intelligent! Very skilled at finding weak points and exploiting them hehe <3 #But then he runs his finger on the lip of the bottle! Wine-glassing it while he talks hehe <3 I love him #Humming!! Another stim I relate to! Not so much now since it was ''encouraged'' out of me so I may be doubly biased towards him using it hee #Too delighted to focus on utensil lessons and yet he's still clever enough to pay attention to multiple things at once hehehe ♫ #And then aside from his actual biggest stim he plays with his hair quite a lot - in various ways and to different ends :D #Running his hands through it to self-soothe or tugging on it to express - I kinda read it as him trying to move his head feelers around haha #Not quite the same but something! #Oh and then his biggest stim - just looking at humans lol it is very dopamine-delivering <3 And he has dopamine now! Very powerful :3c #Hhhhh human chemistry for VUX behaviours <3 It's so interesting to me hehe ♪

[every-sasuke-uchiha]

#every sasuke #everysasuke #sasuke uchiha #naruto #chapter 112 #chunin exams #// okay i am so confused about something #i know sasuke got better at taijutsu because he evisioned lee's movements after he copied him #but isn't a huge part of taijustu is that your body needs to be able to do it #not just that you copied it #how did sasuke get his body to be able to do this in one month? #especially when it took lee years

[sillyfairygarden]

your like the modern version of those renaissance painters who would draw just like a bunch of nude people to flex that they had mastered anatomy. in a good way thoug ur art goes CRAZY <3

woaughh thank you nonnie,,, i love drawing nude bodies they’re so FUN < guy obsessed with practicing anatomy

#would you believe me if i said the saddest part of these pieces is having to put clothes on/ cover up the characters 😔 #i’ve heavily toyed with the idea of making a side acct to publish the less sfw variants and doodles… for now they stay hidden tho #i just think bodies are so beautiful. i am FAR from mastery but i get better with every piece <3 #asks

[girlscience]

Okay, obviously I have some body image issues. This is very clear to pretty much everyone who knows me. I have had them since I hit about 10 years old I think? That gives me 15 years of disliking the way I look, for one reason or another. I have tried a lot of things throughout that time to change my perception of myself. And currently, I feel like I am stuck in a weird place that I can't figure out how to escape.

I understand that there are studies now showing that dieting and working out don't actually work long term for most people. I know that getting into that mostly causes things like yo-yo dieting and circular weight gain/loss. I know that being fat is being shown to not actually be unhealthy in the ways it has often been shown as and perceived to be. I know that literally all the media everywhere is blasting me with idealized bodies that pretty much do not exist or only exist through extremely unsustainable/unhealthy means.

I have tried for so long to believe in and promote body neutrality or positivity for myself and other people. I constantly refuse to let myself think about what I see in the mirror or in pictures. I tell myself to get exercise for the physical and mental health benefits, not for my physical appearance. I try to view my body for what it can do and not how it looks. I tell myself to live the life I want to live now, rather than waiting to live it till I have the body I imagine living that life. Without exaggeration, I am fairly certain I think about these things every single day.

And none of it is working.

I actually feel I dislike my appearance now more than I did even a year ago. I feel like I am constantly noticing things about my body that I never did before or new changes to my body, and I am deeply uncomfortable with them. And I want to do something about it, and clearly simply changing my mentality isn't doing anything. I want to diet and exercise. But I also know it likely won't be a permanent change. I am concerned that I would give myself an eating disorder. And I'm also concerned that I would be feeding into diet/exercise culture. I am worried about hurting the people around me who are also fat. I am anxious about the fact that I am not actually that large so I don't want to talk about it with other people because I know it will make people who are larger than I am feel terrible. I don't want to make other people who are gaining weight feel bad for that. But, I hate the way I look.

This is not sustainable. At some point something will break and I think it might end up being my brain. I am worried about how that would end up. The things I do for my brain and my body shouldn't be about how it might affect other people, it should be for me. But I don't want to be bad for the things I do. I want and have wanted for so long to look like a powerbuilder/warrior/dwarf/strongman lifter/crossfit athlete/etc. I want to be big. I want to be visibly strong and powerful. And I am absolutely not. And I know I struggle with commitment and discipline and all of that, but I also know I struggle a lot with how this desire appears to other people.

Really, I think what this is all coming down to is other people's opinions. I dislike the way I look and am told that's bad. I want to change the way I look and I'm told that's bad. I do nothing and get told that's bad. I have to want these things for the right reason, in the right way, and have to talk about it right all the time. And I just can't. I don't like the way I look and I wish I looked like a brick shithouse and everyone else can fucking suck it.

#please if you know me irl don't read this and then tell me nice things about the way i look #i appreciate that you want to make me feel better but that's not what i'm looking for with this #i am mostly just trying to work out how i feel and what i want to do about it #and what my exact thoughts are about all of it #for example until writing that out i didn't even realize a big part of the circles i'm running in #are entirely about what other people think or how other people might perceive my actions #i am not telling other people to work out #i am not forcing people to go the gym with me #i actively don't want to make other people feel bad or do anything to disparage the choices they make #about their bodies #i do not want to starve myself #i don't want extreme 6 pack abs like people get from being dehydrated for movies #the things i want aren't unhealthy or unachievable (i don't think anyway) #i don't want them just because society thinks being fat is bad #it has a lot more with wanting to be strong and have muscles and not feel soft #than it does the number on the scale or any stretch marks or what size pants i wear #sure i watch superhero movies and wish i looked like them. but i am also aware i'm not fucking male #and my hip bones won't ever be that shape no matter how much i work out #so i would like to think that as a reasonably intelligent 25 year old i can figure out how i want to look #and not have it entirely be just because society told me to look like that #and that wanting these things doesn't make me some evil brainwashed asshole #i don't know that all of this is making sense anymore or actually making point i am trying to make. i'm tired #anyway. to wrap up. fuck other people. i don't have to listen to shit #and if i want to do push-ups and eat lots of protein and get hugeass biceps you can't stop me #and i'm not evil for not wanting my belly button to look like a circle and not a squished frown

[piplupod]

hate that you can have possibly the most horrific realisation of your life and your body completely freaks out and starts fighting itself and you are just expected to keep going with your day like normal. i feel like maybe i should get a month away from any and all responsibilities at the very least to recover and adjust to having this knowledge

#my god!!! my god!!! the horrors do not end!!! #in fact old horrors will come back to haunt you again!!! #i wish i had not gone digging and prodding but oops i am so stupid and also i cannot stop my brain from putting pieces together!! #i have a counseling appt tomorrow but i honestly dont think i can bring this up. how do u bring up such a thing! esp when u have no proof! #i do not think the pieces would all fit together so perfectly and the body and brain would not react so violently if it were not true thoug #i do not want it to be true dear fucking god can this not be true please. can i be mistaken maybe. can it be just a series of coincidences. #i do not know how to cope with this if it is true. and the most awful thing is i'll likely never know for sure #i do not have memory of any of those times. i will never know unless another part comes forward w memories #and maybe its better to not know? but i feel sick. i feel so very sick!! i cannot deal w this!! #Chase took over for half the day and he's sooo pissed at me for digging but i sincerely could not stop putting things together #everyone in the brain is so mad at me i think fsdjkl i feel so awful and sick and the body is so fucked up now #i want to bring it up w counselor but i'd have to bring up a lot of other things and she's about to go on pregnancy/maternity leave #i dont want to be... burdensome. and idk who will be replacing her #idk !!! i wish i could just undo all of that thinking this morning!! i fucked up!! i shouldnt have thought about it!! #i regret it but i also cannot stop wanting to know the truth!! and i hate this!! i dont want this to be real!! please i hope its not!! #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[murobrown]

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#it's that time of the month when I just want to sell my uterus on black market with human organs #the week leading up to my period is far more worse than the actual period #it made me gain 2 kg and I can't stop freaking out about it...i know i lose them every month but my brain won't leave me alone #it's making me want to starve myself or just work out until i collapse #tmi sorry...how is your Friday evening? #I'm bored and I'm deciding between going to bed before 11 pm or let my brain torture me a little bit more #I don't even think I'm excited about the weekend anymore because it means I'll have to eat again #you just eat and work out and eat and work out and try not think about the calories because we're not doing thay anymore #but deep down my brain still knows the numbers and won't let me go over 900 calories #i perfected my body but destroyed my head even more #i shouldn't say thay but maybe it's worth it #feeling happy in my own skin is the best feeling in the world #and I know I'm shallow because of that but for the first time in my life i like my body #i actually like all parts of my body #and knowing that i did it with all that hard work feels even better #but on the other hand now I'm just too scared I'm going to lose it all if I eat a cookie after lunch #i think I'm too deep into this #is it bad that I like the feeling of bones under my skin? #am I becoming delusional? #that's what a menstrual cycle does to a emotionally unstable woman #it makes me feel angry that out of four weeks in a month i get like max two weeks when I feel good and normal #all of that for nothing #anyway maybe it's time to stop myself..

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #told my brother about how I trimmed my sublingual frenulum and he explained to me how apparently I'm a 12 on the weird scale #he was like “at least it wasn't the dick one” and I had to tell him that yeah I already got that one like.. two years ago. #I think I'm now a 13 on the weird scale in his eyes #idk. it's always an isolating experience to meet people who are like “yeah I'm so weird I'm a freak!” and then I start talking and they just #the slow horror creeps across their face and suddenly I'm the freak again. #and here's the thing. yeah it's mixed up in mental instability but it's rooted in a genuine view that my body is just an object #I feel better than I've ever felt and I've been thinking about how I don't like that part of my body. so I changed it. simple as that. #it's not self harm it's self actualization. I'm creating something. #this is my gripe with mental health professionals. they view it as pathology. view it as a problem. #was me piercing my ears an act of self harm? I would say no. but deliberately sticking a needle into your body could be extrapolated as such #idk. just because I'm not like everyone else doesn't make me a freak. doesn't make me bad. doesn't make me abhorrent. #I like the fact that I'm becoming more confident in my weirdness. owning it. if anyone doesn't like it they can leave. I am who I am. #I still want some sort of wing design across my back and shoulder blades but I think I'll actually have to get that done professionally. #some day. not soon for sure. but eventually #my back is relatively bare compared to my front since my arm reach is limited so you know. #but like. a dragon wing design kinda like the red dragon Hannibal-style #wouldn't that absolutely fuck severely? #I think it would #I don't want more far out body mods like split tongue or piercings on less practical body parts #though actually ngl after bottom surgery I would actually totally get some sort of labial piercing maybe. #that would actually be sick as hell I think. #zero desire to pierce my dick cause I don't want it at all so the less attention it gets the better #anyway. done rambling for now.